Seeing your letter again makes me happy. I see that you have an interest in me. The desire to know me, and most importantly, I am glad that you understand that I am not trying to play with you, or to get something from you. My goal is not profit! My goal is to make my life not alone. And I hope that our letters and words will help us do this. And our life will change for the better.
I am pleased to understand that you are interested in communicating with me, and you want to know more about you. And as I said, I hope that you will tell the same more about yourself and your life in your letters.
How are you xxx? Hope you're doing great and you're in a good mood !? How is the weather? And in general, how is the situation in your country !? As I watch the news, I see that the world is in total chaos. First, COVID-19 happened, now rallies are taking place in almost every country. It's even scary to become! What else will this 2020 give us ?!
But to admit, I would not want to discuss this with you. Politics and illness are not a good topic of conversation. Moreover, in reality, we would not immediately discuss each other's illnesses! That would be silly! Ha ha ha. Do you agree?
xxx, as I understand, you are not much tired of reading my last letter ?! Ha ha ha. I'm sorry there are so many words. But I really have a lot of thoughts, questions, and most importantly, I cannot express my feelings, thoughts, my life in a few words. It's not real to me. But I know for sure that if you still read my letters to the end, then you understand a lot! And this is important. It is important for me.
I hope you have time to read my letter today and continue our acquaintance! Ha ha ha. I haven't written it yet, but trust me, I know it will be big. Because ... as I said, I have a lot of thoughts.
As you probably already understood, I like to write. In a letter I can express my thoughts. And in general, I think that this is not a bad way to get acquainted. In reality, I don’t know how I would have acted and how I would have answered this or that question. And in the letter, I can think, I can correctly formulate the words, thereby you will understand my thoughts. You will understand me. Which is very important when meeting. I think that very few people understand and appreciate this opportunity. Letters, that's fine. And at the moment this is the only way of communication that I can offer you. I already told you that I am careful in dating. Since the past experience left a not very pleasant "trace" in my life.
Oh yes. I want to warn you right away, and ask your forgiveness if you have to wait for my letter for 1-2 days! Just because of the mountainous terrain, and the strong winds that I have in the city, the Internet does not work very well. And I just physically can't do anything to write to you. But don't worry, that doesn't happen very often. So I'll write to you almost always. Ha ha ha. And sometimes I just have a lot of work. Yes Yes. I am working. You did not forget ? ha ha ha So I ask you to be patient sometimes, and I understand. That I will also take into account in relation to you!
And although due to quarantine and this disease I almost did not work for several months, there are still orders for colors, and I will also work at school again, since the school year begins, and I need to check many students.
I go to Baku 1-2 times a week. I pick up the flowers, or take the documents. But let's leave the topic of work for later? I will write about the work at the end.
Questions for you. I will try to ask you. Hope I get answers. Of course, I will also be glad to your questions. To which I will try to answer in as much detail as possible. But if I miss something, please do not be angry, believe me, I really may just not understand your letter, was it a question or not ?! So try to ask more correctly. Did you agree? It will be easier for me! And of course for you, because you will receive answers! Ha ha ha.
And if we start communicating and continue, then I would like to ask you only one thing. I ask you to behave towards me like a gentleman. Agree ?! Past communication with a man left not a pleasant "aftertaste". Last year in November, I tried my first meeting on the Internet. It was a man from Poland. About your age. And the first letters were very interesting, photos, stories about his country, about his life. I had an interest in communicating with him, and a desire to get to know each other. But literally after 5-6 days, he began to write me strange requests. Send money. The amounts were not large, and I did not hesitate to send him not so many. He promised to return. But he did not return anything to me. And then, he began to ask for an intimate photo, and all his conversations were about sex. I sent my candid photos, which I was tired of deleting! And with this he greatly disappointed me and upset me. My interest in him, in communication, simply disappeared. I realized that I couldn't communicate with this person anymore, and I stopped answering him. And he started threatening me, insulting me, and doing very bad things. Of course, I sent his letters, and everything I learned about him to the police of his country, through the embassy. And I hope that he will be punished.
It is for this reason that I ask you to be honest, open, and polite with me. And I will treat you just as well. The past always teaches us to be careful! I hope that you will be more elegant and not do the stupid things that usually ruin all the interest in communication. I personally try not to make such mistakes! Ha ha ha, and I will try to be polite and interesting. But sometimes to joke! Ha ha ha
After this incident, I was even disappointed in meeting over the Internet. But what "pushed" me to try my "luck" again, I have already said. Quarantine, I spend a lot of time at home, alone. And this all allowed me to think. Do I want this life? Do I want to be alone forever? And I again decided on an insane act, and wrote to you. What makes you search the Internet for your other half? Are there really no women around? What facilitated you to answer my letter !? Interest, or did you see me and want to know more about me?
What to tell about me? What could be so interesting to you? Maybe not much of my past to understand me better ?!
My mother is Azerbaijani. At 19, she married my father, whom I had not even seen! After she confessed that he had run away like a coward after learning that my mother was pregnant. It is banal, insulting, and you know, it's better to be without a father than to know that he is a coward !!!! Do you agree with me? A man, like a woman, should be responsible for their words and their actions! Or am I not right? My mom raised me alone. When I was 18, she died. Cancer. Due to great fatigue, she started smoking! She believed that cigarettes helped her to relax. It is a pity that they only harm her health. And her lungs. It is for this reason that I do not smoke. Although I had a moment in my life when I also thought that cigarettes helped me cope with fatigue. Yes, I have smoked in the past. But realizing that I do not want to repeat the fate of my mother, I have not smoked for over 13 years. And I don't even remember exactly when I quit smoking. And I think that these are "mistakes of a young life."
Her death was a turning point for me. It was very difficult for me to accept the fact that she no longer exists. And you know, I coped with it only by gaining the faith that she did not leave me! She just left this world. And I'm not talking about the Bible or about faith in God. I'm talking about my faith that she will always live, because I remember her, and she is in my heart. I think that you will understand me. “As long as we remember people, they always live in our thoughts” ©.
Then study, work, and you know, I decided not to leave for a big city, although I could get a job in Baku. But I didn't want to live in a big city. A big city ... I don't even know how to say it, it seems to "press" on me. So life in a small town is mine.
I have already told everything about my work. Flowers ... what exactly to tell about this work? Ha ha Ha how to get the right bouquet? Or how do you recognize a fresh flower or a frozen one? I think that there is no need to waste words about this work! But about my second job, I would gladly tell. I already wrote that I finished a course in psychology! And I work in high school for several months a year. Our city is not a big school, about 140-160 students study. Secondary grade 9, and then they go to lyceums. And so that you understand what my job at school is, here are some examples of what I do.
* Observe and evaluate children during classes and play activities.
* Maintain records in accordance with legal, district and administrative requirements.
* helping students understand and solve social, behavioral and personal problems.
* Assess ability, interest and talent to develop academic and career goals.
* And psychological help. When there are any problems with friends, or in their families.
But if I say in simple words, I try to help, and make their life no better, and not dwell on small problems, do not do stupid things.
This is what my job is about
We can talk about this for a long time. But I will not do this, because I already understand that the letter has become very large. Aren't you tired of reading? Have you read up to this point, or just flipped through the text? Ha ha ha. I want to believe that you will still read my every word. And you will understand me better. I still have a lot of questions! And there are many things I would like to talk about. But I don't think you need to do this right now. I think that now you just need to communicate. It's enough for today! I don't want to sound like a "bore" Ha ha ha.
Well, now, about you! I am interested to know about you. Your past (all the things you could tell me)? What are your interests, hobbies? What are you looking for? And what would you like to get from our communication? Why are you alone? Why didn't you meet anyone in your country? Why did you answer me?
Now I will finish my and so much more letter. Hope you haven't fallen asleep !? Ha ha ha.
Have a nice day and good mood. And most importantly, smiles!
Irina, but the kids at school often call me Irena, or simply Era
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