I have really pleasant day xxx, good mood, and I think, that it happened because of the fact, that you wrote me new letter. Your answered and this is already a pleasant continuation of this day. I would like to know, how are you today? What’s new in your life? And also to ask one important question! What do you think of starting our dialogue?! I understand that we should learn much more about each other and the main thing to understand, whether it is necessary to communicate further? Believe, I wish to learn about you more and more every time, to learn you as a person. It is very interesting to me, and it is curious.
I really have nobody very close to me now, and for me it is difficultly a lot. And on it, I wrote you the first short letter, because.... Because for me it is just not to whom to do it. And so it would be desirable to talk, learn you. Man, who is not next to me, not in my life, not in my country. And to share that things, that I so long held in myself. With the person as you, from other country, which I at all do not know. And it make me really much easier.
At me the same I have a family… or I had family. I have mum, whom I love and father who left in another country. But I can not forgive his betrayal. That he has thrown us, and has left to other woman. And because of what we have returned to a native land of my mum, to Azerbaijan.
Maybe it will be too personal question, but did you feel serious betrayal in your life before?
But I left from my mum because of other reason. I studied, and could not live in this family. My mum has married for other man, and he has been brought up by old traditions of religion of this country. Which I never accept. And that you could understand it better, I will tell more to you, that I could make, and that I was forbidden to do! I could not look films, which I wanted, some TV programs. To dress how I wanted, and most important thing to be on friendly terms with boys, and as a final to fall in love with them. I couldn’t do all what can do usual kids in another countries. I think I can say, that I had no normal childhood. So, if it’s not hard for you, then I hope you tell me few things about yours childhood.
And while I lived in the house of my mum, all that time I wanted to live how I really wish, to dress on, and to communicate with that, whom I like, with whom it was good for me to communicate with. And for me it was really difficult, and my mum saw it. But I did not want, that the stepfather has made me such, as many Muslim girls.
I wanted acquaintance and the relations. So I read books much, and I represent love differently. Not as a sale or the preliminary arrangement!
Love, it when you understand it without words, when you feel it. You wake up earlier to make a tasty supper, and have all time care of your loved one. And looking to his eyes, to speak how much he is dear for you and how strong is your love. Certainly there will be quarrels, but also there will be a happy. I really want that could learn more and more about each other from each new day. And the most important thing, the person whom I will love, will have not only my body. He will have my heart near to his, my soul and all my feelings. And I will be true him till the end of my days. It is a love in my opinion! These are true feelings!
But I understand sad true, that young men in my country want only one thing. Some sexual fun. And they do not know words, such as honor, fidelity, love. Sincere love. And I’m sure that an adult person, who has life experience, knows the price of each moment of a life, such person will be always near to you. Also will not betray you ever! And for this reason I do not see, and I do not worry about age difference. The main thing is that the person has opened his heart, if I open it to him. That first of all he must understand also that I’m the girl who is not afraid neither works, nor difficulties, but is afraid to be lonely till the end of her days! I wanted to tell you, that after I return in childhood from Bulgaria, I never been abroad again. But I’m sure that life there should be better than here. And most of all relations between people much better, I think.
So, I have nothing to tell you about my family. You likely could tell much more about your family. And here now, I have made one step, a step which will allow to me to learn a lot of the new things. To be on friendly terms with you. And who knows, that waits for us ahead... ? On this question I am afraid that I do not have answer yet. Only time will show it.
On it I will finish my letter. I will wait to see your letter, and I will write the answer. Certainly if you still answer me. (Smile)
And again I will enclose in my letter the photo! I hope, that they very much like you. And you as will please, send me your pictures. In my next letters I will tell you more about my interests, hobby, work and some other things. Sorry I didn’t do it in this my letter. I thought that first of all you need to know the things, that I wrote you in this my letter. Maybe all further communication will be not interesting for you… Any way I still hope to get your new letter soon.
Pleasant day. While.
Irina.