Hello xxx. I 'm on the Internet now. I 'm happy to write you a
letter. Today everything is good. I 'm in good physical shape.
Maybe there 's quite a bit of anxiety from a coffee overdose.
But this condition will soon pass. I am in the direction of improving
my mood I still have something to strive for.
I 'm asking you to think about how we can finally solve the meeting problem!
We still haven 't met, it 's a bad downside in our lives. If you look
at the downsides in life through the raised middle finger, they will
be pros. That 's the right phrase I like. We must not now allow life
circumstances to govern us. But sometimes they certainly waste our
time and strength. I 'm sorry, but I can 't help but be sad about you.
I look for positive every time at moments like this. I didn 't
appreciate time that much before, but now I felt how hard it was
alone. I wait and grieve. Yes, a lot of things and worries, but the
thoughts in your head are just about you, how are you there, is
everything all right? I see only your words that express your
thoughts. But as always I 'm interested in knowing more.
I just need to see and feel you. Time separates us from the meeting
now.
Let 's forget the separation now. Let 's erase the negative, melt it,
burn it, get it dirty, cut it... Let 's only keep each other and our
future. And it, if we try, will be the most beautiful and happy.
And we will certainly try, I know! I always share my feelings with
you. And now I 'm doing the same thing again. I understand you, and I
think you understand me almost without words. I have a rare condition
right now where I don 't want to think about problems anymore.
I can call this condition a prerequisite for quiet silence. I 'm
texting you now. And I know that when I walk out the door of an
internet cafe, I will see fuss and life. I 'll see the movement and
the people. But I don 't want to see anything and I don 't want to
feel anything now. I have a simple desire for quiet silence and
happiness beside you.
A state where we don 't need to think about anything. We could just
lie down and see our views opposite each other. Hold hands peacefully
and just keep quiet. After all, our thoughts and hearts are near.
They it is very close. We will catch happy silence and be happy
without being distracted by this world. That 's how I see happiness
and peace.
I 'm trying to have a kind of meditation and reassurance.
I 'm tired and I don 't know how to relieve the tension and get my
biorhythms back to normal...
Do you understand me? I know you 're the only one who can understand
me now. You 're my particle I 'm attracted to. You 're my magnet that
made me dependent. I have now read some words about silence and
pacification and found for myself a parable that I very much liked.
Once the Master asked his students:
- Why when people fight, they scream?
- Because they lose calm, - one told.
"But why yell if another person is close to you?" the Master asked.
You can 't talk to him quietly? Why yell if you 're angry?
The disciples offered their answers, but none of them arranged for the
Master.
He eventually explained:
- When people are unhappy with each other and fight, their hearts are remote.
In order to cover that distance and hear each other, they have to scream.
The more angry they are, the louder they scream.
What happens when people fall in love?
They don 't scream, on the contrary, they speak quietly.
Because their hearts are very close, and the distance between them is
very small.
And when they fall in love even more, what happens? - continued the
Teacher.
"They don 't talk, but they just cross and get even closer in their love.
At the end, they don 't even need to cross.
They only look at each other and everyone understands without words.
It happens when there are two loving people nearby.
In any difficult situation, I would like to see peace and quiet between us.
We must never allow hearts to be separated from each other, not to
utter words, Which further increases the distance between us.
Because there might be a day when the distance is so great that we can
't find the way back.
This truth that serves us for mutual understanding and cannot be a
situation that can develop between us. I know you 're a reasonable and
very experienced person in this life. My words now serve only for our
understanding. I 've always been sure of you and our love. That is why
I often show openness and confess to you in my positive position to
you. The absolute condition of love is openness; Ideally - mutual, but
at times - openness on the part of one loving person is such that it
is enough for two. I love you my sun. I lie down and think about you a
lot. I imagine your eyes are there. I see your kind face before my
eyes and your loving eyes. These fantasies, combined with silence,
give me peace and peace.
I give you my kisses by my dear xxx.
Your Valeriya. :love: