Hello to you my dear xxx!
Hope you are fine!
I can finally relax a little bit and take everything easy. I�m at
home! I have had enough sleep�and do you know what? I saw you in my
dream tonight! I woke up in the morning because before going to bed I
had forgotten to turn off my alarm clock. I remembered all the
details, maybe that�s why I didn�t get angry because of that darn
alarm clock that rang at 6 a.m. But when I put my head on the pillow
and tried to imagine what would happen next, the dream and reality
mixed up. So now I have no idea what I saw. But I�m sure it was
something pleasant�and one more thing I remember for sure is our kiss.
It was very passionate, so passionate that it seems that I still have
the taste of your lips It�s such a great way to start my day, so you
can guess I�m in a perfect mood. But what tried to spoil it a bit was
my poor Internet connection because I sent this letter to you 3 times.
Thanks God I didn�t have to retype it as I had saved it before knowing
the problem with the Internet at home. Can you imagine this? If I
write to you from home I save every paragraph just in case. When I use
Wi-Fi at my work I feel like I am an Australopithecus having just come
from the cave
Well, now I�m sitting in the armchair and drinking a
cup of green tea. By the way, I don�t like any other types of tea �
only green and sometimes black. What about you? And do you usually
drink it with sugar or not? I should know it�maybe one day I will make
you a cup of tea, who knows;) Right now I�m really enjoying writing
you a letter, because I am at home, I shouldn�t be in a hurry. At work
I don�t have such an opportunity. But I always think of you throughout
the day. Of course, I realize it�s not correct being at work to think
of something except it. But I just can�t resist. Don�t tell anybody,
let it be our small secret;) By the way, one of my favourite songs is
playing. It�s �Listen to your heart� by Roxette. I�m sure you know
this song and the singer. It�s such a nice feeling when I�m at home,
there�s such a peaceful and cosy atmosphere around me, my favourite
song is playing and I�m writing to the man I really need, I really
like. Not so long ago I had a really tasty meal�I had baked potatoes
with chicken. If only you could taste it! It definitely would make
your mouth water. And now, sorry, again some sentimentality�I have
become a bit soppy, right? But still I can�t hold it inside, that�s
why I want to express everything I feel. With each day I start to
realize that all this is real, that I�m not alone anymore. I have you
in my life! You who have your own opinion, your own thoughts. I can�t
put it into words how happy I am by this fact. Sometimes I even cry
with happiness (I know, it may seem silly,don�t tell anybody, I can�t
control it). Try to understand I had been alone for a rather long
period of time. It�s hard to completely realize that I needn�t run
away from the loneliness anymore. It�s like I have won a lottery where
the prize is the happiness with the amazing man (hey, I�m talking
about you). Now I can�t imagine my life without you. You have become
the part of it, the jigsaw puzzle that I had lacked. And it seemed
that all the details were at their places but there was not that
central part without which the picture wouldn�t be bright and
beautiful. And now I have got it. And all my life has changed. I have
so much to say! The feelings overwhelm me! And now as we have become
even closer to each other I have one more confession. I liked you
earlier, almost in the beginning. Something pulled me towards you. But
I was not brave enough to say it because I could frighten you and
therefore reject you. And already at that time it was some sort of a
signal for me, the signal that maybe I had written to the right man. I
wasn�t wrong. Because after I opened my soul you understood me. And I
wanted to explore you even more. So..love can be at the first time.
However in my case it was the love at the first letter If only you
were beside me right now! We both can only imagine it right now, but
it�s also charming to share our dreams with each other. I�m curious,
what would you do if you were next to me right now? Tell me, please?
As far as I am concerned, I would like to hug you strongly right now,
to press myself to you as though I see you for the last time! I want
to feel you close, the warmth of your body, your strong arms running
over my back, me hiding my nose in your chest. I�m describing it now
and seeing this picture as a real one. I think I would cry with
happiness at such moment, when I would be finally able to let all my
thoughts, all my emotions and feelings out of my breast. But you know,
I wouldn�t be afraid of my tears. Do you know why? Because I know that
you understand me and that I can always rely on you. You will always
support and therefore you wouldn�t pull me back.
And I�m also sure you would experience the same emotions like me,
that�s why you would press me even harder in your embrace. I know it.
I feel it. Oh my dear, your shirt would be definitely wet because of
my tears regardless how long you tried to reassure me How much I want
to be in your embrace and hear from you that everything would be fine.
Well, it�s what I want right now (not only to cry in your arms). I
also often imagine our free time being spent together. We would go for
walks to the park with my hand in yours. Maybe we would even have a
picnic there, why not. We could cook something together. Me cutting
cheese and you standing from behind helping me with your hand to cut
cheese. We would also go to the cinema�or we could spend so cosy
evenings together and watch films at home. What films do you like the
most? As for me I�m fond of good comedies and dramas Anyway I don�t
think we would argue because of the films, of what film to watch I
would watch any film you like. I need just you close to me, enjoying
us being alone in our own world, in our shelter. Of course, they are
just dreams but it�s a marvelous thing we can let us do. Just imagine
how amazing it would be to wake up and fall asleep beside each other.
I would wake up earlier than you and watch how peacefully you sleep.
Then I would give you a gentle kiss and go to the kitchen in order to
make you breakfast. I can imagine it all so easily! I can imagine how
I would touch your lips before kissing. That soft, slight touch of my
and your lips, my fingers running over your face, you hands in my
hair. Our kiss, at first gentle and then becoming more and more
passionate. Oh God, I want you. I want you as a man, yes (I�ve turned
on a little while writing it all because I have so bright images in my
head). I want to sink in our passion, making love to each other, fall
into our strong feelings. I want to feel your body close to mine. I
want to run over your body with my hands, I want to feel your hands,
your fingers around my body. I want to caress you, give you many soft
kisses, kiss every inch of your body. I want to give you so much love!
Yes, I want you and I really love you! With all my heart! And now all
these feelings are overwhelming me so much that I want to scream about
it. It�s so pleasant to realize that it�s all real, it�s happening
now, in real life, not in a book or a film. It�s strange and crazy,
let it be! Let�s enjoy the moment. I hope so much that one day our
dreams will come true! That there will be no distance between us, no
obstacles, no borders. There will be only you and I. I�m sure it will
happen, one day, not tomorrow of course. But one day for sure! I will
be near and will always hold your hand regardless what the future
holds. I intend to make you the happiest man I had been waiting for
these feelings so long! And now I have you as mine. I will put aside
all the thoughts that it�s strange, it�s not real. On the opposite I
will dream, I will enjoy what we have, I will believe in the future,
our future. And what is the most important, I will believe you because
I love you Now unfortunately I must finish my letter, I have written
pretty much today. But now at least you have an idea how I feel and
why I can�t express myself better � there are so many thoughts in my
head Please, come to me this night again! I would be able to give you
many kisses there�and maybe not only kisses;) I love you. I�m looking
forward to your answer and sending you all my love and all my hugs
Your Masha!