Dear xxx. How are you? What are your plans ?
Sorry for my long answers. I often have much work and this week is
especially busy for some reasons. But I constantly think of you and
these thoughts are the most pleasant for me, they always cheer me up.
You see? Even being so far away from me, without writing you make me
feel good. This is one of the reasons why I crave writing you and
always try to find some free time to do it. Well, anyway I am doing
fine regardless how much work I have and how busy I am. But I have a
really strange feeling. I�m so happy, so incredibly happy and at the
same time I still can�t believe that all this is happening with me.
You and I, in such a distance from each other, having only our
letters�it�s crazy! But as we are both happy and feel great I like it!
I wait for your letters even with greater anticipation now! I want to
see all your answers�I like the way you write, the way you express
yourself, and I like you. You are constantly on my mind, I see you so
real in my head that sometimes I think that I�m going mad. Of course,
I am alright physically but spiritually maybe�maybe some butterflies
from my stomach have reached my head as well? Those butterflies..oh
God, I want to express my feelings and emotions much better but I
can�t do it because English isn�t my native language. Just believe
that I have very warm feelings inside, I feel so good, so happy! And I
hope that you feel it as well because for me it�s very important. I
always want you to be happy and healthy, I want you to feel needed.
And to be honest, I don�t know how to behave in this case. We are
trying to be together, as a couple, right? I find it all so strange
because for me it�s the first experience. Have you ever been in this
kind of relations? I haven�t. That�s why I don�t know what to do, how
to behave. And actually I behave the way I feel. Maybe that�s why I
can seem very naive sometimes. I just try to be open with you and give
you as much of myself as possible. I have been single for a rather
long period of time�more than 7 years, I guess. At first I was even
happy that finally I had time for myself, that I could do some things
that I had wanted. I took the make up lessons, for example. But step
by step I began feeling more and more miserable especially in those
moments when I saw my friends being happy in marriage or with their
boyfriends, girlfriends. I realized how lonely I was. I realized that
I couldn�t bare my loneliness anymore. But all the men who paid
attention to be didn�t have that effect on me that you do! And it
seems that the letters of yours have managed to give me more than long
direct communication with other people! You like have turned my world
upside down! Your letters help me to understand so many things. Now I
see what a tremendous power have words. I also feel your so warm
relations towards me. Listen, you are a really great man. You are so
wonderful and charming. You look at the world the way I do. We are
like on the same wave. And I feel so close to you. I thought it is not
possible. But every time you prove me the opposite. It�s possible and
moreover it�s happening with me�with us. It�s marvelous what we have.
I also know that perhaps we will fail to be together. You know, all
that distance. We are more than 1000 kilometers from each other. But I
desperately believe that one day we will be able to crash this barrier
and finally we will be beside each other. Every time I imagine it (and
I must confess that I imagine it very often last time), I feel the
wave of strong pleasant feelings in my stomach. I imagine how we stand
in front of each other looking at each other�s eyes, how strongly you
squeeze my hands and pull me towards yourself. I�m pretty sure it�s so
great to feel you close, smell you, touch you, feel your arms around
my body. I also imagine our first kiss..feel your lips on mine is what
I really want. I resist seeing all those pictures in my head. They are
so bright that sometimes they seem real. Regardless the fact whether
we see each other in real life or not anyway, I am very glad that I
have you in my life. You have given me so much but first of all, you
have saved me. You have made me believe that there are such people who
fully understand me and who want to do it. You can�t even imagine how
much I want to give you. I want to give you all myself just in order
to see your happy smile (I have imagined again how it must be
wonderful to kiss your smiled face).
And if it happens so that we will be together only in letters, if our
feelings are expressed only in words, anyway I want it. You are
changing me, you are changing the whole world making it a brighter and
more pleasant place to live. I smile much more often and finally I
have begun to believe in good things, that they are possible. I�m not
even sure whether it�s all important for me or not. But I desperately
believe that you don�t play with my feelings, that you are sincere
with me. There have been enough lies and betrayals in my life..that�s
why I always ask you to say what you really feel. But what I really
like is that we both can dream in our letters. Here we can build the
world, our world. The world that we both want to see and where there
are only we. Perhaps one day, we will make our dreams come true. Now,
looking at us, at our relations, we both can say for sure that
everything is possible in our life XXXXXXXXXXX, I need you, need you
with all my heart. So please, don�t leave me. From my side I can say
that I will never treat you badly, I will never deceive or betray you,
I will never let you go until you want it yourself. Sending you all my
hugs and kisses, Your Masha

Hello to you my dear xxx!
Hope you are fine!
I can finally relax a little bit and take everything easy. I�m at
home! I have had enough sleep�and do you know what? I saw you in my
dream tonight! I woke up in the morning because before going to bed I
had forgotten to turn off my alarm clock. I remembered all the
details, maybe that�s why I didn�t get angry because of that darn
alarm clock that rang at 6 a.m. But when I put my head on the pillow
and tried to imagine what would happen next, the dream and reality
mixed up. So now I have no idea what I saw. But I�m sure it was
something pleasant�and one more thing I remember for sure is our kiss.
It was very passionate, so passionate that it seems that I still have
the taste of your lips It�s such a great way to start my day, so you
can guess I�m in a perfect mood. But what tried to spoil it a bit was
my poor Internet connection because I sent this letter to you 3 times.
Thanks God I didn�t have to retype it as I had saved it before knowing
the problem with the Internet at home. Can you imagine this? If I
write to you from home I save every paragraph just in case. When I use
Wi-Fi at my work I feel like I am an Australopithecus having just come
from the cave Well, now I�m sitting in the armchair and drinking a
cup of green tea. By the way, I don�t like any other types of tea �
only green and sometimes black. What about you? And do you usually
drink it with sugar or not? I should know it�maybe one day I will make
you a cup of tea, who knows;) Right now I�m really enjoying writing
you a letter, because I am at home, I shouldn�t be in a hurry. At work
I don�t have such an opportunity. But I always think of you throughout
the day. Of course, I realize it�s not correct being at work to think
of something except it. But I just can�t resist. Don�t tell anybody,
let it be our small secret;) By the way, one of my favourite songs is
playing. It�s �Listen to your heart� by Roxette. I�m sure you know
this song and the singer. It�s such a nice feeling when I�m at home,
there�s such a peaceful and cosy atmosphere around me, my favourite
song is playing and I�m writing to the man I really need, I really
like. Not so long ago I had a really tasty meal�I had baked potatoes
with chicken. If only you could taste it! It definitely would make
your mouth water. And now, sorry, again some sentimentality�I have
become a bit soppy, right? But still I can�t hold it inside, that�s
why I want to express everything I feel. With each day I start to
realize that all this is real, that I�m not alone anymore. I have you
in my life! You who have your own opinion, your own thoughts. I can�t
put it into words how happy I am by this fact. Sometimes I even cry
with happiness (I know, it may seem silly,don�t tell anybody, I can�t
control it). Try to understand I had been alone for a rather long
period of time. It�s hard to completely realize that I needn�t run
away from the loneliness anymore. It�s like I have won a lottery where
the prize is the happiness with the amazing man (hey, I�m talking
about you). Now I can�t imagine my life without you. You have become
the part of it, the jigsaw puzzle that I had lacked. And it seemed
that all the details were at their places but there was not that
central part without which the picture wouldn�t be bright and
beautiful. And now I have got it. And all my life has changed. I have
so much to say! The feelings overwhelm me! And now as we have become
even closer to each other I have one more confession. I liked you
earlier, almost in the beginning. Something pulled me towards you. But
I was not brave enough to say it because I could frighten you and
therefore reject you. And already at that time it was some sort of a
signal for me, the signal that maybe I had written to the right man. I
wasn�t wrong. Because after I opened my soul you understood me. And I
wanted to explore you even more. So..love can be at the first time.
However in my case it was the love at the first letter If only you
were beside me right now! We both can only imagine it right now, but
it�s also charming to share our dreams with each other. I�m curious,
what would you do if you were next to me right now? Tell me, please?
As far as I am concerned, I would like to hug you strongly right now,
to press myself to you as though I see you for the last time! I want
to feel you close, the warmth of your body, your strong arms running
over my back, me hiding my nose in your chest. I�m describing it now
and seeing this picture as a real one. I think I would cry with
happiness at such moment, when I would be finally able to let all my
thoughts, all my emotions and feelings out of my breast. But you know,
I wouldn�t be afraid of my tears. Do you know why? Because I know that
you understand me and that I can always rely on you. You will always
support and therefore you wouldn�t pull me back.
And I�m also sure you would experience the same emotions like me,
that�s why you would press me even harder in your embrace. I know it.
I feel it. Oh my dear, your shirt would be definitely wet because of
my tears regardless how long you tried to reassure me How much I want
to be in your embrace and hear from you that everything would be fine.
Well, it�s what I want right now (not only to cry in your arms). I
also often imagine our free time being spent together. We would go for
walks to the park with my hand in yours. Maybe we would even have a
picnic there, why not. We could cook something together. Me cutting
cheese and you standing from behind helping me with your hand to cut
cheese. We would also go to the cinema�or we could spend so cosy
evenings together and watch films at home. What films do you like the
most? As for me I�m fond of good comedies and dramas Anyway I don�t
think we would argue because of the films, of what film to watch I
would watch any film you like. I need just you close to me, enjoying
us being alone in our own world, in our shelter. Of course, they are
just dreams but it�s a marvelous thing we can let us do. Just imagine
how amazing it would be to wake up and fall asleep beside each other.
I would wake up earlier than you and watch how peacefully you sleep.
Then I would give you a gentle kiss and go to the kitchen in order to
make you breakfast. I can imagine it all so easily! I can imagine how
I would touch your lips before kissing. That soft, slight touch of my
and your lips, my fingers running over your face, you hands in my
hair. Our kiss, at first gentle and then becoming more and more
passionate. Oh God, I want you. I want you as a man, yes (I�ve turned
on a little while writing it all because I have so bright images in my
head). I want to sink in our passion, making love to each other, fall
into our strong feelings. I want to feel your body close to mine. I
want to run over your body with my hands, I want to feel your hands,
your fingers around my body. I want to caress you, give you many soft
kisses, kiss every inch of your body. I want to give you so much love!
Yes, I want you and I really love you! With all my heart! And now all
these feelings are overwhelming me so much that I want to scream about
it. It�s so pleasant to realize that it�s all real, it�s happening
now, in real life, not in a book or a film. It�s strange and crazy,
let it be! Let�s enjoy the moment. I hope so much that one day our
dreams will come true! That there will be no distance between us, no
obstacles, no borders. There will be only you and I. I�m sure it will
happen, one day, not tomorrow of course. But one day for sure! I will
be near and will always hold your hand regardless what the future
holds. I intend to make you the happiest man I had been waiting for
these feelings so long! And now I have you as mine. I will put aside
all the thoughts that it�s strange, it�s not real. On the opposite I
will dream, I will enjoy what we have, I will believe in the future,
our future. And what is the most important, I will believe you because
I love you Now unfortunately I must finish my letter, I have written
pretty much today. But now at least you have an idea how I feel and
why I can�t express myself better � there are so many thoughts in my
head Please, come to me this night again! I would be able to give you
many kisses there�and maybe not only kisses;) I love you. I�m looking
forward to your answer and sending you all my love and all my hugs
Your Masha!

Hello my love, xxx! Have you been missing me? Although I know the answer,
anyway I want to hear it�(or see in our case) When you say that you
miss me it constantly makes me feel really happy and it also makes me
realize that you need me. It�s such a pleasant feeling � to need
someone and to be needed. I think it happens in all the relations that
are on the distance when partners begin to doubt. I have fully opened
to you � so now I�m like an opened book for you, I have no secrets. I
can�t say that I doubt..but I have some fears. I�m afraid that you can
leave me, I�m afraid of being played with, I�m afraid of loneliness.
I�m pretty sure you feel the same. Am I right? I don�t know why I am
writing this to you � perhaps I want to hear your reassurance that
everything will be fine with us and that you believe in us. You are so
far away from me, that�s why all these thoughts come to my mind from
time to time. Trust me, I will never betray or deceive you, I will
never leave you. You are so deep in my heart that I can�t imagine now
my life without you. You make me so happy and from my part I have so
much happiness, so much love to give as well. But these are only
words. Of course, they are not empty, no way. I�m sure you understand
what I mean. Well�when you love someone you want to express your
feelings towards the partner not only through words but also
physically. Sometimes no words are needed to tell about our love. We
don�t have this opportunity, unfortunately. It�s getting harder with
each day to wake up in the morning and don�t have a chance to see your
sleepy face beside me. I would give everything to those powers that
would provide me with a chance to give you many soft morning kisses,
make you breakfast, make love to you (it�s a good way to start our
day, isn�t it? ). Understand me correctly, you are very precious to
me. You have become the part of my life. You are constantly on my mind
even when we don�t write to each other. I believe you, I believe in
your love, I trust you. But each time when I go to bed these fears
come to my mind and begin to attack it. I keep them inside but it�s
complicated. I try to defeat them but in mast cases I fail, that�s why
I decided to tell you. I�m just really frightened of being alone. I
want to say that now I�m really scared of our dreams not coming true.
It�s the only thing that makes me upset right now. It�s so painful to
think that we are just wasting our time and living in dreams. I don�t
want it. As well as I don�t want to go to my bed alone, I don�t want
to cook meals only for myself, I don�t want to see happy couples and
imagine us on their places. I crave to take care of you, to give you
reasons to smile each day, to support you and strongly hold your hand
whatever the future holds. Maybe it would be better to stop it until
it�s late? But the only thought of it breaks my heart. I don�t want to
lose you! I love you with all my heart! That�s why I want to be with
you so much. So maybe we will make our plans real? Do you yourself
enjoy this life without chances to kiss me and taking care of me? I
thought about it, about all that is happening between us. I want to
change everything, I want to change my life, make our dreams real and
enjoy you being next to me, enjoying life together! Because you are
that person who has completely changed my life. I will never be tired
of saying it because I have never been so in love, I have never been
so happy! I don�t know what other words to use to give you at least a
slight idea what I really feel towards you! I�m sure in myself, but
what about you? Are you ready to make these changes in your life? Do
you really want to be with me? Of course, you say that you love me,
that you want to do this with me, to do that. But they can be just
words that will never change anything. I don�t want to believe in it
but it may be true. I think that I end my letter now. But I'll try to
wait your next letter. Love you!! Your Masha!

Hope you are doing fine, xxx! How is your week going?
As far as I am concerned, I�m great. How else can I feel if I have the
best man? I have missed you so so much! And now I�m so glad that
finally I have an opportunity to write you. Our letters constantly
warm my heart. Darling, I still have so many thoughts in my head. It
seems there have become even more of them since my last letter! I can
see us beside each other so perfectly and now I want it even more (if
it is possible, of course), I want all our dreams to come true! Now we
are on that stage when we need to go further�or to stop. I have said
to you not a single time that I love our letters, love that feeling of
anticipation when I wait for your answers. But at the same time let�s
realize the fact that we can�t always live in the virtual world we
both have created. Especially in our case when we are so in love with
each other. Unfortunately they are only words. No one can say exactly
how much time more we will express our feelings only through words,
through our letters. You know, I want serious relationship, that�s why
I�m so serious towards you. I don�t want to wait long, I don�t want to
get stuck in the virtual world. I'm tired to be lonely. On the
contrary, I want something real, I would like to express my feelings
to you in a physical way. And I hope you too? Here we both must want
it and try to attain our object! The letters we write have let us
understand what we really want. In them we have opened our inner
worlds to each other, shared our dreams and thoughts. They are always
so nice, so sincere and loving. But I want more, I want you! I love
you with all my heart and I want to give you all of it! Don�t we
really deserve the happiness we can get? The opportunity to be
together, enjoying each other by occasional soft kisses or passionate
ones? By having many warm and strong cuddles with my hand in yours? I
want to feel your love by looking into your eyes, feeling you close,
by making love to each other. I can�t stop thinking of all the things
we can do together, they are so marvelous�they are something that I
have been looking for so long. We both have been waiting for it,
right? You have given me hope that it�s all possible, that we can be
beside each other, that we can make each other happy! You have changed
my whole world, made it brighter and now I have no desire to go back
to my previous lonely life. Now I have that feeling that warms my
heart, I feel needed and loved. I�m so happy with you! I love you as
you are�and you are constantly on my mind. You know, even when I go to
bed I hug my pillow imagining you instead of it! (Oh yes, sometimes
even I myself think that I am crazy ). Anyway I adore this effect you
have on me and my life! It�s the best experience�and it�s the reason
why I want to be near so much! It�s the reason why I want our meeting
and why I am ready for it though I still have some fears� But I'm
sure, that I want to meet you!! I�m afraid of making a mistake. But
each time I think of it I realize that if we continue being afraid,
will we be ever together? Fear is our opponent number one. But in my
opinion we should fight with it..because I personally think there are
no obstacles for love. Are you of the same opinion? There�s a very
good phrase that has come to my mind � �Either now or never�. If only
you can imagine how much I want to hear you, listen to your stories
about how you spend you day in person, seeing your emotions, your
amazing smile, happy eyes (and understand that I�m in a way the reason
behind that smile of yours). It�s hard not to have an access to your
body�I�m pretty sure you understand me.
Don�t worry, honey, I�m not going to come to you right now (smile).
Now I just want to make our future clearer and try to do at least
something. By the way, I also find it good if we can meet soon. But I
have had many fails�I don�t want to suffer again. I have fear to do
something wrong. And I don�t want to lose you. Darling�if only I can
put it into words to express how strongly I love you, how sincere I
am! It�s something impossible to love so desperately. I�m fully yours.
Me and my heart. Always.
I�m looking forward to your answer.
Your Masha!!!

And hello my dear again xxx!! How are you today? How are you?? I hope that you are doing well.
Today I'm very glad that now I can stay at home and write you a letter. And also I can see your letters again, and also reread them. I love it. I was very worried that I would not see an answer from you today. It was my fear. But now I see that everything is in order and you were waiting for my letter. And now, when I see your answer, I'm very happy, because my greatest fear has dissipated. And you're still here and your intentions are serious about me. And I'm very happy, because I am also very serious. And I'm also glad that you answered my questions. And I will do the same.
Today I'm already at home and I'm very happy, because the house is very quiet and peaceful. The hospital was very noisy every day and I could not relax. Only yesterday, when my friend brought me a computer, I was very happy, because I forgot about everything when I read your letters. And the world around me no longer distracted me. But now, when I'm at home, I can relax even more and completely succumb to my thoughts and feelings.
I'm very glad that you and I are more than just friends. I'm feeling it. I do not know how to convey this in words, but I'm sure that you are also visited by such thoughts and feelings. I think that now we are bound by the bonds of love and mutual understanding. We love each other. And we want our love not to stop. And these are wonderful feelings.
I hope that now everything will be fine and you will see my letters much more often. (Smile) I will try to do everything for this.
Now I want to answer your questions, my dear xxx!
So, I want to start by saying that I was very happy to hear that you agree with me. That I should tell our parents about us and get their consent to our happiness. Although we are adults (smile), but even our parents should know what their children are doing. They can not be worried. And that means I will tell them about us in the near future. And I will immediately tell you about my conversation. I think that it will be also important for you to know about this. Now I want us to do everything together and discuss each issue. I will try to do everything that depends on me, so that we are even closer to each other. And I'm sure that you will do the same for me. And I really want us to do this as often as possible now and I'll start with myself. Now I will try to answer every your question and try not to miss anything. And now I want to apologize for the fact that earlier I could ignore some of your questions and did not answer them. I hope that you will not be angry with me for this.
I love you xxx!! You Masha!!!

Hi my love xxx!!!!
Today I am especially happy, because I can write to you again, and also read your letter. I am the happiest woman on the planet now. And I really like it. And all this because I really love you !!!! And I feel reciprocity on your part. And this is a wonderful feeling.
Today I have a lot of news for you my love xxx!!!
And, perhaps, I'll start by telling you about my trip to my parents. It's very important for me and I think that for you too. I had a good time with my parents.
Yesterday, when I arrived to them, they were as usual on their farm. They were engaged in their garden. And also they were surprised to see me in the middle of the week. (Usually I come to them on the weekends). We went into the house and sat down at the table. We had supper (I came to them in the evening). After dinner, we started talking about everything. My parents had many questions to me, mostly those questions that are asked each time they meet. For example, how do I do? How is my work? My health? But also I was surprised when they asked me about my personal life. I had a feeling that they already knew something. I felt like a movie heroine, where everyone knows everything about my life, but I do not know anything about it (Smile). I think that you will understand this my proposal correctly (smile). And I asked my parents what exactly they know about my personal life. And they answered me that they were just interested. And I began to tell them about us. I told them how we met, how much we are already writing each other in time. And that we love each other. And most importantly, I told them that we want to meet soon. And I asked them what they think about it. And they supported our intentions completely. And they told me that I must decide for myself what to choose and what to do. They also asked me a lot about you. And I told them all about how I feel and how I love you. And they told me that if this is so, then I must meet with you and be happy. And that's what they want for me. And I was very glad to hear about it. And that's why now I'm 100% sure that we are doing everything right and go the right way. And now we just have to wait for the day when we can meet.
I think that you will be glad to hear this and also happy as I am. Because now I'm very happy. I hope that now we can talk about when we can meet ?? Do you think we are in no hurry? I want to hear your answer as soon as possible !! I think that you will agree with me.
I hope that you will be glad to receive this my letter. And also you will write to me soon.
Now I think that I will finish my letter and will wait for your beautiful letters soon !!! I love you, your Masha !!! 

Hi my love xxx!!!
I'm very glad that I can write you a letter again. And now I'm glad that I can tell you about the surprise I'm preparing for you.
And I think that you will be happy when you find out about it now. My heart is full of excitement. And I can only guess what your reaction will be. But I hope that it is completely positive.
So, my surprise is that we can soon be together !!! This is such a joyful news for me, and I think for you too. I have been going to the migration service office here for 4 days to make the documents for the flight to you. It will cost me good money. But I'm ready for it completely. This is my conscious choice. And I think that you'll be glad to hear it. Today I received confirmation that my documents have been accepted for consideration. And that's the only reason I can tell you about this just now. And I hope that you will appreciate this my choice. And also I hope that you will support me and you will be very happy.
Today I'm very tired for the whole day. This paper work, which I did was very tiring. I do not understand how you can fill out all these forms all day. It is so tiresome and deprives the forces.
BUT, I'm very glad that I was able to share this with you. And I think that you can answer me soon and tell me your opinion.
I love you!! Your Masha !!!
P.S. Today I'm very tired and I think that you will not be angry with me for such a short but important letter for me !! 

Hi my love xxx!!!!
I am very happy today that I can write you a letter again. And to report some news. And again there is good news and bad news for us.
And I'll start with the good news. I talked with my parents, we talked for a very long time, discussed the situation. My parents asked why I should do everything myself. Why can not you help me ?? And I tried to explain to them that this is all my decision and I want to come to you myself. But my parents still did not understand me. But they took me money, and I promised them to give this money when I can return. And I hinted to them that it might not happen soon. But they saw all the love that was in my eyes and heart. And I felt it. They just said to say hello to them. And that you care about me. It was only important for my parents, and also our common happiness.
But now there is bad news. The money they gave me, they will not be enough to pay for the ticket. Now I'm missing another $ 350. It's not such a lot of money and I could take a loan. But then I can not leave my country. And also I have no more chances to take money anywhere else. And now this is the only thing that divides us from meeting each other.
By the way, one more good news, my documents will be ready at the end of this week. And now I do not know what to do my love. Now I am very upset by this whole situation. And I do not even know what to tell my parents if I do not go to you. Because they asked me to send them our photo together. I do not know what to do now. Perhaps we can come up with something together ?? Perhaps you have ideas, how can we be together soon ?? I hope that together we will overcome this step and we will be together soon !!!
I love you and will wait for your news soon !!! Your Masha !!!