Hello My darling,
I have been thinking about writing you, but the words did not come until the early hours of today, I laid on my bed with only your thought in my head, I was thinking about only you darling and how far we have come in such a little while, it is strange but amazing, I think less about it these days.
I find it hard to imagine that we have known each other for such a short while, it feels like a lifetime and I cannot remember how I felt before I knew you. They say, when you meet someone you love, it feels like you have known them your whole life, it feels like the other person has got something you did not realise you lost a long time ago. That is how I have been feeling towards you my darling.
Personally, I am looking for someone with a good heart, who's capable of loving me the way I am ready to love her. I am glad we are having these wonderful conversations, we are getting to know each other better and I love the feeling. I sometimes remember that it all started from Internet dating, it feels awkward but what can we do. Earlier in our life's we met people either, at work, parties, bar, movies… but now it feels so different
We seem to have a lot of things in common. You know exactly what you want and that's very admirable. I don't desire a woman who's confused. i am sorry about your past, but as Marilyn Monroe said " I believe everything happens for a reason, People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right........ and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together". We can never stop believing in being happy in life.
I am ready to love a woman forever and to be committed to only one person, that is me and that was how I was until my divorce. I am a one man, one woman person. I truly want to grow old together with someone I do not want to grow old alone, I want, someone who will be the first and last person I see each day, to come home to each other, to read the Sunday paper together, listen to beautiful music, fall asleep with, watch sunsets, cook together, dance, movies, travel, take long walks, hold each other's hands, that feeling when your hands gets lost in theirs yet feels completely safe. I savour these moments, moments of simplicity yet purity. Listening to your heartbeat as I lay on your chest... Moments to be appreciated. I hope i do not put you off with my show of emotions, well i guess with time you will get to find out that i am a very emotional person and it certainly shouldn't put you under any pressure it just the way i was built i guess. laughs
I am very old fashion in many ways. I love nothing more other than in a truly loving relationship, filled with love, friendship, a love that allows you to be you yet has no boundaries to the potential of what your love is. I love the simple things... I am not defined by materialistic things at all.
I have learned so much through life and this has kept me going nonstop, I know good things don't come easily and I am ready to put in what I can to make it work out. I am being optimistic, I feel lucky that I have found that special person who has swept my heart away.
I want to walk with my woman hand in hand down every valley and up any mountain. I learned that communication is a very important factor in starting up a relationship.
I want someone to love and be happy with. I am not looking for someone to mess around with; I want someone I can show love and be happy with for the rest of my Life. All this years, I've not been with any woman. After my divorce 10 years ago, I dedicated my life to my work, and suppressed my needs and my ability to be a great lover. I will give anything to be that man again.
If you ask me to pick a mountain or beach holiday? hmm well I can't pick one of the 2 because I love them both, but I will share one of my experience with you, my best holiday was on a friend's 42 inch Moodey (sailboat) in the Mediterranean, touring the coast of Turkey, putting into little bays for our night-time anchor, and the local lads would row out with bread, homemade rice dishes, fresh yogurt and vegetables from their gardens - to sell for almost nothing. Sailing at night with the Dolphins cruising along in the wake, their silver backs flashing in the moonlight and their popping sounds floating upwards.
I hope my meeting in XXX is very positive living in a proximity close to you is important to me.
My decision to retire and settle down was not sudden, I have thought deeply it about it for two years before the decision was made. The first encounter that led to my decision was, during a scary flight experience to Bolivia 2 years ago. Secondly, people who work in construction retire with health problem or due to major or minor accidents, I started to question my purpose and direction in life. The final straw as they say “that broke the camel’s back” was after I got the call about my mother’s health I knew that was it, at that time i started feeling depressed being away only to go back to an old apartment and with Katie married and gone it only felt emptier, My life felt empty and there was nothing left for me in London.
I can be that man that you want, I am not perfect, I am a good man and you are the kind of person I am interested in knowing. I have told you before and I will say it again you look like an amazing woman, you have touched me somewhere, somehow that I can't explain, I hope things work out between us, I cannot wait to see you in a few days, Oh thinking about it makes me very excited.
I am sending you a picture I took this morning. Sending this email from the hospital while we are waiting for the doctors. Talk to you later
From my Heart,
Martin Johnson
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