Today once again I see your letter, and that means ... That you are interested in me. And you want to know me better! And I think I should tell you more about myself, my interests, and some of my life, past life and present situation.
As I wrote to you in previous letter, I was born and now live in Serbia. Up to 17 years old, I lived with my mother and her man. My native father left us when I was 3 years old. The coward said that he was tired of family life, and that he needs freedom. For mom it was very difficult at that moment, but she got help! Her friend, who later became my stepfather and he replaced for me my father. Some time after that, my native father asked for forgiveness, and wanted to return to us. But mother could not forgive the betrayal, and so did I.
My stepfather took over my education, and gave me a lot of good in this life. He helped me in my childhood, taught how to ride bicycle, played with me much time. He even made for me soup, when I was sick. And I understood that he was not my native father, but I still call him “my dad”. And he also loves and helps all the time to my mother. And looking at this strong love, this happiness, I understood what is a real relationship and a real family should be. And I love it, and I love my mother. They are my family.
In 17 years, they have helped me to collect the money and enter university. After finishing it, I moved to a city where I now live, work, and write a letters for you. It’s not a big city, but I like it. It’s quietly, calmly, and most importantly, a lot of good people who knows me. I think you understand what I mean ?! Or maybe you prefer big, noisy cities? My parents are living in another city, and I sometimes visit them.
In my life there were men, and I had a relationship. But all of these relationships ended. The reasons were different. And if to take the main reasons, it’s that I was betrayed few times, and the fact that my man was not a real man .... How can I explain to you properly? The man is not someone, who only have male physical characteristics. As we know that there are gay's, there are a transvestite, I think it is very difficult to call them “men”! (I normally treat all and gay's and transvestites - it is their choice, their life). But I mean another men, who were in my life. Who could not perform their promises, afraid of serious relationships and were always dependent on the opinions of others people (friends, family or strangers). But I dreamed of and wanted to be near the real man. Who has it’s own opinion, his own views. I would like to be with such man and know that he will not betray me, do not strike me and will not hurt me. Such few usual things, and to admit, I think these men are not exist. Or am I wrong ? I really do not look at age of man at all (my stepfather elder my mom on 23 years), I understand, I see that it is absolute not important. And that age difference can not be a problem for me ever! Externality is also not a problem. As my friend said, "if a monkey suit in human clothes, it would not become a human!" And I agree with her. I look at the ideas, thoughts, at a glance, look at how a person communicates with me right now. And this is important for me. And only then, I be able to understand whether or not to start any relationship, or just stay friends. But it is very difficult ... very difficult to find someone, to whom I am ready could give everything what I have, totally myself.
That's why I'm still single here and I do not have a family and kids. And I can’t say that I’m happy with everything. If I was now just 20 years old, or at least 23. So I would not look for man myself. But this loneliness ... this cold ... And the realization that my life goes and I just waste life time .. Being a single - it is really hard. Being alone is very painful. And I think you understand me. And despite the fact that I have friends, I have parents, I still feel a void in the soul, in my heart. And this feeling that this void has pushed me to do this act, to write you a letter. In the hope that I can find ... only. But even if I can not find happiness and love, I still will be glad to have new friend. Do you agree with me ? Communication, learn something new, someone new. See the look at this world of another person. It is informative and interesting! Do you agree with me ?
As I said, I beautician, and I have a clients, who regularly use my services. And that’s why I have a free schedule of work, I will write you as soon as I have free time. In my last letter, you probably realized, that I like to write much. And I hope that you will do it. That you will find plenty of free time, and write me more about you, your interests, your past and present life. If you do not have a time or you do not want to communicate with me, then better do not start it now. I think that if you write 1 or 3 lines, it is ... it is not communication. Just imagine, if I'll come in internet cafe to write you long letters, to talk about myself, my day, and in return I will receive just a few words ... Do you think it would be normal? I think, if I write so dew, you would not be pleased, and you would not be of interest to write me again !?
Concerning me and my free time, I spend it at home or do a walk. I have meetings with friends and go on a visit to my friends. I do sports, read a lot. During the warmer I like to ride a bicycle. And just as it is my main transport. I had a car before, but I started to afraid drive. I saw the accident, which happened next to me, there no one hurt, but once I saw it, I had a fear of driving a car. And so, I sold it, and began to ride a bike. Especially in my small town the car does not need so much, such as in big cities. And it is much healthier to make walking or bicycle.
I do not drink alcohol frequently. But I can afford on holidays wine or champagne a few glasses. In the past, in the years of study I smoked cigarettes, but then I dropped it. And during more than 12 years, I do not smoke. I listen to music. I prefer the classic music. My dream is to learn to play the piano and violin. I know that I can realize this dream, but sometimes I do not have enough time to attend music lessons. I love the nature, picnics. I know how to cook good, but since I'm alone, do not often do this at home, and I always have a meal at one of the cafes. But in the evening be sure to cook supper, and dessert.
My height is 176 centimeters, my weight is 48 kg. I was born June 19, 1986. My zodiac sign Gemini.
I think that you have enough information to begin to get to know me. And most importantly, it will enable you to understand me better and understand if you want to chat with me now?
Just I hope that you will tell me about you. Your family, your hobbies, how you spend holidays? And what do you like to do in your spare time?
Now again I put a photo in my letter and I will wait for your answer. And just I hope that you send me your photo.
Have a nice day!