I came to internet cafe, I look again at your letter, and before I read and  answer it, I'll take a cup of coffee again. I really like to read it and drink coffee or tea. This moments time goes very slowly and I totally dipping in our correspondence. And whole around world stop to exist for me for this moment.   

How much I am tired today. Believe me xxx, first I even thought about missing this day, and not writing you. But still, I had to warn you about my decision. But since I'm already here, I think that I can answer your letter, write a little bit about my day, and then go home to have a rest well. Home? I have one more client, but I think that I will manage quickly, and then, of course, go home. (smile).

Yes, this my day was not so ordinary. At first, I was sprayed by a car (Smile), then I had to listen to 2 hours of the story of one annoying girl, who spends her husband's money, and thinks it's fine (smile). Trying to prove to me how hard it is for her to live. If she only knew how it's sometimes really  hard to live! Is not it? I never understood such girls. They do not like to understand that they ... were bought. I can not find other words! Yes, rich guys may buy any of such girl, and when they bore their "toy", then what do they do? Of course, they throw it away. And what can she do next? Alone? Not knowing how to do anything? Not having any life or work experience. They are like an old dolls, which left somewhere in basement and the children do not want to play with them anymore, as they have grown up or bought a new dolls.

It was also suggested to me (a smile), to live in a "golden cage". But I know that this is not real life. Of course, expensive things, cars, gifts. It's nice, but to be a doll in the hands of a person who does not really appreciate you, who absolute don’t care for you and your feelings ...  I do not want that. And I always sent such man “far away”. No, I believe that I can buy and I can do a lot for myself. Clothes, some values. But to go to bed with a man, who does not attract you, and even so that you do not appreciate either. For which you are only today .... doll. No, I'd rather be alone all my life than will be a sleeper.

But, alas, I can not say such words to my client to her face. Because she pays me well for my work. And in my profession there are often such clients, who try to show me that all the money, cars, and values they earned themselves. (smile). Well, if they think so, then let it be so (smile). I don’t care.  Maybe you also have some interesting cases to tell me from your past? Some strange of funny people you could meet?

But still, today after that client, I had a very bad headache. After it I had a few more clients, but I have been working with them for a long time, and we do know each other well. We usually talk about cooking, fashion, news in our or some other city! Someone got married, someone left for another city. Gossip, news. Everything as usual girls.

Even strange, when I went to an Internet cafe, I did not have any mood at all and so much tired, but when I started writing this letter to you, I noticed that I was smiling more (smile). Maybe you raise my spirits and my thoughts of you!

I think after my last letter, you could understand, why my friend is against you and our communication. And why I'm afraid of all this a little bit. Yes, it's true (smile). I am afraid that ......

I thought, I'm sorry. I just wanted to write that if we suddenly fall in love. But I think it's too early to talk about this! Yes! I should not have written about this now. Sorry. I just write my thoughts, which are in my head. And I know that I can’t remove it and it’s better to write now. I should not tell you about it. But I believe that letters were created to persons could be more open. And I do not want to hide anything. I just said my thoughts (smile). Is it not legal (smile)?

Yes, you may also have fear, and I have it. But I think that we can trust each other. Especially from you I do not have a headache, and that already means a lot (smile).
xxx I'm very pleased to read your letters, come to the Internet cafe, write you about my day, about my feelings (sigh), and talk to you. Of course, this is very strange, but I feel good when I know that you are. It's a strange feeling. No, this is not love. I'm sure of that (smile). But this, it seems, is some kind of connection, as if we knew each other for a very long time, and met again. Did not you have that feeling? Therefore, in any case, I'm ready to trust you and try to make our communication even more open.  

So, how quickly time flies, I soon again have to go to another client. And so, I understand that I need to finish my letter now. But for some reason the fatigue that was in the beginning passed, the smile does not leave my face. And I ... I just want to say thank you, thank you that you are. Thank you for writing me, and that you understand me. Thank you for so good understanding. I really want our communication not finish. And if I suddenly do not see your letter, I will be very worried ....
Well, enough, time, time, time. I have to go. Bye, have a nice day. Write me soon

I don’t want to hide, but I was really afraid to go to an internet cafe today! Fear was in me all this time, since my last letter. My mind struggled to stop me and repeat in my head again and again that I should not write you about my feelings for your letters, for you personally. Fear, that because of my words in the last letter, I can ruin our communication with you, fettered me, my thoughts. And I could not get rid of this fear in any way.

Destroy this friendship, which I treasure. I was afraid that it would happen! Yes, I already told you that I like writing letters to you, reading, and knowing you better with each new letter. But I also said that I want something more! I ..... I have the warmest feelings for you, and I do not understand this feelings even now till the end! How can a person make my heart beat so much being at a big distance, and only with the help of letters? How can a man cause a mad interest in me? How do I, having so much sad experience in real life, may fall in love with someone I never seen in real? My mind, it's like "boiled." And so many thoughts are in my head, that I had to comprehend, and understand .... find answers to all so important questions. And I had to do it in the shortest possible lines. Today I did not have much job. And it allowed me to find the right solution for everything! Find the right answers.

It happened, I told you what I wanted to say! What I felt, what was trying to go out of me! Emotions, which I had to restrain! But I understand that if I did not do it in my last letter, then I would do it later anyway. So why was need to wait? What would have been changed then? I think nothing. I made the right decision, that I did not hide something from you. I promised you that I would write you everything, my thoughts, my feelings, emotions. That I will open for you, I will trust you. Now you understand that my words were not empty. (smile). I still think, that now you are reading this and maybe not understand, what I’m trying to tell you and why do I tell you all this ? 

Took a deep breath. Now I began to read your letter, and I realized in it .... that you ... we are with you ... How difficult it is to find the right words now. Probably I need to take a short pause, read your letter again. I'll take my coffee, and continue to write this letter.

When I just sat on a chair and started to open my mail, I heard my heart! I heard this furious blows, and it seemed to me that it was about to burst out. And I did my best to calm it down. I was breathing deeply, closing my eyes, and I said to myself "so that it does not happen, what kind of answer does Tanilya wait for you, it will not be worse for you." And only after these words, I began to read your letter. And with each line, I realized that you feel the same feelings for me, as I have for you. Your words, your thoughts. As if you took them from me, from my head and wrote it! How can this be? I never imagined that it was possible! In it's just not realistic to believe. But it's true. This is reality. And this happens to us!
An indescribable connection between us has attracted us all this time. I understand that we have not seen each other yet. But I .... I fell in love with your thoughts, your words. And if I tell this to someone of my friends, they will tell me that I'm crazy! Moreover, now I do not want to tell my best friend anything about it! She will definitely tie me in, and will not let me go to the internet cafe again to read your letter, and write you (big smile). Of course it's a joke, but first I want to sort it out myself, and only then, if necessary, she will find out about our words, our feelings, and my decision.

What are we doing with you now? (Smile). We have just could know each other enough! Has this really happened? Did I fall in love with a person, who is now in another country !? Heck. And I am amazed! (Smile). I agree if it was in the movie! Or the stories from the book. But when it's all real, and it's happening to me. A million thoughts are in my head now. And how difficult it is to accept everything.

You know xxx. For myself, I have already decided a lot. You were that piece of puzzle in my soul that I did not have. I do not hide it. What will happen next it is not so important! I think I should spit on everything. On the opinions of others, on the thoughts that try to stop me. I live today, I live now. And now I'm happy, really happy with you. I am happy that in my life you are. Crazy Love!? If so, then I'm ready for this. Be happy on the distance. It's much nicer than being alone all the time! I already do not have that coldness in my heart. There you are, I am. And we began to take steps towards something new, new for us.  We do not run! But we will not stand on one place either!

Now we have changed only one moment, but perhaps we will change our whole life ?!

Now I'm going to  finishing my letter, and I'll wait for your answer.

I can not believe that now I will write these words again .... I love you xxx.

As if I emerged from the depths of the ocean, and swallowed fresh air. How nice to say it! How nice to write this!

I'm sure that now you, sitting at home, hear how hard my heart is beating (smile).

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How do you do? Today I came and open my mail and I don't see any your message. Tell me, did you forget about me? Why you don't write me this days? Please tell me about it! I really am interested in communication with you and knowing you better. I send you this small letter to learn why you don't write me anymore. It would be desirable to learn from you what occurs and why you don't respond to my previous letter? Probably my letters don't reach you. Therefore it will be better if you will add my e-mail address to your contact list. Thus we can communicate without problems and not have any problems with regular conversations. I hope to hear you soon and to know everything. Have a nice day!
Tanilya 



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How are you doing today, my love xxx !? My most gentle and caring man in this world. My sun, my happiness and my true love! I am so happy to receive your new letter, read it now and write the answer. That's all I wanted today as was waiting for your reply with great impatience. Since I already can’t live without your letters, as a fish without water. This is of course the comparison, because I really can not live without your letters, words and nice feelings after reading of your letters. You write very gently, that's way how I like it. And I always want to hear from you these words to me. Always and everywhere. I do not care where  we will be and how many people there will be around us. I am sure. That I'm going to kiss you all the time, that I will never be upset with you because you are my light, for which I want to live, and strive for the best for the future!!! And everything that I dream about when we meet in the future will be for us!!

Here I’m fine. I didn’t have much work and at once came to internet café to see your letter. And I plan to write you more bigger letter today. The weather is fine enough here also. My love, I really liked how you wrote and told me. I've just been waiting to write you!! Yesterday evening I met with my friend, as was going to do. We sat in the cafe, drank tea and ate a delicious dessert. And during all this time we have fun talking, she told me her news and events. I didn’t tell her anything about you, since I already explained you the reasons of it. 

Then I went home and thought about our love and affection that I want. I wish that our relations be very romantic. Would you will like it? Here in this letter I will write my dreams, my ideas about how I see our relations in real world and ask about your ideas.   
If you would come after work and I'll be waiting for you always!! Every day, and wait only for you, because I need only you!! If we met now, and would already be together. Then when you get home - and I meet you with open hands, and a cheery smile because you're back. You undress and go to a bathroom. To take bath and to come to kitchen, you already clean and dressed in home’s clothes. Then I sit down at the table! I think I will never have supper without you, and always been waiting for you, and together we will sit down to supper. So it will be more pleasant for you to have supper with me, I think.  Yet while we have supper and drink tea, we talk about us, our events and thoughts. We tell each other the most wonderful words that we want. I'll call you “my prince”, and my love - my ideal and my dream. After all, everything is that way! You are the most kind and gentle man in the world for me! And I think that you are ready do everything for me and I really appreciate it!! I hope one day in real world I will feel your great love for me, your kindness and your gentle hands, your body and your breath. So I continue to dream ... after dinner when we - we can relax a bit, and then all of a little walk! You can show me the most fabulous places in your city. As I already said - I want to know everything about you, for you could show me everything connected with you. Perhaps you'd like some place, maybe it will be romantic! You memorize about some places will be also interesting for me. And then together we go there to spend our time. You will tell me something about it, and I will listen to you very carefully! We can then return home or go somewhere else! I’m sure you know more interesting places to visit, so you show me this! Then we will walk together and hold hands. Then all the people will look at us and smile. So I think we will be a great example of a strong love couple that happy together. Such a pair that has a purpose in life, we will always seek what we want to achieve together. I do not even doubt!! You are my favorite man, very caring, and I never will leave you. The main thing that you would not want to go away from me, or I just can not keep you! But I do not want to think about it, because you're real man and hope you can choose a life partner! But all these are only my dreams. I really wish that it would becoming a reality. And now all my dreams are just about it.

Also my dear, I want to write you more! I would like to write you my ideas about sex, I think that it’s already correct time for it. Since this is also a very important part of a relationship and is very beautiful. Because only with you, I want to View translation into reality my thoughts, dreams and desires. And I think that if you are helping me in this - will have absolutely great result! I want you  know and  understand that I am very gentle, and I want to start making love always with gentleness, care and soft things. I want to massage your back a little bit to relieve tension. At the same time feel your regular breathing. Probably every man loves a massage from a woman's sensitive hands? I know how to do such massage, and you'll have lots of pleasure from it! When I finish, I put on your back my breasts, if you want it!! And then I just have to caress in your ear and tell you quietly that I love you, honey!! You are my good and gentle! My hand then walk slowly to your pants and I touch your Ding! First through your pants and stroking it very gently! When I have my hand between your legs you will - it will be very good for you! I think that by the time your body will already be up and does not suffer anymore! Is this true? Then you just turn around and we see me face to face and look straight in the eye! To be aware and have the same contact, that is just an invisible thread - which connects us. Our minds! You place your hands on my body and make me feel very strong desire to make love! And then you start to take off my clothes so I become naked. Next, I think the same thing that you also like this! I continue, take your Ding and start to move, gently touching the tip! You get from it most excited to just simply hug me and are already beginning to make love! But I just want to pinch my breasts. To its heat and massage! You tell me that you want more! When we will be in this conditions, maybe I can take it with my lips and kiss! From this you will get maximum pleasure? I'm ready to do it just for you! And I must say - that never before I did not do it, but I want to try it with you! Only with you – with a man whom I really love very much and I do not want anyone else to give such things! But I wanted to tell you all this my fantasies!! Just so you know, and then waited for this moment! So when we both have an excited state, then you have me real pleasure!   Here's what I would be like to have in sex, I see it this way!!! To bring you up to this maximum possible state so that you never forget it!! I want you always have only good with me so you be satisfied. Since this is important for me either! I think I've also always be with you satisfied.   

I want this, and I think that I could tell you what I think! What do I think and dream at night! What I dream to deal with you! I think you write me your opinion in your next letter? I look forward to your letter again. And I will answer you always! Always tell me what you think and how you imagine! I just want to say one more time, that's all I wrote to you here - it's just my dream.  I really want that our relationship with you, it was just beautiful and romantic. I think we can make our relationship more beautiful and more emotional than any book novel. We ourselves will find better ways for it! Can you imagine life with me and all that  I wrote to you today? Do you want this?

Now I will finish my letter, I hope not very shocked you my letter?
I love you.
Yours Tanilya.

I see in your letter xxx, that you are ready! You understand me! And this is the most important thing for me. You understand that life is too short. And that our time is going so fast! That we do not have time to notice, as we have becoming old (a smile). And that we are still alone! We were lonely until one day, when we found each other in this big world.

After my last letter I thought a lot. I thought about the real meeting, and thought about it a lot. I had time to decide how we should proceed! How it will be better for us. How I see it. And how you want it yourself, I think it's up to you either. But in any case, I  have to tell you everything I learned. I think that we may have two options, I go to you, or you come to me. And in each version there are disadvantages, and advantages.

Of course, if you come to me here, it will be better for me. I will not have to do any documents, and only wait a while before meeting you. You could also stay with me. My room is not very large, but I think that it will be convenient for the two of us in it. And if you decide so, and for you it will not be a problem, here is my airport in which I can meet you - International Airport "Nikola Tesla Belgrade". I also hope that you are serious about me. And that after this letter, you will not wait for several months and years, but you will make this step soon! A step that will allow us to get to know each other more, better in real world. When we can touch each other, and understand whether we can be together or not! But I'm sure that we can be together, because we are two halves of one heart. But in this case, there is one problem, and it is very important. I have to tell you about this. I'm very much afraid that something bad can happen with you here. After the war in 1999, many people lost their relatives and loved ones, many people lost their homes. And they have a big anger at foreign tourists, especially those, who come from countries that had bomb my country in 1999. I understand that you did not take part in this, but other local people, they think quite differently. Foreigners abduct, and even .... And it's really very serious. Otherwise, I would not tell you about it. Every week on TV news, I see stories about the disappearance, injuries or demand for redemption of foreign visitors. And this happens all over the country. I'm not sure that I can somehow guarantee your safety here. And if you are ready for this step, and accept all the risks, then I will be ready to meet you here. I just told you as it the situation here. 

I also thought that I could fly to you. But for this I need to make a new passport, and some other documents, also to have 2 ways tickets. About work, I'm not worried, because I can take a vacation myself at any time. I rent the apartment. I'm just worried about what might happen to me ... my friend's story is always in my head. And I can not forget it. Also, I do not know anything about your country, how do people respond to tourists visiting? And will I live with you? Will you let me into your house? (smile).

Understand, my dear, this is a very serious step, and you must be 100 ready for this, to trust me 100. And if you have any doubts, you should tell me about them now, and not at the moment when I will be ready to board the plane! This is very, very important! You must decide if you are ready to be with me, now, and maybe to the end of ours life?!

Now I need only an answer, how will we act !? I will come to you, to your country, or you will come to me, to my country? This we have to decide now, and not wait for many long months, for a convenient time. Now! Letters have already done everything necessary, they have engendered in our hearts feelings, love. And now the time has come for us to strengthen all this, or to step back forever.

Go to meet the dream, and try to be together, not to be lonely, but to be happy. To love, and to receive mutual love. Or be afraid to change your life, and be lonely till the end!

In me, there are so many feelings in my heart, that can not already be conveyed in words, emotions, dreams, and thoughts. The letters does not convey warmth, touching the hands, touching the lips. And we already understood this. So we realized that if we wait .... then maybe we do not even know when, what it means to be happy ... again.

Now it’s  only your decision! You come to me, or I to you soon. Your answer will give us further action. Or I will learn everything, and prepare for the flight to you! Or I will prepare for a meeting with you in my country. I need your answer in your next letter, please don’t ignore this my ideas. 

I love you and I will wait for your letter.

Yours Tanilya.

You know xxx, I had enough time, I thought of all again and learned a lot. All that I need ... all to come to you and be with you. I even visited several travel agencies. And there they helped me to find answers to some of the questions that I had, and I learned how to solve them. Too much information for just one day (smile). But I'll tell you the truth, it's not so difficult to make a real our desire to meet. I hope, I want to believe that you will not take a step back now. When from your letters I understood that you are ready, that you want to change your life, I understand ... I realized that it's time for us to do it. To do this serious step and to change our lives. And I'm doing it right now! I’m absolute ready for it and want to do this. But you must understand that ... that I have a fear. If I go to you, then I put everything what I have "at stake". And even more. I do not know what awaits me when we are together! I just believe you, your words! And I go to the call of my heart. Hiding far and deep, in the most remote parts of my mind all my fears. And I believe that I ... I am doing the right thing, that I do not make a mistake. And what I gained more than once dreamed of. And this loneliness, this pain will disappear forever from my and your heart. And we will be together, happy and till the end.

To come to you is not very difficult. Collect some necessary documents, several references, and fill out several forms. It will take me a day, maybe two, to collect all necessary documents. After it I need to get visa, insurance and 2 way tickets. A visa is fast to get, especially if I take a tourist visa. It will be done enough fast. And the likelihood that it will be approved by your country is very high. And I was told that it's almost 100 percent that I can get it. Insurance -  I need it in case I will have some health problem in your country and to get free medicine help. 
And tickets. In both ends. Without this, it is simply impossible to get a tourist visa. But these are all trifles. Especially since I learned that this can be done by a travel agency, and it will not be worth it to me. I do not want to spend much time and energy, make several trips to different places and maybe make some mistakes. It is better to trust this to the professionals and they do it better. I hope that you will agree with me on this? After I pay it in full, the travel agency starts their work. And it will take 10-12 working days for everything to be ready and I can come to you. Therefore, we can easily agree on the date of my arrival to you. And as soon as we discuss all the necessary details, we will be able to choose the best date for my coming.

But the main problem is .....

15 minutes passed before I decided to write you about it now. I'm afraid that tomorrow I will not see your letter, after all what I should write now. Or worse .... but if I decided to go to the end, then I must do it. I agree with what ever will be after it .... this way I chose, and I hope that you are the same.

I learned the approximate cost of my trip to you. If I do this 14 days after today's date. This will cost me 580 Euro. This amount includes everything necessary for my arrival to you. All that I wrote to you above and no other additional payments. I looked at my possibilities now, my savings. And this is only 130 Euro To admit, I did not think that it would be so expensive! And as if I felt with my heart ...
Now you understand that I do not have enough money. And ask you for help ...
I think that you yourself must decide, whether you want to do it or not !? Are you ready to help me or not? You must decide for yourself. I did my best. And as I said, if you have doubts, fear, then I'm ready to wait for you, in my own country soon! And I do not give up on my words. And I also think that it will be much better for you and me if you yourself write in the travel agency that helped me with the answers, and you can also pay them yourself directly. So, having more security, if for you it will be so much better! 

And if you ready to help me, I will need to know the exact international airport (the name of airport), where you can meet me. We also must solve the date of my arrival to you. After it I will tell you total cost of my trip to you and also how much I need you to help me. And I will need to know your cell phone number, where I can call if fly to you and you can’t meet me. 

Now I just need to finish my letter, send it to you, and believe that I'll see you again, your answer. And I would like to believe that we will .... be together, and our dreams will become real!
Love you,  miss you.

Hello again my dear xxx. I want to come to you. But in my letter I tell you that I need to apply to a travel agency. They tell me the cost of the trip. This is 580 euros. Unfortunately I do not have that much money to cover it. So I ask for help from you, but you do not have to say anything about it. I can provide you with the address of a travel agency that will process my trip. They give you all the information regarding my trip. In turn, this ensures that my intentions are serious. Tanilya