Hi my xxx!
I have not heard from you some days, I hope are you OK?
I hope you have not changed your decision to meet me (smile).
xxx, I so waited for this opportunity to write you, because I wanted
very much to tell you that today has happened something bad, and this
time it is not a joke unfortunately. Maybe I shouldn't tell you, but I
was so frightened, that I cannot hold it inside. Today at night when I
slept, I have suddenly heard a terrible sound of a breaking glass! I
at once have woken up but I could not understand anything absolutely.
And at this moment, right into my room has flown a brick; and having
broken the window-glass, this brick has fallen in several centimeters
from me. I so strongly was frightened, I could understand nothing and
simply instinctively I have rushed onto a floor and have hidden under
my bed. And at this moment other stones has flown into my room,
breaking windows and glasses in my apartment. I shouted and cried. I
at all did not know what to do. Stones could not strike me because my
bed protected me. But I have been frightened so, that I simply has
closed my ears by my hands and cried. In absolute darkness several
stones broke windows and fell near to me. Then everything has stopped.
But I continued to lay and cry. I was afraid even to look out from
under a bed. We haven't here even police and phones. Never in my life
I was so frightened. After some time I nevertheless have risen from
under a bed. I have looked thru the broken window but of course I haven't
seen there anybody. I do not understand who did it and why. I have
run to Elena and I have seen that her windows are broken as well. And not
only in her house, but in some other houses as well. We have cleaned her
apartment and than have returned to my apartment together. But I could not
fall asleep this night anymore. I do not know who did it. Elena say
that probably it was young addicts who simply had a fun, because if
someone would really want to cause to us physical harm, they could simply
enter our apartments. But I really don't understand why someone did it.
Now I am ok, xxx ! I do not want to finish my letter with bad thoughts.
I write to you the letter and I smile. I am so happy. I think that
everything most difficult has remained behind us! I had the interview!
I knew that it will be difficult conversation, but I could not imagine
at all that I must answer to so many questions. And prior to the
beginning of interview I have been so frightened, I so worried. But as
soon as they have asked the first question, I at once became absolutely
calmed down. I have ceased to worry absolutely. I simply sat, and,
looking directly into eyes of the commission simply and straight
answered to questions. I spoke everything what I think, in all
sincerity, as always. They asked me actually about everything! They
asked me about my life, about my childhood, about death of my parents,
about terrorism, about my work, about my last relationship. They have
read all documents which I has collected. They asked me why I work
voluntary in such a difficult places. They asked me about my belief in
God. And often I saw on their faces that they expected from me not such
the answers, but I didn't want to speak beautiful things which
pleasantly to listen to. I simply spoke sincerely all what in my heart.
They have told that such the answers are the big rarity for the
applicant. Because usually applicants do not answer so sincerely.
Usually, applicants think some time and try to answer so that the
answer was most convenient for the commission. And first I thought that
my answers have not satisfied them, but they have told that to listen
to my answers very pleasantly and unusually. They have told that
"bitter" sincerity always better than "sweet" flattery. Besides, they
really have been impressed with fact that I had such a great support
from many people living in different regions.
  xxx ! Maybe in some hours I will find out the decision!!!!!
I can't believe. I feel that I did all correctly. Today I saw my parents
in my sleep-dream, and they smiled to me. I know that it is their approval.
I see my parents in sleep-dream very seldom! I always knew that dream
will never simply fall into hands from the sky. I always knew that if you
want the dream to come true, you must do for this purpose all what in your
forces. I know that it is necessary to believe, hope and struggle. And
I really struggled, I tried to do all what in my forces. And I hope God
will help us. After all difficulties, after all efforts I believe that
everything will be fine! I really feel that I did everything well. I worry
very much, but my heart say to me that I should smile. And I smile today.
I feel that I will meet you. I feel that the meeting at the airport will
be beautiful and romantic. I will tell you everything what I will feel
at that moment, and you will tell me. And then we will leave the airport
and we will chatter and laugh. I will tell you how I endured the flight
in the plane and what I was thinking about. You will tell me how you
waited for me at the airport. And then we will have a wonderful time
together. We will walk, spend evenings, to watch funny and scary movies, -
and I will hide under your hand at the most scary moment... We will meet
together the first beams of the sun and will see off a magnificent sunset.
We will sit near a window and to drink hot tea while in the street will be
a strong rain. How I want to have a breakfast together and a supper with
candles. Or simply to lay on a bed, and to tell each other about a life.
How I want all this - simple things which will bring to us so many joy.
If everything will be fine, I will start the most difficult process,
preparation of my suitcase! (Smile). Right now I talked with the boss,
and he has told that probably today I will find out an exact date of
beginning of my vacation! But I have to go! My legs shiver as if I
the schoolgirl! (Smile). Wish me luck and think of me!
Your Svetlana.

Hi, my xxx.
I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy!
The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy!!!!
I as well have found out that I will get vacation July, 7.
I have been to the company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how
I can reach Duesseldorf (DUS) and how much it costs. They have offered to me
the roundtrip ticket that costs 398 euro. I asked them to find cheapest ticket,
because this price is expensive for me. They have answered that they have
a cheaper roundtrip ticket and the beginning of the flight July, 11.
It costs 324 euro. It was the best variant for me. I asked them to reserve a ticket.
But they refused, because they can't reserve the ticket without advance payment.
I must pay full cost. I have asked if I can pay a part of money now, and the
other part later. They have told that it is possible, but I will be limited by term.
And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already
nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because
I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment
I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses.
I paid  110 euro. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what Elena
and I could do - we pawned our earrings and gold rings and I got  63 euro.
That is all I could do. The number of the flight on which I will get the ticket
is LOT-Polish Airlines 676.
The time of departure from Moscow airport Sheremetevo is 2:40 pm.
I will change a plan in Warsaw, number of the flight LOT-Polish Airlines 405.
After this I will fly to Duesseldorf, to you. The time of arrival in Duesseldorf is 9:40 pm.
  I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because
I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and
I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did,
I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so
many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult. But all the
same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise. I am
always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at
the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.
To get the visa I have spent much more money than I expected. But people
were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 300 euro
to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry.
Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for
their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was
sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a
vacation payment. We get a vacation payment after ending of a vacation.
I asked to give me this money now because I need this money urgently.
But, at the last moment I have got the answer that I can get this money
urgently only in case of serious illness or for example in case of death of the
relative. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting.
But I must pay remaining sum. It is 151 euro. And I must pay money
before July, 3 evening. Otherwise I will lose my nested money
and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not
ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had
to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel
completely. But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my
diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that
for you it is too big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me.
And 300 euro which I have spent to get the visa, and 173 euro that I have
given for the ticket are huge money for me. But I want you to know that
I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us,
for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to
meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, send money to the
help before July, 3 evening. I want you to be confident in my
sincerity, that is why I send you the scanner of my visa.
I want you to see the result of my efforts.
  I address to you only because I need it right now, because the
anti- emigration committee waits for me with all documents and
I am obliged to come to committee according to appointed term.
I do not know if you can to help me. But I have no other exit. I need you.
If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Elena said that
you can help me with the help of remittance system Western Union.
So I have addressed to the nearest office Western Union. I have been told
that this system works always and reliably. And in the Western Union the
maximal term of transfer of money - some minutes! Do you heard about the
this system? You can send your help to any Western Union in Russia.
All you need from me is country and my full name. My country is Russia.
My full name is Svetlana Kalugina.
The nearest city where I can receive your help it Shahty.
In Western Union I have been told, that to get the money, I must tell to employee
your full name, your full address, exact sent sum and the confidential number –
Money Transfer Control Number (MTCN). You will get this number in your Western Union
if you will send your help. Only with presence of all this information I can get your help.
  I do not know what answer I will get from you. I very much am afraid that you
will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure
the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I understand that
it is big money. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. I really
ask you to help me. I will give you back all your money at the earliest opportunity.
I have written you honestly and sincerely. Are you with me?
Your Svetlana.

xxx ! Please be not silent! If you do not want to help me - simply
tell it. But do not torment my heart by senseless expectation. I strong
lady and probable I is ready to any your answer. Even with tears on eyes I
am ready to hear your answer. But only be not silent! I knew that I should
rely only on myself. I really expected to make all. But I could not find
all sum and I have addressed to you. I cannot believe that you have thrown me.
If it is the end, please, know, that I was a happiest lady all this time. You have
made me the happiest woman on the Earth! And you will always live in my heart.
Please, be not hidden. Write some words. I will respect any your decision.
But only be not silent.
Your Svetlana.
 

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Zitat:

I now do not know if you want to help me with payment of my travel
but if nevertheless you will help me, you find out as Russian woman
is able to love. It not empty words, you will see all feelings which
I have to you. Tomorrow I will check your letter. Always your Svetlana.