Hi xxx!
I cannot believe that it is so difficult to find some minutes to write a little
about yourself, and to answer questions. It will occupy only a few minutes
which you maybe spend near the TV-set or something else unimportant.
At once I want to tell that Elena sends you her greetings. I was in
hospital and we have spent her birthday very well. I wanted to bake a
small cake, but it has turned out on the contrary. The cake was huge. It
weighed two kg. When I have brought it to hospital, we have divided this
into set of pieces; and all doctors and some patients that were in this
small branch are drank tea and ate a pie together with us and everyone was
glad and happy. I have brought a lot of balloons. She was very glad and
grateful to me. The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The
sun is shining all the day. So what about your weather? May be today
after work I will take a walk. I like to walk along the street and to
breathe the fresh air, especially when the weather is warm, even in the
winter. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. At home is very
boringly and lonesomely. Sometimes I don't notice it, but sometimes when
I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with
anybody, to have fun. But my apartment is empty and I have to be in full
loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down into the armchair
and look at the window. And when the silence deafens me, when I hear movement
of my eyelashes, at that moment the hoop of loneliness compresses my heart.
I can listen to music or read a book. I can go to my friends. But in some
moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved
person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning,
to talk about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk
and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only
for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But I think enough about it.
  Hi xxx, again. I began writing the letter in the morning.
Now already 5 p.m. Can you imagine? Today was heavy working day. My working
day comes to an end soon. But, one employee has brought here her small son,
and she has asked me to look after him because she should leave urgently
for some hours. The boy knows me very well. He already some times remained
with me and spent time. As our clinic works till 10 pm, we can be here
up to the end of work day. His mom works in our clinic only a few months and
she has no friends or relatives here. That's why I already some times helped
her. Her son is amusing boy. He told to me that tomorrow he with mom should
go to dentist to treat his ill tooth. I asked him: What do you dream about?
He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have
problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often recollect childhood.
I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child
I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt
in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an
illusive world. We live in a real life, so we should not sink into the
world of dreams and phantasies for a long time. When a dream becomes
obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Our dreams
come true not always. It happens that you use all energy, all aspiration
to make dream come true. But irrespective of how strenuously you try, not
everything in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does
not come true, dream ceases to be the star, that was for you a lighthouse
in the ocean of the life. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live
without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with
sense. Our dreams force us to think, analyze, choose and come to a
conclusion. The Faith and Hope are eternal satellites of our lifes. And
regardless of what waits you at the end, we remember joy of the victories
better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Don't you agree?
I'm surprised that I write all this to you. I have never had a man, with whom
I felt conveniently in sharing my thoughts. But now I have found you, and
I am very glad. Can I ask some small questions? Do you like
to sleep, or get up early in the morning? Do you like to kiss? (smile)
Are you a good kisser? (smile) Do you like when your friends come to your home
or you prefer to go to friends. I adore when Elena or Irina come to my
apartment. What clothes do you like to see in a lady? I will wait for your
letter with impatience.
Svetlana.

Hi, xxx.
I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much. You cannot
imagine how much I wait for messages from you! Your letters became a part
of my days! Now in my thoughts always only one question - "When I will get
an opportunity to read your letter and to write my?"... And when I hear a
favorite phrase: "Svetlana, you can jump, you has received the letter!"
(A lady who works with a computer says exactly this phrase) I really become
joyful very much and start to smile involuntarily. Therefore thank you!!!
Thanks for the picture. Every time after I receive your picture,
appear traces of lipsticks on the screen of the monitor (smile)
Of course I will say your congratulations to Elena. I am sure, she
will be happy to find out that you rendered her such sign of attention.
Today at night there was a little rain. In the morning I have come out
to the street to jog and I have seen that all footpaths and roads
completely are filled with water. But I like such a weather. I like any
weather. Many people do not notice beauty that surrounded them. In my soul
such a weather wakens the big energy and fine mood. I like all seasons.
I like autumn. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in the
park and to listen to how leaves rustle under feet; to see the clouds that
float in the sky, to see birds departing to the warm lands. And at night
the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs. A lightning
illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is wonderful. How
it would be wonderful in such a weather to appear with beloved in a small
room with a warm fireplace; weak light and singing of a cricket. How you
think xxx? What can be finer than romantic evening in rainy day? I at
all do not know what season I like more. Russian winter is delightful. The
all world around is white. And falls of snow bewitches, especially in the
evening. When you see flows of light from a window, and on a background of
black sky small snowflakes are similar to stars. And if for a long time
you look at the sky, then it seems that you are flying through these
wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown. I like spring. The world
as though is born again. Air is filled with freshness. All troubles and
failures thaws together with snow. The sounds of the baby birds chirping
for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the world,
to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on.
Thank you for your answers to my questions and pics.
I think I like when a man cook for me though I do not know how it!
Never any man did cook meal for me. But I think, if sometimes he would
cook for me, it would be very romantic.
I too like to kiss! (I want to intrigue you! I could?) I think that
a kiss it in general the most romantic and sensual way of expression
of the love, tenderness and desire. People allow to each other to learn
a internal world and taste of each other; people exchange breath.
It is very sensual moment and of course it brings pleasure to any person.
  By the way, I jog for many years. I really have good health because
I always try to support my figure and I jog every morning. I try to spend
time in the air as much as possible. I have no car and I use transport
extremely seldom. I get contrast shower - alternation of a stream of cold
and hot water. I since the childhood lived in conditions of cold winter
and damp autumn. Such climate is toughening health very well. I do not
smoke and I do not drink alcoholic drinks. I really love a healthy way
of life. And I am proud of it. I love sports very much. Though should admit
that I never played golf, football and basketball, never boxed. But I
could surprise you, if I had opportunity to compete with you in beach
volleyball. By the way, when I studied at university, I visited section
of swimming and have reached good results. Some times I participated in
swim competitions. Swimming - till now my favorite kind of sports.
I have to finish. With the best regards and with thoughts of you.
Svetlana.


 

Hi my dear friend xxx!!! How are you? Has not received your
letter some time, I hope you OK. Here already many employees know
that I have found such a wonderful friend, and nobody is surprised that my
friend lives in other country. Everybody only are glad. Nobody here is
surprised if the woman searches for not Russian man. I think the cultural
distinction is a wonderful thing. I don't understand Russian men and their
culture of dialogue with woman. They are not able to appreciate woman's
feelings, her fidelity, love. They do not appreciate sincerity and
aspiration of woman to do for a man absolutely everything. The only thing
she need - the warmth and caress, which she wants to get from a man. It is
the problem of Russian men. Russian lady does everything for a man but
doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of
tender words and gentle touching of his arms. Really it is so difficult?
Really it is difficult to present for your lady a romantic evening and a
supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady to man, but
not man to lady. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not
considered like a beautiful lady. I am usual and simple woman with usual
appearance. Russian men, practically all of them, usually show disrespect
to ladies. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash
cloths and entertain a man when he wants. For Russian man to offend a
woman is a usual thing. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I
would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to
offend all men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few
of them. Men very often say dirty words (not normative lexicon) when they
talk with lady and consider that there is nothing bad in it. I want to
tell you about my ex-boyfriend. I feel that you will understand me. I had
boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink.
When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me
by bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a
habit. He became another person - rude and evil, even when did not drink.
He has found the big interest in beating of me. He began to beat me very
often and cruelly. He often knocked me in my face by fist and even kicked
me by foot when I already was on a floor. And every time when I being on a
floor looked in to his eyes, and with tears in my eyes asked him - WHY? -
he just responded that any man is a King and a place of any woman - under
foot of a true man. But the next day he smiled and talked with me as if
nothing had happened. In public he was very delicate, polite. All people
considered that he is a true gentleman. But when he found oneself at home,
everything was on the contrary. I very much was afraid of him and I have
left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself
get acquainted with another man. I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to
give my love, but back to get roughness instead of love. I have told to
you about it because I want you to know that I open to you my soul. And I
want you to know about my ex-relationship with my ex-boyfriend. I feel
that I can tell to you about this because I feel that you have very kind
heart. By the way, today Elena leaves hospital! And though she will spend
some more days at home, all the same it is much better than in hospital.
If you have disagreements with lady, can you apply roughness?
Are you able to transform quarrel into the peace, pleasure and a smile?
I have to finish. With all my kindness and tenderness.
Svetlana.

Hi, xxx!
How is your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but
after my letter your mood became superfine (smile) Likely I am too
self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received
your letter. I so waited for this minute,- when I can write to you.
Our friendship became the important part of my life, and I hope that in
your life as well. Sometimes I understand that the thread that connects
me with you now is not most strong. But I do not want this thread to be
torn. Right now I sit and I smile simply because I am glad that again I
can to share with you my thoughts. Sometimes I so want you to see my
smile during the similar moment because I think it is the most sincere
smile! But sometimes my smile leaves me because I know that now the
only thing that connects us is our thoughts, that we send to each
other,- thoughts, transformed into a letters that are not able to show
all depth of thoughts. But at the same time I understand that nobody
knows what waits for us in the future. Maybe you even think just as I...
Of course I want to meet you, but I do not know when I will get my
a vacation, I will tell to you as soon as I I find out, OK.
But I am disappointed that you have not answered any of my questions
and you did not say anything about pain I has passed through.
  Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Probably tomorrow I will
work outside of clinic. We call it - "the ride working day".
Elena also goes with us. She already is completely healthy and begins work.
It is difficult day. At this day several doctors and specialists of
our clinic are going on the special medical bus to various remote
small settlements, small villages in a thicket of the forest. These are
poor villages which are located far away from the big cities and
settlements. In these villages there are no doctors and clinics and
people cannot visit clinic at any moment. In such villages there is
always a lot of people who need the doctor but cannot reach clinic by
self. Often it is a people who are not able to live without help of
other people, - basically are small children or old and weak feeble
people. We go in these villages on the bus with all necessary
equipment. People in these villages love us and wait more than
anything. But it is really the hard work if to take into account that
we are going there at 6 AM, and we come back sometimes even after 10 PM!
But I will wait your letter because our friendship gives force to
me, and our dialogue is a rest for my soul! My dear friend xxx!
I have to go! Sincerely and with thoughts about you.
Svetlana.

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Hi xxx, today I write to you with special worry but as well with
pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you
today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter
I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried to not show it,
I think you have noticed it. xxx, I was sad because the boss informed
me that approximately in three weeks the accounting department will be closed
for full re-equipment and repair. And when he have told me it, I thought
my heart will stop, because when it will take place, I will not be able
to communicate with you during several months! And it has brought infinite
sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of accounting
department, the accounting department informed me that approximately in
three weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for
some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept
it. And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart has appeared
an other feeling - feeling of confidence, desire to make new steps instead
of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are
important for me much more than I thought. And it so wonderfully. I had no
vacation for two years. And now I will have vacation. But a thoughts that
I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and
to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that
I can't endure. I talked with Elena and she has asked me what I think to do.
And when she has asked me it, I have understood that inside my soul I already
know the answer to this question. And I have told that I do not want to spend
such a long-awaited vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that
I will not talk to you xxx during of month or two. And I have told
that I want to meet you xxx ! I have told her that I want to spend
my vacation with you xxx! I can come to you, and we can spend time
together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you
about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me
or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Elena have told, that
you xxx and I are such a good friends, our relations are built on
sincerity, therefore xxx will be happy to spend time with me. And I
really think that it would be delightfully. So, what you will say, xxx,
if I will offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend
with me several days? I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful.
You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life.
We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell
each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the
night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit
on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together...
I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again
be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I already knew and I have been told earlier, but I have found out
again all I need to do to come to you. I already have the passport. And
I will avoid usual procedure of visa's approval. Being the doctor, I can
ask the visa on behalf of our Ministry of Health, because if the applicant
have good official support from official bodies, if the applicant have
official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference,
seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some months the
decision of the commission, and will remove all problems connected with
necessity to prove that the purpose of travel is not emigration. Being the
doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of
Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor. Of course
I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable
quantity of documents, to find as many as possibly of other official legal
persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if
I will quickly collect all necessary documents, I will get the visa in one
or two weeks! So I have filed an application for the visa, xxx, with
happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me!
I do not ask you about anything. I will use my monetary savings and I will
make everything by self. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden.
Would you be happy to spend some days with me soon, xxx? Anyway, we
must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get
my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the accounting department will be
closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence!
It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take new step. Maybe
such opportunity will not be repeated again. I so long waited my vacation
and I want my vacation to be especial. What can be better than a meeting of
two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny
that I have got such an opportunity,- an opportunity to meet my dear friend,
the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy
time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the
beginning of something new in our lifes and in our relations. And I am really
happy to get a vacation because it is time which I can spend in any way I want,
and I want to spend this vacation with you xxx! So what will you tell?
Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me?
Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure.
Your sincere Svetlana.


 

Hi my xxx!
Thank you for your letter. You became the most dazzling moment of my day!
How I wish you saw how Elena is happy that we will meet! She is sure that
our meeting will make us happy. It is simply impossible to talk to her
now! (Smile). She has now only one theme for conversation - you xxx!
She constantly asks about you, asks - what I will do together with you,
she asks - what I will do at the airport, she asks - what I will cook
for you. She asks how I am going to impress you, to intrigue! She even asks
how I will tempt you! (Smile). She say that I do everything correctly and
I should not be afraid of anything at all. To conquer the road can only one
who goes on this road. Elena is very glad that I have found you, and she sends
you her friendly greetings and a wishes of happy expectation of me! (Smile).
I will dream that you will hug and kiss me at the airport!!!
My dear, I can tell exact date of my trip only when I will get the visa.
I cannot tell to you right now. I still do not know an exact date of beginning
of my vacation. I said to you approximate date, but anyhow I will plan my
travel beforehand and when I will know exact dates, I will inform to you.
  xxx, please, don't be angry with me if I cannot write you much now.
I hope you understand that I even after my working day in clinic must do
too much for our meeting. Today I will go to Ministry of Health. I think
this is one of the most important deals for me right now. Today I will give
them the all my medical documents and tomorrow I will probably get all
documents and forms of petitions which I must fill out as soon as possible.
Then I will go to Army Garrison where were working my parents. They must
collect for me all the information about my parents, about history of the
death of my father and mother. I must have data about work of my parents
not only in this Army Garrison, but also in all others Garrisons where
my parents worked during all life. To make it extremely difficultly,
if to take into account that my parents worked in Army Garrisons in various
points of our huge country. But I am sure that I will get the information
because here many officers who remember my father, and I hope they will be
glad to help me. xxx,xtoday I feel that I start to worry more
than I even could imagine. I am very glad that I do all this. And I
think of our meeting every minute. The meeting at the airport...
I don't think that many people on our planet have an opportunity to enjoy
such a delightful moment - the moment of the first meeting at the airport.
It is so beautiful. I feel that it will be very touching moment for
each of us. I never travelled so far away. And I worry very much.
But I imagine us together and it calms me down. I see us together, I see us
walking in the park; I see us speaking about serious and about silly things,
or playing cards or a checkers (and the one who lose will execute any desire
of the winner (smile)), I see wonderful dinners at home and outside!
I see you sitting on a sofa with a juicy peach in your hand and I see me
dancing in front of you beautiful dance, or maybe even erotic dance (smile),
how about Belly dance? (Smile). I do it stunningly!(Smile).
I see us swimming; I see us on a roof of a house, watching the full moon;
I see us fighting by pillows; I see us in the evening at home, with
romantic light of candles; I see us cooking together Russian pelmenies
and pizza (smile); I see me in your embraces. All this waits for us
in the near future; and I enjoy, anticipating this delightful time together!
Do you feel the same, xxx? xxx, would you like to give me massage
of my back? I would like to give you massage! But I must warn you, that
if you want to give me massage, you should not touch my ribs!(Smile)
The reason - I the most ticklish woman in Russia(smile). xxx,
I madly am afraid of titillation! If someone tickles my foot or ribs,
I begin to laugh loudly, to kick and to scratch, to squeal and to jump!
Therefore if you will give me massage and you will tickle me, you will
feel like a cowboy on a wild undomesticated mare on the rodeo! (Smile).
By the way, xxx, are you ticklish? Do you snore? (Forgive me for
this question. Do not answer, if you do not want. Maybe one day I will
find out all this all the same! (Smile). Will you sing serenades for me?
I would be happy if you would sing serenades and songs for me! I would
remunerate you by kisses! (Smile). xxx, I should finish the letter.
I must do much so that you had an opportunity to give me massage and to
get the massage from me! (Smile). Please, write me because now I need you
and your letters very very strongly, because I worry so much.
Your Svetlana.