Hi dear friend xxxxxx. Many thanks for your letter. It was the
long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I
am really glad that I have found you. I should tell you I have ocean
of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on
this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity
your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should
tell you what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I
should share it with you.
I should tell you that it was required a lot of time to write and
think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things
to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it's
really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally
speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words
must be carefully chosen. xxxxx, I feel somewhat lost when I have no
opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel
contentment and joy when I think about you. I have never done this in
my life (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world),
and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more
than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your
desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends
possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they
feel. xxxxx, I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you,
and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and
understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put
through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend
the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and
cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the
same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they
are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and
I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your
heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me,
I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share
your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly
wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere
friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things,
I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be
honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your
eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could
share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. xxxxx, I
really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to
believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams
could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this
way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is
something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather
than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I
hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I
wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is
never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always
feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share
with you. xxxxxx, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not
matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are
very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive
as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of
your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very
special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty
inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the
most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul
and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness
and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are
truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is
nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my
mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only
to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my
thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell
that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our
friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you
suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough
for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope
that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that
every yours wish you have comes true one day. xxxxx I will look
forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
With tenderness Anastasiya.