Hello my dear! First of all I am very very happy that today as always I have a possibility to write you letter, where I tell you how much I was missing you and to express everything what I feel!!! I would like to continue on the very romantic note speaking about my feelings to you and dreaming how we will spend time together, but unfortunately I need to tell you about some organizational points concerning our future! Honey... Today I realized that I am silly and stupid girl indeed!!! Yes, and this is true, I don't refuse from this truth about myself... And as only found the possibility just at once am writing you! So we have paid process of TravelPackage, today I have gotten a phone call from the agency and they asked me to visit them. Of course I didn't put it away for a long time, and as only I had free minute I ran at once to them, because now the most important event in my life is our meeting with my lovely man!!! I was asked the question there, if I am financially independent to travel abroad, to your country, and I surely told them that "yes, of course"! Honey, I thought that this question concerns to the payment for Travel Package, and I could not even think that the system going abroad is sooo difficult to make, that I began to panic in nervousness and didn't know what to do!!! At it turned, under that question they meant if I have enough finance on my bank account, which allows me to travel abroad... Honey, one more time I want to confess what a stupid woman I am!!! Why didn't I think everything beforehand??? My , I am ready just to cry now, as I understand my guilt before you... Agency explained me about the system of work of travel checks or cash, which I need to get for the solution of this problem... They can be bought in any international bank and their presence proves that I am not a beggar and go abroad not to panhandle as poor woman... Or also I can have this money in cash or on the account. When I heard its sum, I was stunned by it and was just shocked!!! The common sum of it amounts is 750$, and it's not matter how much days I stay in your country... And you know that for me this news is like a bolt from the blue!!! But sweetheart, if to consider this issue from the positive corner, as always it gives us positive side in all this situation... When they saw my eyes full of shock and nearly ready to be on tears, after that when I heard this information, they were in hurry to make me calm, that after that when I arrive to your country and our of borders of Ukraine, all this sum will be given back!!! My ... Dear... It really encouraged me, but I still to be worrying in the obscurity, because I don't know what reaction you will have after this!!! I know... I know that you can be angry on me after this, I know that you can blame and tell that I am silly girl, but darling, the main thing is that this money will be not lost!!! Money will be given back from cent to the last cent, and in any International bank there is a serves to change that cheques for money as only I reach the place of destination!!! We need this to prove my solvency for going through the borders by the time of my trips. Honey, it means that as only I arrive to you, we can go there and you will take back all this payment cent in cent and dollar in dollar!!! These tour checks need to be bought for the possibility to leave my country and to come in yours! Sorry, sorry my love... I don't know how I need to ask forgiveness from you, but I realize that it is my fault and only my... My all gentle lovely feelings to you just have no measures and boundaries, and I cannot even allow the thought, that when we are making the last step of preparations of my coming to you, everything can be broken... I cannot put this idea in my head, because my mind which is full with thoughts about you, refuse to take this idea!!! I am writing you and with each new word it is so difficult for me to type, because my eyes are completely in tears, my hands and fingers are trembling and I cannot stop this crying... , my heart is beating with such speed and wants to break out because of this pain... Everything that I want, especially for now it is to turn next to you!!! I cannot stay alone no more... We need, not... we MUST be together!!! Please, answer me as only you can... I cannot say something more... Now I am full of my worries and tears what is going to be and feeling myself so bad and so guilty before you, my love… Yours only Svetlana
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