Hello my dear xxx! How are you doing? I'm all good. Sorry for the
late response. I had problems with the Internet, but now everything is
fine. Oh, Can I call you "honey"? You've become closer to me and I
want to call you that. ( of course, if you don't mind )
I don't know if you'd be interested. I just want to have a
heart-to-heart conversation. If you are familiar with it. I don't want
to be boring and beat around the Bush. Still a brief hope, I also hope
that our communication will lead to a mutual meeting. But before that,
we need to be sure of each other. We both know what we want. And since
we agreed to be honest, then to the end.
Sometimes it's easier to tell someone what's on your mind. Than to
hide it in yourself. You know I was married. But I didn't tell you why
I'm single. But if we agreed to trust each other, I think we should
open up to each other. When I was married, We spent a lot of time
together. We were happy and happy ( so it seemed to me). He was
courting me and I thought this was the man I was going to spend my
life with. We were together for 3 years. Then it was as if someone had
extinguished this fire of love. Over time, he began to devote less
time to me. He's changed for the worse. He began to stay at work more
often. I hardly ate at home. Although I prepared a lot of delicious
and healthy food for him every day. I did everything I could to be a
good and loving wife to him. He told me that he was busy and engaged
in work matters. Sometimes he wouldn't even pick up his cell phone.
Then I didn't come home at all to spend the night. I began to guess
that something was wrong with him. They say love blinds you. But I'm
not a completely stupid woman yet.
Later, when the military situation in Ukraine began, he had to leave
for Another city "Donbass". Of course, I was very worried about this
and was afraid of losing it. You have no idea how scary it has become
to live in Ukraine recently. This is now a different country with a
different history of civil war and the whole world doesn't care
anymore. There are a lot of lies on TV! In General, he had to leave
with the rest of the men in the battle points. Since he is a former
military man and it was his duty. And then he wrote me a letter asking
for my forgiveness. he has another woman ... (like a knife in the
back). I was surprised and couldn't believe that he was already with
someone else. I didn't want to believe it. But He never returned home.
I silently shed tears in the evenings and waited! It took me a long
time to come to my senses. I was very hurt by such a betrayal. I
admit, I even started drinking alcohol to cope with depression. I
wanted to kill myself! they say time heals all wounds. maybe it cures
pain, but you can't erase a piece of life from your memory... But I
found the strength. Later, due to the military situation, I decided to
move away. To the capital Kiev. I wanted to find a prestigious job. I
decided to change my life. And it seems to have turned out to forget
everything and I returned to my city back. But it became very
difficult for me to trust people. This is why I only want sincerity in
our communication. People can cause pain. But life makes you move on.
And now we're talking about our relationship. I see that you are
different. I want to forget my past hardships and see a different
life.
xxx I feel like I'm getting attached to you. It's all so romantic.
( smile ) I look forward to seeing you every day. When I fall asleep
at night, I think about the next day. When I read your letters, I feel
as if you are saying all these words to me when you are near. With the
help of letters, we forget about this huge distance. But still, after
a while, it becomes sad again, because you are not with me. sorry for
the sad letter. I just want us to be open to each other. Don't forget
to send your photos if possible. I'll wait for your response. honey,
don't be sad! with warm greetings, Oleksandra.