Hello my dear xxx. Your letters are becoming a necessity or even a need for me, I don't know what to call it.
Last time I wrote you, they make me happier, sometimes it feels like someone really needs me.
Such a pleasant and warm feeling, like a light that warms the soul. It's so great that we talk to each other.
We with you communicate I think you're good, I catch myself often thinking that I am attracted to you.
Such feelings surging suddenly, can and frighten. I'm afraid that you might hurt me.
Because when there is trust in a person, you see only good moments,
what things just don't pay any attention.
But we live a real life, where unfortunately, people often cheat.
And you believe every word you say. You understand me?
I've been experience a serious relationship with a man, but this is a sad story and more commonplace.
I was faced with betrayal, and I saw with my own eyes.
When you understand this and begin to realize, worse than this state, only the death of a loved one.
The correct comparison will probably be-like a sword in the back.
I would've never wanted to experience that feeling, because the wounds from the sword heal very poorly,
and leave the consequences in the form of fear.
I was alone. My heart ached terribly from the pain.
From such an unnaturally low betrayal...
But as you know time heals. and now it doesn't hurt so much.
And so I decided to try to meet a man, but from another country.
Because I'm disappointed in our local men.
That's why I want to ask you. Let it be immediately and directly. You only talk to me?
I beg you not to deceive me, because I sincerely open to you.
I want you to not hide from me, if there is communication with other girls, please answer honestly.
I communicate only with you, so your attitude towards me means a lot to me.
It means I'm choosing you and I don't need anyone else. I very much hope for reciprocity.
But if it's not, please tell me. Because I don't want to face any more deception.
I wish you a good day. I think of you and look forward to your answer.
I wish I could hug you gently now and never let go.
Writing to you from my heart and honest with you.
Olesya.