My dear ---!
Thank you so much for your reply!! I was sitting yesterday at my
kitchen and I don't know why but thinking of you...We don't really
know each other yet but feel that we have to fix that and every our
letter is bringing us closer. that feels amazing that how hot and
sensual man you are!! that is main - for parents to love your name and
for you, also to like that of course I know Vienna and amazing,
beautiful Austria very sweet your care about my granny - her name if
Anastasia thank you for your care as for Lugansk, you are very
tender man! I am sorry for your past.. you are well done to keep
staying kind man even despite not such a kind past for you! I see that
economic crisis hurt you also. well - main thing - is that you are
life active and this is feeling you are not sitting at one place doing
nothing! I wish you success with technician job search and I am sure
nice working place waits for you already I am impressed with your
knowledges of Dosdojewskij.. wow! thank you for not being angry on me
with that fact I cannot speak English. Of course I will do all my best
and will learn language witch is needed for US and our easier
communication! thank you for that you believe in my forces!
You know when I was a little child I dreamt about some magic in my
life. My mom used to call me a princess as I was the first child and
they didn't have any other children for 10 years more. They were
giving me all their love and I really used to believe that I am a
princess My mom was reading for me different fairy tales and I was
imagining that my prince would come and change all my life. But when I
grew up I understood that there is no fairy tale in this life. And in
fact..there are no any princes ... I tried to build my happiness
with a guy who loved me a lot for more than 2 years...but nothing
worked out. We both realized that we are too different and we have
nothing in common...even common interests. It is very hard to be with
someone who don't understand you the way you want. Then I decided to
dedicate my life to my family. I have wonderful sisters. We are really
very close to each other. I realized that there is no any magic in a
real life until you create that magic by yourself! I decided to start
to work because we are not rich and my parents were doing everything
to bring us up. Now I am working in a beauty saloon as I have already
said. My salary is really very little for such a large family but at
least it is better than nothing. I had no such an opportunity to get a
higher education and I do know that it is very hard to have a job for
me that is why I decided to do anything to help my little angels to be
happy. Almost all my salary is for their education. It is not enough
to pay for their education but at least with the help my parents we
are figuring it out some how. I am a kind of happy realizing that I am
living for them but in fact...I feel that I miss someone in my life. A
special person ...my soul mate! I still believe that I will find my
prince and who knows...may be it can be you my dear? What do you think
about it? I pray for peaceful sky over you, I know very well price
for peace and calm... Oh...I wrote you to long letter again...I just
really want you to understand me that is why I am expressing my
thoughts in such a huge letters!! I would be really happy to get
such a letter from you too.....At least we will learn each other
better So....am stopping now! Waiting for your reply impatiently!!!
Kisses and hugs
Your sweet blackberry Nastia!