Hello my dear Xxx, how your day today? How your mood today? I hope all is well with you my dear.
Today the whole day thinking of you and I have a desire to just cry.
I am now so ugly inside because of my last letter to you and because of that I can not myself for the money to come to you for our meeting.
I really do not think that everything is so expensive to travel to your country. I expected a smaller amount, but not on such a large.
I would now itself part of the money to pay, but not the full amount. this is too big sum for me.
more so now I have had problems and this situation at work, and then another dismissal.
my dear, I beg you to not only upset at me and try to understand me. God knows, if I had money, I would pay everything myself.
I do not know what to do even now. I feel sadness in my heart. I'm very hard to realize that I can not now meet with you after our gentle letters.
I feel that you are the man I was looking for all my life, but I do not know what to do to find extra money to pay for my trip.
Perhaps you're thinking that I ask for help in money you have, but it is not. I'm not asking you for help, because I can not take money from you.
My conscience will not let me do it. I do not know what to do, but I think that I should itself resolve the problem with money and I'll try to find the money itself.
Maybe I'll take extra money from my friends, or take out a bank loan. I'll find out about this the other day and then must write to you.
So my kid not to worry about our meeting. We will meet with you, I promise you I will try for us, believe me, ok.
know, this is the first time I have to I'm so in love with someone, especially on the letters.
Before, I did not think you can fall in love through letters and never believed in the sincerity of such feelings.
I thought it was a lie and that is never fall in love and trust the person who has never seen, but now I see that I was wrong.
I myself fell in love with you through emails and now I can only pray that your feelings are sincere to me. Please do not play with me and my feelings.
I will not survive if I was again deceived. I think that every woman or every man in this world has its own half of the heart.
They feel each other and try to connect all my life. There are families who divorce after a few years of life together and I think they're just not made for each other.
Their heart is not whole and because of that all the problems. I want to get married once in your life and live a happy life.
I want to have children, because nothing pleases a woman's heart more than the laughter of children at home. Do you agree with me?
I do not know whether we made for each other with you, but still something inside me says that you are the man I was looking for a lifetime.
I can not understand it completely now, and that's why I want to see you in reality and be with you.
I want to understand and make their feelings to you and if you're the one I'll love all my life, I will never leave you.
I will fight for you, as a patriot fighting for his country and I will stick with you for life. I hope you understand everything that I write to you.
I now fully open before you. My heart now belongs to you and I beg you not to hurt him ever. I love you !!!!!
Well my dear, I hope you understand me and my thoughts, my dreams. I want you to believe me, my angel. I love you and those words away from my lover's heart.
Now I'm going with fear in his heart to wait for your response to my kid. Write to me soon, ok.
Your and only your Jana