hello XXX ,
I am so sorry i have not sent you an email as quickly as i should , i had to be with my mum for a while these days , you know she is really feeling worse lately and when i see that she is suffering so much it hurts me even more and more each day. She has been a wonderful mum and now she goes through alot and being on life supports hurts her i see that , i just do not wish to confined her in an aged home. It is not me , i promised her once when i was teenager that i will never do that she , hated it right from her teen anyway.
How are you this day ? I hope everything is moving ,
I will never deny that i missed her when i am in this house anyway , my late wife anyway but she is gone and out of my life and i am over this anyway. I am not solely thinking about her , i just remember her when i see somethings we did together it has been a long time but it still comes in mind , when it happened before it was like i could not bare it anyway but finally i came to understand it and now i am perfectly ok , well i will not be searching for another if i missed her that much ,she is still in this brains but out of the heart you know. I am open anyway.
Thank you for inviting me over to your house ok. I will come there soon but not now , i have alot to do around here , i told you about visiting firms this week right . It is not over yet and the situation with my mum is also complicating it so much , but i am used to having all this under control. My secretary is my only problem , she seem to unfit for this job now , she is always delaying or making up excuses and doing things different , making me really loose my patience even though i am a very patient man but i hate waiting anyway , if you should know that about me.
I will be in the office earlier today , close late too , i plan to have dinner with my son today , just us anyway . You know we usually do this alot , it brings us closer and this weekend we plan on visiting one of the famous places in New York , basically for kids and some other things fun , i want him to be happy and maybe i could use that to distress my body too , anyway it will feel great doing this , it is just imcomplete . How i wish we could do all this with you , you know just a man and son , it will be perfect with a woman , man and son . What do you think? Will that ever be possible sometime soon , i seem to be liking you more and more and immediately i get a chance all i wanna do is send you something or hear from you , like now i even wish you replied immediately i send this off anyway.
Ok so i will end here sip on my coffee and try to fix somethings that needs fixing anyway , will try and send you another email about my day on lunch ok , that is if i even have one , i usually do not have lunch because i forget it is lunch already . The only thing i seem to remember lately is my promises to my son and check if you wrote me an email or not , i am probably getting old i guess , i just feel tired of being lonely you know , and i am so much hoping we go far my dear.
Have a wonderful day darling ,
Ernest