Ach ja, es kam ja mal wieder Post. You know xxxxx, I began to notice behind myself that that
your letters gradually enter in I wash with a life. Yes, by the
way, «Hello», do not take offence, simply today day difficult,
but at me fine mood. And so (Oh …. Smile), your letters become a
pleasant part of my life. It is pleasant to realise that you show
interest to me. It increases mood. But as though I would not like
to rejoice today, I nevertheless should tell about a dark spot my
life. To tell about my last life.
As you understand, in a life of each person, there is a place
for heart, soul and love ….
My first love has begun with that moment when I have met the
young man at institute. And I have got acquainted with one very
pleasant person. This person long looked after me. He behaved as
the real man. He to achieve a place in my heart, as the present
gentleman. But nevertheless in the beginning I did not pay to him
attention. But nevertheless after several years of his
unsuccessful courtings I have noticed him. He was not beautiful
appearance. But I was amazed with his private world. His
relations to a life, his relation to me. And my heart was set
before his pressure of love. We were constantly together. And in
some years of study at one institute we with him have decided to
get married after institute. It was-remarkable time. I simply
tested pleasure, it is possible even to name it female happiness.
We with him had huge plans for the future. But all it has ended.
Also has ended for the reasons independent of us.
My husband studied together with me at one institute, but only
he studied on military chair. And consequently he has finished
study as the military expert. It seemed to me that it is a good
speciality. As the economy in our country develops well. And
people which bore military service had many prospects in the
future. So I did not think that the trade of my husband will be
dangerous. But I was mistaken. I have understood it when once my
husband has come from work and has informed that direct it to
business trip in the Chechen Republic. It was blow for me because
I nevertheless looked television news. And I understood what
conditions in this republic. My heart as though felt a trouble.
But nevertheless the husband as that has calmed me.
We constantly corresponded with him. And I sincerely trusted in
that that all will be good.
But in half a year, I have received the telegramme. Having read
which I have fainted at once. My husband was lost. I cannot
explain it words at all. It was simply a shock for me. That
seemed to me that I cannot go through these events. These events
have changed my life. I did not wish to recollect it, and to tell
to you it. But nevertheless we friends. And friends should share
not only joyful events from a life. But also to speak about the
bad.
I have been closed all time. For me this tragedy became the big
shock. To me was so alone. And at night constantly cried in a
pillow. For me it was spiritual wounds. But has passed 4
year. And I have decided to take myself in hands. Simply I the
strong woman. I do not wish to live on only memoirs. The life
proceeds. Thus I have decided to return by a normal life.
Therefore I have decided to take advantage of the Internet.
Now I communicate with you. Yes, memoirs remained. But now,
communicating with you, in my memoirs remained only bright both
pleasant as a hobby and memoirs hearts. Yes, I recollect
sometimes these pleasant moments. But the life proceeds. I
communicate with you, and it pleases me. I hope, dialogue
continuation will be fine. You agree?
It was difficult to me to write this letter. But, I understand,
that it is necessary for us to be opened before each other.
Therefore to me it became pleasant and easy in a shower. As I
could open to you the soul. I hope for your understanding and
reciprocity.
On this note I will finish this disturbing letter. I wait for
your beam of the sun in the form of the bright letter.
Ok bye bye now, before communication Anna.