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Hi my good kind friend xxx!!!!
How are you doing? Are you glad to get my e-mail today? I always glad when I receive your
letter. Thank you for writing me back. Thank you very much xxxxxxx. I must admit xxxx,
I feel truly comfortably only if I have received your letter. I am often trying to imagine -
what you are doing right now, where are you right now or with whom you are right now... There
is a lot of kilometers between us, there is some hours between us, but I always hope that right
now you as well think:"What Nadya is doing right now? Where is she?". And maybe xxxwe
think of the same things at the same time. Do you agree? As I wrote you in my previous letter
we had a holidays and I couldn't write you. I tried to find a place where I could send you a
message from but I have failed. The internet club didn't work too. I twice visited Kemerovo city
but I couldn't write. Did you spend those days nicely? I spend time with friends. When we went to
Kemerovo we watched a parade with military men and technique! It was cool! Also in the evening
we watched a fireworks! it was very beautiful! I like fireworks? Do you like to watch it xxxx?
All the time Elena asks about you. I already tired to answer her(Smile). In fact, everyone here
is glad for me, and nobody is surprised that my friend lives in the another country. Nobody
here is surprised if a woman seeks not a russian man. I don't understand russian men and their
culture of behavior with woman. They are not able to appreciate woman's feelings, her fidelity
and love. They do not appreciate aspiration of woman to do for a man absolutely everything,
wishing to get from him only his Love. But, I do not want to talk about bad and sad things.
xxxx, can you believe, right now into cabinet of medical analyses has come our boss and
told me that when I have free time I should sit in my cabinet but not in the laboratory. xxxx,
I always do my work with the maximal concentration and attentiveness. And any doctor or nurse
in our clinic deserves many kind words of gratitude, but nobody ever heard such words from our
boss! I have right to spend my free minutes in any way I want to do it. But right now, when he
said it, I felt a shame, and it made me blush! And I don't know why! Are you a shy man, xxxxx?
What makes you blush, xxxx? You know xxxx, I have decided to tell you about my last
relationship. This relationship is not an example of good relations. I don't believe that there are
absolutely ideal people, but I really tried to do everything to make us happy. I gave my feelings,
I was sincere and gentle, I was washing clothes and cooking meal, I was cleaning our home and
I was working in clinic.. I gave all my female caress, I was devoted and I always cared for
my appearance. And first he was good and kind man. But afterwards he became rough, cruel. He
began to visit other woman, he was getting drunk and beating me. Outside of home he was a true
gentleman, at home he was the tyrant. And I do not understand why. Why russian men uses dirty
words when they talk to women? And why they think that it is a norm? Russian men adore alcohol.
But the alcohol makes them cruel, spiteful, savage people. I am afraid of russian men and I
am afraid of drunk russian men more than anything. I do not want to criticize all russian
men. My father was a good man. I am not ideal, and just like any person I have merits and
demerits. But I couldn't endure disrespect and eternal ingratitude. He was knocking me into
my face even though I never argued with him. He was kicking me by his foot even when I was
on a floor. He was saying that a man is a "predator" and all women are just man's "trophys"
and therefore man can use his "trophys" in any way he want! I have left him.. xxxx, I want
to hear gentle words instead of dirty abusive speech, to feel hand's tenderness of my beloved
instead of rigidity of his fist. I want to feel that my man is my protection and support. But
how I can feel it if russian man is always ready to give a physical pain to his woman? I understand
that there is bad men everywhere, in any country. But the beating of a woman is national feature
of russian men. There are women ready to endure everything. But I can't. The scratchs and bruises
can be cured very quickly, but it is difficult to cure wounded and humiliated soul. I am afraid of
roughness, I am afraid of russian men, I am afraid to give my love but one day to get knock into my
face instead of love. Please, forgive me xxxxx that I write you this. I really wanted to share it
with you. And I feel that you understand me. And I am very glad that I have such a friend as you.
I wanted to ask you - are you ever becoming cruel, xxxxx? What makes you mad? Do you have(maybe
you even know) men like I described in your country? I have to finish, but I will look forward your
letter. With tenderness and with thoughts of you.
Your Nadya.
P.S. I have sent you a picture of me and my other girlfriend Olga. Together with Elena we went to Kemerovo.