My dear Markus,
I do thank you for your respond and should tell you that I was waiting for it , trying to guess if we have got the chance for continuing the relationships.
You know, I realised that my letter was not too informative last time, because it told you about my social life, but not about the reason I'm looking for love here.
So, let me tell you the story, which, I hope , you will read, till the end...And then I hope, you will understand me better...
Once upon a time, there was a girl who wanted to be happy most of all in her life. She was reading the fairy tales about the princes and the princesses, about the true love and decided that when she grows up-she will do everything to meet this love in her life, the love like the books write about. She decided that it is better to be ready to that romantic love right away. Looking around, she saw that the only person who would suit for her object of admiration would be her father. Like most of the girls, she thought that her father is perfect and she caressed the love to him in her little heart. It is natural, that she saw the happiness in him.
But once, father of that little girl packed the suit cases and told her that he is leaving. He told her that he loves you anyway, but he can't live with her mother anymore and should leave because of that. The little girt rushed to her room, fell on the bed and cried bitterly...
How could he leave me?-she asked herself...If he would have loved me he wouldn't leave. Probably, I loved him less then I had to love him. And then she promised herself that she will be as good as it is possible and love her father as strong as it is possible and he will come back...
So, the little girl decided to be the most loving girl on this planet. She was the good pupil, took part in the school events, read a lot of books to be clever person for her father would be interested in talking to her. But most of all she tried to show he father how much she admires him, because she decided that he will love you only if she shows him how much she loves him.
Father of that little girl didn't come back. But he really loved her, because he told her that she is the most loving little girl in this world. And this girl was ready for the real adult life.
The girl grew up and when the time of love came she was sure she knew what to do. She told her friends that the secret is to love so strong and to be so good, for he wouldn't be able to live without you. So she did. She has found the boy whom she fell in love with. Every day she wrote him the notes of love, she was the best fan for him during the basket ball games and always told him that he is wonderful. She loved and loved and loved him until he told himself:I swear, nobody loved me so much, even my parents. It seems to me that I love her too...
The girl was happy for some time. But gradually she noticed that despite she had a friend she wasn't happy.The girl has figured out that despite she behaved with him like with the prince, his attitude to her was different. The she rushed to her room, fell on the bed and cried, thinking:"I love him more then he loves me. How could it be, if I loved him so much? And she couldn't respond this question.
The years have passed and the girl turned to the woman, boys to the men and relationships had to be more serious. Nothing changed in the girls attitude to love and relationships, except the fact she could give more to her beloved one. And every time she heard that she is so wonderful, that nobody cared about him so much and loved him so much, that she is the queen of the hearts and he is so lucky that she is by his side.But every time she caught herself on the idea that her beloved man doesn't care about her as much as she does. And if she stopped working on their relationships, they were ready to split. And the man told every time: I'm afraid I don't love you as much as you do it. And the end was the same. She rushed to her room, fell on the bed and cried, asking over and over again where is the man who would love her as much as she would love him? Who would care about the relationships as much as she would do. Who would never betray her and hurt her just for fun....
Well, this long story is about me. I bet you guess already. So, I really can't understand what was wrong with me and still hope to give as much love as I can to my only one man, who could love me with all his heart too...
I hope you read till the end and I will be waiting for your respond, because I made the thing I have never done before. I opened my heart to the person, I have never seen...But you know, if to keep heart closed and try to save emotions, you will never get something very important in your life. Because everything should be deserved. Do you agree???
))
Angela
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