My dear Markus, sorry you have troubles with your computer. So, you
couldn't read my previous letter, right?
It was not as good as you may think. I will include this letter below.
Please think and write mó what should we do.
I miss you...
Hello, my dearest Markus!
thank you for message. I decided to writre you tonight as I have some things to tell you. I don't want to endanger you...
My dear Markus, my love, I need to tell you something. I should warn you about the problem caused with circumstances of your arrival. I told you that I had a man one year ago. We have broken our relations as he was not good with me and there was no love between us. He met other girls and arranged scandals when I became angry with him. He even beat me.... I didn't tell about this anybody. I have heard that he also consisted in criminal grouping, but I am not sure about this. I left him about a year ago and didn't see since that time. I forgot about him and continued my usual life.... It was such a hard and emotionally painful time for me, so I prefered to forget about that.. My life completely changed when I met you. You gave me the chance that I deserve to be happy. I told about my relations to everybody as I wanted to share my happiness with whole world... Some of my friends became jealous. The human nature is such simple and predicted that I should knew this! Someone's happiness may cause envy! So...That man have found out about my relations with you (I think one of my friends told him about me) and came to me a few days ago. He tried to find out everything about you, when do you want to come and what kind of relations and plans we have. I didn’t tell him anything, but he warned me if you come to Russia, he will make something with you. He threatened me. I cried and told him to leave us alone as we have different ways. He just laughed and offended me. He told I would never find the normal man, because I am loser. He assured that he would never let me to be happy with someone else. He is crazy! Now I afraid. He is agressive, awful, severe, indecent and unscrupulous! I hate him, especially now... when he wants to interfere to our relations!
Tell me what should we do? I need to hear your opinion. I am sorry for telling you this.
I very much joined your aspiration to visit me here. Really... It was my dream to spend wonderful romantic time here, introduce you to my parents and friends... I had so many dreams about our first date. I wanted to learn you better and try to live with you like wife and husband. But I really afraid if something may happen while you are here..
I don’t know if you afraid him, but if you decide to postpone our meeting or suggest another variant to meet, I will listen you, my love. I just don’t want to lose you…
I love you and need you. I want you to take me with you. I want to go from this awful place to start my new life with you.
But I want to listen you first. You are smart matured man and you can tell me how we should cope with this trouble. Maybe for you it is not trouble, I don't know... tell me what do you think?
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
I want to forget my past and start new life with you. we should be together, my love.
I am waiting for your answer.
I love you.
Please write me as soon as possible. I am really sorry to tell you about this. I am also sorry that it took time to write you this letter, but I don't know what we will do and if there is possibility for us to meet here.
Your Elya