My dear xxx,
Today I came to the Internet Cafe again,
and it was very sad for me to see that there is still no letter from you with the help I am waiting for.
I was hoping so much that today I would finally receive good news from you.
I also noticed that you did not really appreciate the photos I sent in my last letter.
If you had appreciated them, I believe you would have wanted to help me. To make those photos, I took a very big risk.
I did something that was not easy for me, because I wanted to show you how much I care about you.
It hurts me that you did not appreciate what I did.
My friend Alina helped me make those photos. She is a very good woman, but she judged me for doing this
and told me that she did not think it was right.
Still, she agreed to help me because I told her about you and about how much I love you.
You know that the deadline for my visa payment is getting very close, and I am in a desperate situation now.
I honestly don't know what I can do without your help.
Yesterday I also made a small video especially for you. I tried to send it yesterday,
but the Internet Cafe blocked the upload, so I could not send it.
Today I will try again. I really hope it works this time.
I hope that when you see it, you will understand how much I want to be with you.
I also hope that this time you will appreciate what I have done and that you will help me.
More than anything in this world, I dream of coming to you.
Maybe you are wondering why I don't simply invite you to come here first,
and then we could leave together and go to your country. But please understand me this is not possible for me.
Kyrgyzstan is a very religious and conservative country. My parents would be strongly against our meeting.
If they found out that you came here to see me, they could complain to the local authorities.
Then my situation could become much worse, and I could even be forbidden to leave the country.
That is why the only way I see for us is for me to come to you and start a new life there.
But without your help, I cannot do it.
I don't know what else to write today. My heart feels very heavy.
I am sad because I feel that you don't want to help me.
I am sad because I am afraid that my dream of being with you
and changing my life may never come true.
All I want is to be with the man I love.
Please don't leave me alone in this situation.
Your Nazgul.

My love xxx,
It rained all day today. It felt as if the weather itself was crying with me.
I walked through the rain with my umbrella, listening to the raindrops falling around me
and thinking only about you. Sometimes I just wanted to stop and cry together with the rain.
For a long time, I couldn't bring myself to go into the Internet café.
I walked around under my umbrella in the rain, hoping to receive some good news from you.
I so desperately wanted to open your message and see that you had decided to help me,
that you believed me and would not leave me alone during this difficult time.
But unfortunately, you did not give me the good news I was hoping for today. Once again,
I was left alone with my worries.
My love, there is so little time left.
I am very afraid that if I don't make the required payment by September 19,
my visa will be refused. The thought of this frightens me and breaks my heart.
I have done so much to make our meeting possible, and now everything could come to an
end right at this moment.
You are my last hope. It is very difficult for me to say this,
but there is no one else I can turn to for help. That is why I am coming to you once again
and begging you, please, don't refuse to help me.
I have tried so many times to prove to you that I would never deceive you.
I have sent you many documents, photographs, and other evidence.
I wanted you to be able to see everything for yourself and know that I am telling you the truth.
All of my documents are genuine. I have never wanted to deceive you or take anything from you dishonestly.
When I was at the Internet café, they would not have allowed me to send fake documents anyway.
But most importantly, I would never even think of doing something like that.
I care too much about your trust and about what we have between us.
It hurts me so much that you are suffering because of how unfair this whole situation is.
I understand that it is difficult for you to believe everything that is happening,
and perhaps you are also afraid of making a mistake.
But I wish you could see not only the documents and all these circumstances,
but me the woman who wants to be with you and who needs your support so much right now.
Today, while standing in the rain, I thought about how unfair the world can sometimes be.
I don't want there to be fear, doubt, and mistrust between us.
All I want is for you to believe me and not leave me alone at the moment when I need you the most.
Please, my love, don't refuse to help me. If there were someone else I could turn to,
I wouldn't keep asking you again and again.
But right now, I truly don't know who else I can ask for help.
I still want to believe that everything can end well.
That this rain will eventually stop, that the sun will come out,
and that our hope will return with it.
I just want to come to you one day and say, We made it.
Please believe me. Don't let me lose my last hope.
Yours Nazgul,
the woman who cried with the rain today and still waited for good news from you.

P.S.
I already wrote to you-
If you really want to see me and help me,
then please send the money (520 usa dollars) in my name NAZGUL MURATBEKOVA.
my home address
35 Turuzbeka Kazakova St. Kum-Aryk Village,
Talas District, Talas Region, 724214(zip), Kyrgyzstan.
Please send the money to Bishkek (City), Kyrgyzstan (Country).
Use any of these money transfer services: RIA or Western Union or MoneyGram.
I already told you that my bank account is no longer valid.
My bank closed my account and card after they found out that
I was leaving Kyrgyzstan permanently.
You can find all the information on how to send the money on their websites:
moneygram.com
riamoneytransfer.com
westernunion.com

or send money to my Bitcoin wallet
bc1qa6whcmpj89q7dkmjpvankvk5lw4ckw5rh4x440

It's not easy for me to write this letter to you again,
because it hurts me that you still doubt me.
But I want to make one last attempt to prove to you that
I have been sincere with you and that I never wanted to deceive you.
Today I was finally given my departure date - September 23rd.
The flight has a layover because it was the most affordable option available to me.
I have attached a photo of the itinerary receipt to this email
so that you can see everything for yourself.
I really want you to believe me after this.
What scares me most is that I was warned that if I don't pay the remaining $520 by September 19th,
everything will be cancelled.
ALL THE EFFORT I HAVE PUT INTO THIS WILL HAVE BEEN FOR NOTHING!
I will lose all the money I have spent on all the documents.
I have put so much effort into obtaining all the documents
and certificates required for my visa. I have spent my own money, time,
and probably more emotional energy on this than I can even explain to you.
I was told that if everything is cancelled now, I definitely won't have another chance to get the visa.
I don't know what else I can say to make you understand how serious all of this is for me.
I simply want so much to come to you.
I want to finally stop writing about my feelings to you through a screen and,
one day, actually be there beside you.
That is why I'm turning to you now with my last hope and asking for your help.
If you truly believe in me and in what we have between us,
please help me take this final step and send the money before September 19th.
I'm scared because my trip to you now depends on this.
And perhaps that is why I'm writing to you with so much emotion.
I want September 23rd to become more than just a date on an itinerary.
I want it to be the beginning of our long-awaited meeting.
Please think of me and of how much hope I have put into this journey.
With warmth and love,
Nazgul. 

Well, I can see that I have no good news from you.
It hurts me so much to realize this.
It hurts to think that all my attempts, all my requests,
and all my hopes may have been in vain.
Perhaps this will be my last letter to you.
Saturday is the final day when I have to pay the remaining amount.
We only have two days left, and until the very last moment
I was hoping that you would be able to help me.
I tried so desperately to convince you because, to me,
this is not just some payment.
It determines whether I will be able to come to you at all.
If I cannot pay the remaining amount on time,
I will be put on a blacklist,
and then I will never be able to come to you.
It scares me even to think about it.
I had so many hopes connected to our meeting,
and I imagined so many things in my mind...
I don't know what else I can say to make you understand
how difficult this is for me right now.
I don't want to bother you with my requests and letters anymore.
I don't want to keep asking you for something and feel like
I am someone who only ever wants something from you.
So perhaps, after this letter, I won't write anymore.
It hurts so much to realize this. I am crying right now,
and I don't know how to cope with these feelings.
I feel terrible thinking that the distance between us
might turn out to be stronger than everything I believed in.
I'm not angry with you. I think I'm just deeply sad.
Sad because, at the most difficult moment,
I hoped for you and waited for your help, but I never received it.
We still have these two days. I don't know what will happen next,
so I just wanted to tell you everything honestly while I still can.
Take care of yourself.
Nazgul.

xxx,
Today, I think I am the happiest woman in the world.
I feel that the only day I could possibly be happier would be the day when
I finally meet you and can see you not from a distance, but standing right in front of me.
This morning, I received letters from the bank informing me that my loan has been approved.
They will provide me with the $520 I was missing. You cannot imagine how much this means to me!
Now I have the opportunity to come to you, and my heart is filled with happiness just thinking about it.
Tomorrow, I will receive the money, and I will be able to pay for my visa.
That means our meeting is now one step closer. I have been waiting for this opportunity for so long,
and I am so happy that I will finally be able to come to you.
But I want to ask you something, and I sincerely ask you to answer me honestly.
Are you happy about this? Please tell me the truth. Do you still want to meet me?
You haven't changed your mind, have you?
It is very important for me to know this,
because I want to travel knowing that I am truly expected and that you are still looking forward to seeing me.
And please, tell me once again the name of the nearest airport to you.
THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT!
I need to be absolutely sure that I book the right ticket and arrive at the correct airport.
I really hope that very soon I will be able to tell you: “I have arrived.”
With warmth and great hope,
Nazgul.

Hi Sweetheart,
I want to ask you for just one thing please tell me which airport is closest to you.
I’ve asked you about it a few times already,
but for some reason you keep ignoring this particular question.
It’s really important for me to know this right now.
I’m not asking you to meet me, take care of me, or make any arrangements for my arrival.
I will come and figure everything out myself.
I just need to know where I should fly and how to plan things from there.
I don’t want to put any pressure on you or interfere with your life in any way.
I simply need someone who could occasionally give me some advice
while I’m getting settled in your country.
If you have some free time and want to see me, of course I’ll be happy to.
And if you don’t, I will completely understand that too.
I’m not expecting anything from you and I’m not asking for any commitments.
Right now, I just need to know the name of the airport closest to you
so I can calmly plan my next steps.
Please, just answer me this one question.
Or just tell me I don’t want to see you,
and I will never write to you again.
Nazgul.