My dear Sweetheart,
Today I came to the Internet Cafe again,
and it was very sad for me to see that there is still no letter from you with the help I am waiting for.
I was hoping so much that today I would finally receive good news from you.
I also noticed that you did not really appreciate the photos I sent in my last letter.
If you had appreciated them, I believe you would have wanted to help me. To make those photos, I took a very big risk.
I did something that was not easy for me, because I wanted to show you how much I care about you.
It hurts me that you did not appreciate what I did.
My friend Alina helped me make those photos. She is a very good woman, but she judged me for doing this
and told me that she did not think it was right.
Still, she agreed to help me because I told her about you and about how much I love you.
You know that the deadline for my visa payment is getting very close, and I am in a desperate situation now.
I honestly don't know what I can do without your help.
Yesterday I also made a small video especially for you. I tried to send it yesterday,
but the Internet Cafe blocked the upload, so I could not send it.
Today I will try again. I really hope it works this time.
I hope that when you see it, you will understand how much I want to be with you.
I also hope that this time you will appreciate what I have done and that you will help me.
More than anything in this world, I dream of coming to you.
Maybe you are wondering why I don't simply invite you to come here first,
and then we could leave together and go to your country. But please understand me this is not possible for me.
Kyrgyzstan is a very religious and conservative country. My parents would be strongly against our meeting.
If they found out that you came here to see me, they could complain to the local authorities.
Then my situation could become much worse, and I could even be forbidden to leave the country.
That is why the only way I see for us is for me to come to you and start a new life there.
But without your help, I cannot do it.
I don't know what else to write today. My heart feels very heavy.
I am sad because I feel that you don't want to help me.
I am sad because I am afraid that my dream of being with you
and changing my life may never come true.
All I want is to be with the man I love.
Please don't leave me alone in this situation.
Your Nazgul.