My love Sweetheart!
I felt deeply ashamed and scared to write you my previous letter.
Until the very last moment, I hoped I would be able to overcome my difficulties on my own
and never have to put you in such an uncomfortable position.
Please understand that I am truly in a very difficult situation right now.
I would never have asked you for help if I had any other choice.
I tried to borrow money from my friends and even applied for a bank loan,
but without success. I was refused because I am planning to leave my country for
an extended period of time.
I sincerely hope that you will believe me. I am being completely honest with you
and I have nothing to hide.
I understand that you may have met people in the past who asked you for help.
But I hope you will not judge me based on the actions of others.
Please give me the chance to prove that my words are sincere.
When we finally meet, you will be able to see for yourself who I truly am.
I don't want to rush things or make you feel as though I am putting pressure on you.
My situation is simply very difficult. I have already paid $2680,
and if I cannot find the remaining $520, I will lose all of that money.
You may think that $3200 is far too much for a trip,
but most of that money goes toward paying for the required voucher.
This voucher serves as a security deposit for my stay in your country.
It is a mandatory requirement for obtaining a visa and being allowed to stay there.
It also serves as a financial guarantee in case your government decides to send me
back to my home country for any reason.
Please understand that I did not create these rules. If I want to come and be with you,
I have to comply with all of the legal requirements.
More than anything, I want there to be trust between us.
That is why I am willing to share my documents with you,
even though I know that sending personal documents over the internet is not always safe.
I have attached a copy of my visa application because it is important to me that you know
I am telling you the truth.
I will receive a one-year visa, and during that year I will be able to apply for
permanent residency if I stay in your country for more than one month.
I know you'd like to talk to me through messenger, but I can't. Please understand that
I live in a third-world country. I, too, would like to hear your voice more often and
feel the distance between us shrinking.
You cannot imagine how often I think about the day we finally meet.
For me, this is not just a trip. It is the hope of beginning a new chapter of
my life beside someone who has become very special to me.
Sometimes I feel that fate brought us together for a reason, and that thought
gives me the strength to keep going.
I have always dreamed of changing my life and leaving behind everything that has
brought me pain and disappointment. Now that dream feels so close, yet at the same
time so fragile.
Please don't turn away from me at the moment when I need your support the most.
If you are able to help me now, I will never forget your kindness.
To me, it would be much more than financial assistance —
it would be a sign that you believe in me and in the future we could have together.
I truly hope that very soon I will be able to say these words to you in person,
looking into your eyes instead of writing them in a letter.
Nazgul.