Hello !
Your last letter made me laugh – I really like the way you write. But there's another story, one that's harder to talk about... The thing is, I've met men who hurt more than just my heart. One of them hit me. I remember sitting in the kitchen after yet another argument, looking at the bruise on my wrist and thinking, "Did I really deserve this?" And then I realized – fear has no place in love. I'm looking for a man who sees a woman as a woman, not a shadow. You know, after everything I've been through, I often ask myself, "What kind of man does it take for me to stop being afraid?" He doesn't have to be perfect – his words and actions are enough. He needs to listen to my stories about the past and believe that together we can build a future. And his hands need to be for creation, not destruction...
I've also had bad experiences with lies and betrayal. There was a man with whom we started living together, and at first, everything seemed normal. Then he suddenly disappeared at work more and more often and spent less and less time at home. And then one day, I accidentally ran into him on the street with another woman. I was completely shocked and didn't know what to do. But I packed my things and left. Because I can't stand betrayal, lies, and infidelity. Honesty and trust are very important to me! I hope you're telling the truth.
That was my last relationship; it ended about a year ago. I haven't had anything since then, and I've been single for almost a year. Honestly, I haven't had many serious relationships in my life—only four—but they all ended in breakups. I hate lies and deceit; I'd rather be alone than constantly endure humiliation.
You're probably still asking why I decided to look for a man in another country? As I already wrote, I live in Kazakhstan. It's a Muslim country where the majority of the population is Kazakh. I'm Russian Orthodox and don't want my husband to be Muslim. Muslims often have very conservative views on women: they say a woman should stay at home, dress very modestly, not communicate with anyone, not go anywhere, and so on. This is too strict for me, and Kazakh wives are essentially like slaves. I'm accustomed to more liberal views, and European values are closer to me. I grew up in a typical Russian Orthodox family, where women have equal rights and responsibilities. Half of my serious relationships were with Kazakhs, and nothing good came of them. So I decided to try my luck at finding a man in Europe. I hope you don't have any questions about that.
Tell me about your country? What are the people like there? What are your values and the values of society in general? How are people different from others?
You're probably asking if I've ever been to other countries. I've only been to Russia; I've never been anywhere else. I have distant relatives there, and I've visited them a few times. But I'd really like to visit other countries, especially yours, and see everything with my own eyes. That's partly why—since I can't build relationships with other men here—I decided to try to find a man in another country. That's how I met you, and I believe, and want to believe, that everything will be fine between us.
I hope I didn't scare you with my letter. I just want there to always be only the truth between us, and nothing but the truth. From the very beginning, I've opened my heart to you and told you honestly about my life, so you know everything about me and about the person you're corresponding with.
I wish you a good day and a great mood.
I await your reply.
Nastya