I don’t know why, but I felt sad this morning. Maybe it’s because of the bad weather. Cool, rainy. Cloudy. I didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning. Maybe it’s because of my age. I’ve lived on this earth for many years. I didn’t want to get out of bed, but a thought appeared in my head that you were waiting for me, for my letter. Waiting for my photos, my letter. Waiting for my questions, answers to your questions. Just like I’m waiting for your letter and photo. I immediately smiled and felt the desire to live. I washed my face, cooked porridge, made fresh tea, a fish sandwich, had breakfast, and went to scan photos for you. I’m looking forward to the day when I can communicate with you from home. How are you? How was your day? Night? I’m glad you’re in my life. Sometimes I think you want to find a girl younger, closer, or with some other parameter that makes you not like me. I hope that’s not true. I can’t say that if you’re around me. But you're far away, I can discuss everything with you. Absolutely everything. I'm so glad that we can discuss everything honestly. Do you think I'm beautiful? Do you like me? If I lived on the next street, would you come up to me? Start communicating with me? Would your friends and family judge you? Or not? I have no one close. No one at all. Now I communicate with you and you are closer than anyone I know here. Now I want to ask your advice. Can you imagine? What are you thinking about now? xxx, I know that we may not be able to meet. At the same time, we have a chance to meet. I think the world has changed, the world is going crazy. Wars, sexual slavery among children, adults. I've just seen so much on the Internet, terrible news. Horrible acts. It turns out that there are a lot of scammers, pedophiles and maniacs on the Internet. A lot. A lot of mentally ill people, people who want money. I became scared. I didn't want to say it, but a thought flashed through my head, maybe you were playing with me. I believe, I hope that this is not so. I believe that heaven introduced me to you as a reward for all the trials that have been in my life. Because I have stopped being sad. I want to live. I feel desire. Thank you. I ask you not to be offended by my thoughts. I like you. It's true. I'm afraid of it. I'm afraid of making a mistake. If you are playing with me, want to deceive or mock me, I ask you not to do it. I am very attracted to you. I think about you, I think about meeting you. I'm afraid, but I believe that you are a wonderful man. I think I'm falling in love. To understand everything for sure, I understand that we need to communicate more, most importantly, we need to meet. What do you think? xxx, I want, I believe, I dream that you will be exactly the man I've been waiting for all my life. I can give you warmth, joy, love and passion. I expect reciprocity from you. What do you think? Is it possible for us to have a future together? I'm waiting for your letter tomorrow. Write as soon as you receive mine. I'm sorry, I have a lot of important questions. I've lived a long time, I want understanding, I don't want to live alone, I'm tired of loneliness, depression, sadness. I want to live, to be loved, to be understood, not lied to, not deceived, to be hugged and kissed for real. And you? I want to love and be loved. I'm really looking forward to your letter tomorrow. I want to know your opinion. I need to go to work. I'll go. The administrator of the internet cafe looks at me and is silent. She smiles. It's not clear what she thinks. It doesn't matter. What matters to me is what you think.

I submitted all the documents. I paid the fees. I was at the Starink repair shop. I'll tell you everything in detail now. I arrived and went straight to submit the documents. All the documents were accepted. I'm doing everything through the Ukrainian Embassy. I'll get all the necessary documents through the embassy. They'll certify everything and issue me the necessary paperwork. They gave me a form and told me to fill it out and return it to them. I need to indicate:

1. The country I want to go to
2. The job I can do
3. Relatives who are in that country or friends who will meet me.

Can I list you? Your information? Or is it not necessary? I don't think I need to be fully supported. Or should I list it? What do you think?

4. The dates and reasons for leaving Ukraine
5. The addresses and positions where I will be working, if I've submitted requests and researched this information.

And they gave me a list of additional documents I need to provide.

Medical certificates
Medical examination with tests
Diplomas
Certificates
Pay fees

I think I'll be fine. As the girl at the embassy told me, age might be an issue. Many young people, mostly women, are going to work these days. My chances are slim because I'm an adult. Elderly. My health will tell. I'll go now and get a full checkup and some tests. Sick workers aren't needed anywhere. That's what they told me. They asked if I could provide an invitation from a citizen of the country of entry. What do you think? Can you do that? An invitation to work as a nurse. I'll check that out later. I'll let you know everything. I need to go for a checkup. I'll tell you everything in detail later. I feel like I'm getting closer to you every day. I asked if I could take a photo of someone passing by on the street. Send it to me. How do you like it? Do you like it?

I sold everything I could on the street. I tried asking passersby for help, but I received a warning that I would be arrested. I went to help centers, charities. I wanted to find this money to do everything, to tell you the good news today. I didn’t succeed. I'm sorry. I did everything. Documents, papers, certificates, examinations. I made this crypto wallet. I found how and to whom to pay. I won’t be able to find the money to get these documents. Now I can’t do anything because I spent everything I had. Then I took out a loan. Now I need to make a down payment next month, but I have no money for food. I eat at my neighbor’s. I borrowed groceries from her. I’ll go look for a job. I need to start working so I don’t have late payments. Otherwise, my life will go to the bottom. I’ll try to find ways, but I don’t think it will work. I have no options. I can’t come. I’ll wait for you here then. For your arrival. What other options are possible? Work, pay off the loan, save money, and come to you. Or have you come here. I'm tired of all this. I'm sorry. I thought it would be easier. It's not. Almost 1,500 lari, 500 US dollars. I don't know how long it will take me to earn this. I wrote to the deceased woman's relatives, who paid me well. But they're silent. They were my last hope. Maybe you could try coming? Or find out how much it costs to come to Tbilisi, Georgia. It's nice and beautiful here. You'll like it. What do you think? I'll go to the employment center. I'll find out about jobs. Then I'll go home. Don't be sad. Life hasn't stopped. Maybe luck will smile on us again.

I saw the doctor today. They said the cast will be removed by the end of the week. Everything is fine. I will just need to take it easy for a bit. Everything will be fine. I am thinking about you. I am thinking about when we can be together. I want to be with you and this thought is in my head. I am sitting, looking out the window and thinking about you. Lots of thoughts. I am not tired because there is no physical activity. I am thinking, dreaming, sitting, looking out the window. The weather is normal. Now I am getting used to it. I am less scared than at the beginning. How is your day? How are you feeling? What is your mood? I think many times about how our first kiss will happen. What do you think? At our first meeting? Or later? Waiting for your answer.