I don’t know why, but I felt sad this morning. Maybe it’s because of the bad weather. Cool, rainy. Cloudy. I didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning. Maybe it’s because of my age. I’ve lived on this earth for many years. I didn’t want to get out of bed, but a thought appeared in my head that you were waiting for me, for my letter. Waiting for my photos, my letter. Waiting for my questions, answers to your questions. Just like I’m waiting for your letter and photo. I immediately smiled and felt the desire to live. I washed my face, cooked porridge, made fresh tea, a fish sandwich, had breakfast, and went to scan photos for you. I’m looking forward to the day when I can communicate with you from home. How are you? How was your day? Night? I’m glad you’re in my life. Sometimes I think you want to find a girl younger, closer, or with some other parameter that makes you not like me. I hope that’s not true. I can’t say that if you’re around me. But you're far away, I can discuss everything with you. Absolutely everything. I'm so glad that we can discuss everything honestly. Do you think I'm beautiful? Do you like me? If I lived on the next street, would you come up to me? Start communicating with me? Would your friends and family judge you? Or not? I have no one close. No one at all. Now I communicate with you and you are closer than anyone I know here. Now I want to ask your advice. Can you imagine? What are you thinking about now? xxx, I know that we may not be able to meet. At the same time, we have a chance to meet. I think the world has changed, the world is going crazy. Wars, sexual slavery among children, adults. I've just seen so much on the Internet, terrible news. Horrible acts. It turns out that there are a lot of scammers, pedophiles and maniacs on the Internet. A lot. A lot of mentally ill people, people who want money. I became scared. I didn't want to say it, but a thought flashed through my head, maybe you were playing with me. I believe, I hope that this is not so. I believe that heaven introduced me to you as a reward for all the trials that have been in my life. Because I have stopped being sad. I want to live. I feel desire. Thank you. I ask you not to be offended by my thoughts. I like you. It's true. I'm afraid of it. I'm afraid of making a mistake. If you are playing with me, want to deceive or mock me, I ask you not to do it. I am very attracted to you. I think about you, I think about meeting you. I'm afraid, but I believe that you are a wonderful man. I think I'm falling in love. To understand everything for sure, I understand that we need to communicate more, most importantly, we need to meet. What do you think? xxx, I want, I believe, I dream that you will be exactly the man I've been waiting for all my life. I can give you warmth, joy, love and passion. I expect reciprocity from you. What do you think? Is it possible for us to have a future together? I'm waiting for your letter tomorrow. Write as soon as you receive mine. I'm sorry, I have a lot of important questions. I've lived a long time, I want understanding, I don't want to live alone, I'm tired of loneliness, depression, sadness. I want to live, to be loved, to be understood, not lied to, not deceived, to be hugged and kissed for real. And you? I want to love and be loved. I'm really looking forward to your letter tomorrow. I want to know your opinion. I need to go to work. I'll go. The administrator of the internet cafe looks at me and is silent. She smiles. It's not clear what she thinks. It doesn't matter. What matters to me is what you think.     
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