Hello my dearest XXX,
I have good news, very good for me and for you! I wanted to call to
you and to explain all by phone. But I am afraid, that you become
angry on me and will refuse to help me, therefore I have decided to
write to you.
Today in the morning I have come to travel agency where to me informed
good news. I have got the visa. Now it is necessary for me to buy the
ticket to you and to go in Astana behind the visa and to wait day of
my start. I'm immensely happy. I will be able to see you in person!!!
Dear XXX, I it is very good to speak in English you to not worry
for us. I addressed the company which sells tickets for plans. I asked
them how, as to me have explained to me it is necessary to have the
ticket to you I would be able to go to XXX
International Airport on the May 30, and how much it would cost. They
said that the ticket would cost 1065 euros. I asked them to find a
cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for me. But as it turned
out I would not be able to have a cheaper ticket so quicly, the date
is too early. Tickets must be reserved long beforehand. I asked them
to offer me other variants of the flight. We found the most suitable
one. The flight, is on the May 30. The ticket costs 846 euros. I asked
the to reserve the ticket for me. But they refused to do it having
said that they had a lot of clients. They cannot reserve my ticket
without adwanced money. I was imploring them. But it did not work.
They said that they would help me with great pleasure but they
couldn't. The rules are so. I was in a panic, I was so disappointed.
Then I asked themif I could give just a part of the money. But they
did not agree again.
I asked them for a long time saying that my fiance XXX is waiting
for me. If I asked them a little bit longer I would burst out of
crying. Maybe God heard my prayers, and the service worked agreed to
reserve the ticket on my conditions. But I have too little time to
pay, for the ticket. They said if I did not day the rest of the ticket
price, I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I was angry,
but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell the ticket
for the plane which is flying. They would have to lower the price. I
agreed. They told me to pay 948 euros. But it was too much for me,
because I had only 360 euros. I asked to wait for me during 11 hours.
I went out of the room. Marina met me at the door. I told her
everything. She understood everything and adviced me to pawn our
treasures to a pawnshop. It was very difficult for me to agree to do
it. I did not want to burden Marina. But at the same time I want to
meet you. We pawned the treasures, I got 80 euros and I paid the part
of the ticket price 430 euros. It was my last money, it was for the
plane by which I'm going to come to you. It was very difficult for me
to tell you this story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for
the visa. I have paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not
enough. The money was not enough. I did not want to burden you. I
wanted to come to you with nobody's help. I thought my money would be
enough. But I failed. Now I feel guilty muself. I did not manage to do
all myselffor our meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from
meeting you. But I must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's
just 508 euros. I must pay it till the May 29. Otherwise I will loose
the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you. And our
treasures will be soldby the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that I could
not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I always do
what I promise. I feel at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking you to help
me. Unfortunately the clinic did not pay me the money I'd earned. I
really hoped to get this money. It would solve all the pdavidlems. But
I'll get the money from the clinic in a month or two. Because it's
very typical for Kazakhstan to hold up the payments of salary. I asked
the clinic to give me my money earlier, but thay refused to do it. Now
the clinic does not have the money necessary for me. Our clinic
depends on the budget, it did not get money for a longtime.
Of course I realize that I should not ask you to give me the money.
But at the time I cannot just that I will not come to you. I have done
too much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean
that everything was in voun. It's torrible for me to refuse to come to
you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I
think there is nothing horable if I ask you to help me. Of course I
realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you're not
interested in our meeting. I understsnd that the sum of money is too
big. I know itand that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it from
you. But at the same time any person can find himself in my
conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just
must say that I will never come to you. But I do not want to say so,
because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your
help. Of course I understend that I must not do it. But I'm an honest
person. I'm ashaned of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult
thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if
you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my
money. It's bad but not mortal either. 360 euros which I have paid for
the visa and 430 euros which I have paid for the ticket are too much
for me. But I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In
fact money is just paper, our treasures are just metal details. That's
why I was the first who decided to meet each other. But I do not want
all my efforts to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if
you can help me to organize our meeting please send me the money till
the morning of the May 29. Please forgive me my words. I say so
because I'm in despair. Now when just one step can connect us, I'm
afraid. I need you, I want to be with you, I need you help, believe
me, I'm honest with you. I did not manage to estimate my forces. And
all my efforts spent in vain. I understand that the sum of money is
too big for you. I did not want to ask you. I can do everything
myself. My loneliness made me strong. I had always been living with my
own efforts I always relied on myself. I asked somebody to help me
very selcom, but now I ask you to help me. I will give you all the
money back as soon as I'm able. Maybe I made you offended. But I need
you. I do not know if my letter satisfacted you or disappointed. But I
have written you an honest letter. I'm looking forwarol to you answer.
I hope for you . I ask you to not worry.