thanks for your reply. I would be glad to meet you. I hope between us, over time, feelings will appear and we will be able, together with you, to start a new life together. You are right, time goes by, but it all depends on us, if we want to be together, no one can interfere with us. Do you agree? Now I live with my friend in Kazan, I write from a computer that my friend gave me. Last year, I had my own apartment in Kharkov, I had everything I needed in life, except for my beloved man. My life completely changed in an instant, when the war began, it was like the worst dream, because of the constant shots and rockets falling on the streets of our city, every night we went down to the basement and waited for the morning, but later, even during the day, it was dangerous, in one of the days, a rocket flew into my house, my apartment was gone, my house was partially destroyed, I no longer had a chance to stay in Ukraine. I had to urgently decide what to do next, I could go to another region of Ukraine, or flee to Poland, and from there further to Europe. But I have no friends and relatives in Europe, the USA, or any other country, I had a girlfriend in Russia, and I had to go to her. I was just afraid to go alone to another country in Europe, because I don’t know anything there, I don’t know what will happen to me there, where I will live there, and what to do. Who will support me there. That's why I ran to a friend whom I've known since my student days, I used to go to visit her, she also came to me in Ukraine. She lives in the city of Kazan, Republic of Tatarstan. She lives alone in her apartment, and gladly accepted me to her. Also, a lot of people from Ukraine left for Russia, especially from the Donetsk and Luhansk regions, we were welcomed here at home, we were issued documents as a refugee and offered Russian citizenship, I was given a temporary passport, and they issued a cash allowance so that I could buy food for myself and things. But now, I temporarily work in a store, I sell things, because I was given a cash allowance only once, I don’t earn much in the store, but I can buy food for myself and help my friend pay utility bills. I have been living here for almost a year. I understand that my whole life is destroyed. But most importantly, I'm alive and well. I understand that I need to move on no matter what, and try to forget about everything that happened to me and my city. The war can go on, for many more years, and it is generally not known how it will all end. In Russia, to be honest, I would never have dared to live, but because of what happened, I decided to temporarily wait here, but for more than a year, nothing has changed, and it is getting worse every day, and now I have no hope left to return to my city. I have no relatives. My mother died when I was still a child. I almost never saw my father. I was raised by my grandmother, but in 2017 she died, I got the apartment and I lived in it. I also got married when I was 26 years old, I lived with my husband for almost 5 years. When I was 31 I divorced him because he cheated on me with other women. When I found out about this, I no longer believed in love and sincerity.... betrayal is a huge pain... Now I am 38 years old. My birthday is November 15, 1984. My height is 1.70, my weight is 62. My horoscope is scorpio. I have always loved sports. In recent years, I have worked in a fitness center as an instructor for women. I love sports, I like to run before going to bed, I love nature, fresh air, forest, sea, lakes, rivers, mountains. I can’t, still come to my senses, this is some kind of madness, but I try not to think about the war anymore, but they talk about it everywhere, on the Internet on TV, all people talk about it, and therefore I can’t do anything forget, because everyone is reminded of it every day. Now I have decided that I want to find a man, in any country except Ukraine and Russia, and start a new life with him, I understand that it is difficult to do it through letters, but now I simply have no other option. If you and I understand that we are suitable for each other, if you are just as lonely and looking for love, if you also want to change your future and be happy, then we have a chance to do it together, I am ready to leave at any moment, where a man will be waiting for me, who will help me forget about the war, a man who will give me a chance, start a new life with him, help me adapt in a new country, help me find happiness and peace, I hope I will be happy with him, and I hope that he will respect, appreciate and love me. This concludes my letter today. Kind regards Anya
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