Hello xxx. I am so glad to see your letter. I was worried that my
letter would seem long and boring for you and that you would not
answer me anymore. I was interested in reading your letter. How are
you? How is your mood? How is your health? I'm alright. I am very glad
that we can continue our communication and learn a little more about
each other. I am afraid that my letters will seem very sad for you,
but this is my life. I think that the life of each of us cannot be
called sweet. Sick and tragic moments happen in everyone’s life, and
all we can do is to accept the circumstances, live with them and move
on. In the last letter, I told you about my profession, but did not
have time to tell you about how I came to the point that I wanted to
be useful to people. I had to endure a lot of pain and learn how to
live with it. It hurts me to remember, much more to talk about it, but
in the recent past I lost my parents. It’s not easy for me to recall
our destroyed house, where was my father, who later died from the
wreckage. My mother and I were not at home at that moment and every
time I blame myself that I was not there, or at least that I could not
say goodbye to him. It pains me to recall how while raking the
wreckage, me, my mother and my neighbors along the street were looking
for my dad. It was a terrible pain that was breaking my heart and I
thought that I could not survive it. I was able to cope with it, but
my mother was not able to survive this pain. Over time, from all
worries, she became ill with cancer. It was already late, she had the
last stage of cancer and the doctors were powerless to help. So I lost
my mother, with whom I managed to say goodbye. All this time, after
the death of my father, I worked as a seller in two shifts in a store,
because my mom and I needed to rent an apartment. I could not give up,
because I understood that I was responsible not only for myself, but
also for my mother, who was saturated with pain and regrets, and
later, as it turned out, with illness. When my mother died, my hands
fell, I did not want to go to work and stay in Ukraine. At that moment
I thought that I would lose my mind from loneliness and the meaning of
life was lost. I lost my parents, I lost the meaning of life, I lost
my home, I lost my job, I lost all my life... I did not know what to
do next? My aunt, who lives in Kazan, invited me to stay with her in
Russia. It was the best decision at that moment because war not stop.
I stayed with her for a while but it was not very good. I live there
near a year but decided that I wanted to return to Ukraine and help
the same affected people as me. I realized that the best way for me at
that moment is to be with people who are experiencing the same pain as
me. Moreover, whom I needed me in a foreign country? In Russia,
everyone looked at me with contempt and I felt like a stranger there.
As I said in a previous letter, at my work I meet only couples, whose
problems I am trying to solve. I dont go out often. I have no place to
meet a man. And even if I meet a man with whom I want to live my whole
life, he can die at any moment because of the situation in Ukraine. A
lot of men from my city enlisted in the volunteer militia and howling
against the Nazi army of Ukraine and against all mercenaries. All men
here may not come home in the evening and once again I will not be
able to survive the pain of loss. Therefore, I decided to find a man
on the Internet and from another country. I do not want much. I want
simple female happiness. I want to love and be loved. I want to take
care of my man, love him and be near him in difficult moments of life.
I want to feel his warmth every night, snuggling up to him in bed. I
want to spend as much time as possible and share with him all my
impressions, emotions and events. I, like any normal person with the
right values, just want to have a family. I am very tired of being
alone and it is more unbearable for me to return to a cold rented
apartment. I can’t stay in a country where there are no more loved
ones and relatives. There is so much love in my heart that I have no
one to give. I have so much desire to care for someone and give my
attention, but I have no one. Maybe it's you? Are you ready to let
another person into your life and into your heart? I would like our
relations to begin on sincerity, trust and mutual understanding. My
letters can be long and not as fun as you would like, but this is how
I try to tell you everything about my life. Life consists not only of
happy and good moments. I hope that I did not tire you with my letter
and I hope that I will see your letter tomorrow. Have a nice day. Best
regards, Viktoriia.