And here I again in Internet cafe also see your letter. And so much various emotions now in me. But now I only wish to speak you thanks for your answer, for your understanding. As always, I was very glad to see it.
In my last letter xxx, I wrote you some very important personal things. And even now, I cannot still answer to myself some questions. It seems to me, that some time for this purpose still is required to me. It really first case in my life, lately.
Therefore while I cannot speak something about it.
At me here all is good. Day flies by behind day. When you have enough affairs to do is always time flies quickly. I have not got used to sit and do anything simply. It is very boring and it is not interesting. I prefer to have any employment constantly. Then I to have sensation, that I live this life, and not just I exist. These days I to have a lot of work. As I try to give to more time to the health, playing sports and it is more to happen on fresh air. I do not want and I do not like to be ill. Therefore I always try to care of the health. And how you? You try to supervise what you eat, drink? How you are frequent to do some physical exercises, to hold the body in a tone? You can name yourself the lazy person (smile)?
Recently, after I have started to communicate with you on e-mail, I try to plan the day differently. I try to find a free time to come to the cafe Internet, to read your letters and to write you the answer. And it became valid a part of my life. A good part (smile). I still continue to be surprised, how it is possible, that in letters to transfer each other mood, to emotion thoughts (smile)? If to reflect, after all it only words which we write each other. But these words are capable to do rather magic things, and I feel it. And I so am glad, that could understand, what big forces disappears in our letters. And now I really think, that in this world there are no impossible things. It is amazing, as many new things I have started to learn, understand and feel, after have begun dialogue with you. I even start to trust in such concept, as "destiny" (smile). You know, earlier I never trusted in destiny. I thought, that is absolute all events sew lives depend only on ourselves. And only we solve everything as it should be. Only our efforts lead to various results and consequences.
But now, I start to think, that there is some supernatural force which helps people. I do not speak about religion. I to have in view of some force which comes to us from space, helps to be carried out to our dreams. And if to have rather strong desire space will help us with it. I very much wished to change the life, to meet worthy, interesting the man. And space sent me you. I hope, it not seems to you nonsense (smile)? And how you think about these my reflexions?
I one in this severe world. And at times to me to become very melancholy on a shower from such thoughts. But now I understand that I have you! You like me, very strongly, you understand me, and you not such as all! I very much was afraid to tell to you it. Was afraid that you will laugh, because all that at us is, it only letters. And I am not assured that you feel these letters and these words as well as I. I understand as you difficultly to trust me and my words when we never saw. It seems to me that in the heart of your heart, your soul there is a fear and doubts that I not the real. Certainly I understand you in it. But I wish tell that the unreal girl could not to put so many feelings and emotions in these letters.
It I try to receive your trust and then we can leave on other level of dialogue.
Today I am confused in the thoughts. So much I would like to speak to you, and to tell. But understanding, that it only will force me to have to you feelings, other feelings than friendship. I want, but whether you want it? Whether you feel to me warmly, warmly which I feel to you? I understand, that likely now I to think out to myself and to speak nonsense, and this my letter only will push away you! But I speak to you about it because I understand, that time which passes in my life, I will not return. Also that I do not wish to be more lonely and that to me it was cold! I wish to be happy!
Forgive that this letter will be not such big. I very much worry today when to write you all it. But I tried to make this letter such that you have understood my feelings and desires now. I do not know as you will react to it. But I ask you to answer fairly. I to accept any answer what it would not be.
With the big hope I will wait your letter. I wish you good day.
Yours faithfully Sabina.