Hello my love xxx.
I have not heard back from you. You stopped writing me as soon as I
have had problems. I immediately was not interested? Why don't you
write me? I really need your support at this time. How are you doing?
With me it's all right, my mood is good. Last night I couldn't get any
sleep. I lay in bed and read his new book. You have no idea how
interesting this book is. My new book about love. I think every woman
loves these books. After reading the book, I still couldn't sleep. I
dreamed about our meeting. I'm so lonely without you. I want to fall
asleep with you and Wake up. Now I'm very cold and lonely in his bed.
And I want to feel your warmth and breath. To get you warmed me on a
cold night. I hope that it will come true, and will remain my dreams.
xxx, I really miss you. You can't imagine how lonely I was to
be in Moscow. In this city there are many beautiful places. I think
that one day we will be able to visit this city with you and I can
show you what I saw. Love, tomorrow the weekend begins. I ask you me
not to lose. I won't be able to write to you. Not because Internet
cafe will be closed, and by the fact that I need to save money so I
can survive in Moscow. And weekend Internet cafe is more expensive. I
ask you me not to be offended. I will write you on Monday. But it's
not the worst. Today I went to the Embassy. They asked me why I still
have not left the country? I said that I have no money, but I'm
struggling to find them. I was told that is all very well, but they
can't break the law. I was given a warning. I was told that I have
very little time left. If I'm not going to leave Russia in the coming
days, my visa will block. You understand that I cannot arrive to you?
If that happens, my life lost all meaning. xxx, I hope you will
not allow this. I did everything in my power, but I can't find the
money. Please help me. I'm willing to wait forever, but my documents
have a shelf life, and there's nothing I can do about it. Do you
understand that? I won't waste your money! Do you understand that? I
can understand you that you're scared. But I ask you to trust me. I
never lied to you. I always told the truth and it seems to me that I
never gave you reason not to trust me. Am I not right? I'll give you
the money as soon as I arrive to you. I need it only to show at
customs. The Russian side knew that I have the money for existence in
your country! Do you understand? I'll finish this my letter. I'll miss
you. Tomorrow I'll walk around the city and explore its attractions.
And on Sunday I'm going to go to Church to pray to God to help us to
be together and gave us a long happy life. I believe in God and I very
much hope that God will help us. I wish you well to spend your day
off. I hope that over the weekend, our situation will change in a
positive way. Of course, I also will try to find a solution. I ask you
to do everything in your power. I'll leave it at that. I send you my
tender kisses, let my kisses caress your body. I'm so proud that I
found you in this world. I love you.
Your Irina...
Then why did you first tell me that you would help? What happened now? Why did you change your mind? Or did you just play with me?