Hello my lovely xxx,

Today my letter will be short.At me not so it is a lot of time.I have
just left travel agency,and have decided to inform you good news at
once. Me cause to Moscow on interview in embassy.Tomorrow I should
leave to Moscow.It seems to me,that I waited for this moment the whole
eternity.The travel agency has carried out the task earlier than I
thought.It can is connected to that sum of money which I have paid for
acceleration of readiness of documents.Now it is not of great
importance.I go to embassy!!!Probably tomorrow or the day after
tomorrow I can receive documents which are necessary for arrival in
your country.Tomorrow I shall write to you from Internet - cafe of the
city of Moscow.I shall inform you all news which will concern my
trip.After I shall receive documents,I will need to return back to
native city,to collect necessary things and to buy the ticket in your
country.Trip to Moscow costs not cheaply,therefore I wanted to go to
Moscow,to pass interview in embassy and to wait for day of a start.
But in the contract it is told, that in your country I can buy the
ticket only in travel agency which helps me to collect necessary
documents.From superstition I shall not begin to buy the ticket before
reception of documents.Of agency of me convince, that it is possible
to buy the ticket, and, then to pass interview. They have told to
me,that many people do so.But it seems to me wrong. Dear, I was
probable next week can inform you date of my start. I believe that
next week I can take off to you. How you concern to this?I think that
you too will be glad.I shall finish the letter.I shall go to collect
things home.

P.S Dear i want,that you have sent me your full home address,the
data on the nearest to you of the airports and phone number.I shall
call to you if there will be urgent questions.I hope to receive from
you the answer which will bring to me encouragement.
Dear write me the closest airport.Where can you meet me.The route I
need to fly.Perhaps the closest airport near your town.

Your love,Nadezhda

Darling xxx,

xxx I think that everything most difficult has remained behind us. I
always knew that if you want the dream to come true,you must do for
this purpose all what in your forces.I know that it is necessary to
believe, hope and struggle.And I really struggled xxx,I tried to do
all what in my forces.xxx I worry very much,but my heart say to me
that I should smile.I feel that I soon will meet you.Wishing you very
good day and hope to hear from you soon.Tenderly,Nadezhda

Howdy, xxx) You made me to feel alone and sad.But please find some minutes to
write an answer to my last email.You know,i check my mailbox every
day.I hope dear it doesn't mean that you forgot me or your love and
thought about me fewer - dear,you are always in my heart and your
image in my mind makes me feel better and smile when I feel sad - I
recollect you and my mood becomes higher.That's why my dearest,please
- I'm worry when I can't receive letter from you dear - NEVER,remember
this - NEVER,do not leave me without any news.You'll always be in my
heart soul and mind as example of my love nobleness.Please write more
specifics in the next letter - I'll be waiting for it with great
impatience Assuring you of my best attention at all times.Reverentially,Nadezhda

Hey there my dear friend, xxx! I'm so happy that you are mine and I'm yours,I'm so grateful for all
what you keep doing for me and I'll be thankful to you for all of my
life.We are connected with so much time of
communication,correspondence,awaiting,anxiety,care, love,and hope.My
heart is yours and it's devoted only to you. Hope this letter will
find you in high mood.I miss when I can't read your regular letter or
can't answer to you.Have a good day!Best wishes,Nadezhda

Dearest xxx,

I have more recently left embassy and at once have decided to write to
you. I write to you the letter and I smile.I'm so glad!If I could,I
would speak with you for a long time.But unfortunately now it is
impossible. But I am confident,that our meeting will take place also
we shall speak in person.xxx,I want to tell to you about the
commission in Moscow. I hope to you it interestingly!!!Tomorrow I
shall already write to you from native city. I shall arrive to Kotlas
most likely tomorrow in the evening.I can probably have the visa. I
worry, you should understand it.I never thought that the commission
will ask such unusual questions.They asked about my sexual life,they
asked about children, about work,about patriotism, about my attitude
to Austria, about my conversance and awareness of events which
happened in the world and in Austria,about my religion and
belief.I have told about all фmy life in detail.I spoke about
verything fairly how it's really. To me have told that my answers are
unexpected and as a rule applicants don't answer such questions so
directly and openly. They haven't got used to hear such answers, but
they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more
pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children
from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the
big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady
who have such support from children - orphans.

Now I should wait the decision I hope, that my visa will be ready
within the next few days. The representative of embassy at once
informs about it to travel agency. After that i shall buy the ticket
in your country. After I shall buy the ticket i shall inform date of
the arrival to you.Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death
is worse than the death"I can't concentrate on anything. My heart so
worry,I can't work.They have told that the decision will be accepted
in several days.I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come
true.I simply want to see my lovely xxx.I think the God will help
me.I simply want to meet you. I already see us together. I want to
construct with you the ship to float under sails in boundless ocean.I
want to meet with you a dawn and to see off a sundown.We will float on
our ship and our love will illuminate our way. We will look at night
at stars,we'll be pleased in the afternoon to the sun. If there will
be a storm, our love will protect us. If there will be a calm, our
love will be a wind. Our love will be a beacon for us. We will be
floating at ocean of love and oblivion and nothing can separate us.
We'll name our ship - Dream. It will be the small ship, but very
strong.Because we will make our ship from belief, hope and love.It's
impossible to wait, when your dream will fall to you from the sky.It's
necessary to go to the dream. It's necessary to clear and build the
road itself.If in heart there is a belief and dream,if in heart there
is a love and hope,it is necessary to achieve the dream by all means.I
always go to the dream. I don't sit on a place.In my life there were
very few light moments. On this I try to make everything that my
dreams have come true.I understand that now it's only dreams.But these
dreams brighten my life.I hope that yours also.Nothing will keep me to
arrive to you xxx!!!

Sincerely,Nadezhda

Honey xxx,

Dear xxx,i was very glad to receive your letter.My visa is
available, but I can take away her only after i shall buy the ticket
in your country. Tomorrow or after tomorrow,i shall buy the ticket in
your country but only after to me inform from travel agency,and will
tell, that my documents are completely ready.For arrival to you.I
every day think of our meeting with you.I know how it is to be
thinking about someone all the time,i have felt that as well.So then I
try to keep myself busy doing other things and it helps.I guess that's
how I've been able to get along all this time without somebody special
in my life.I keep myself busy with study, with friends.I have become
used to it now, but not entirely.Some times i get along doing chores
around the house,listening to music,or helping other people with their
problems.It has been so many times that I wanted to be with someone.So
as time went on, little by little I had to learn how to not feel
lonely.But i have also learned that it's not all that possible. And in
the same way I try to avoid getting hurt, as it has happened to me
before. And that too is not all that possible.On the other side I have
seen other peoples mistakes and I like to think that I wont make the
same ones.I try to think of many possible results,I like to be
cautious and to think ahead, but I have learned that as careful that i
may be,there is always something that can go wrong.

So why should i continue to hold back and not live my life like
others, by going ahead with what my heart says and being as cautious
as possible,right?We are only human and imperfect,all I can try is to
do the best I can, with the person that best fits my way of thinking.
And it would seem so strange that I could find such a person on the
other side of the planet. Imagine if the Internet didn't exist, I
would have never known about you and I would probably continue to live
the same way forever. There is only so much happiness that one can
achieve alone, but I would like to think that I could achieve so much
more with you. It would be wonderful to stop dreaming about it and
make it come true. So at the same time, I also think about what would
be needed to make a relationship work and how to provide for as much
as possible.It's not easy when other pressures are felt in a
relationship.So if at first we should decide to take this beyond what
it has become so far,i think it will be like awaking from a dream and
trying our best to make the dream come true.Like i said before,there
is a lot to talk about, a lot to learn and understand.The feeling of
love is great, but it takes little bit more to have a place to live,
to be healthy and have a family.I know that these are subjects that
can't be decided or solved in a week, but the most important thing
will be addressed,how well we get along.

   There is one thing that i know for sure,i like you very much and we
will have a wonderful time together.Your words in every letter have
shown me that we think the same way,so i truly believe that something
great and long lasting will come out of this.I think about you every
day and wish you were near me already.I will just have to be patient
and wait for that moment to come true.

With hugs and tender kisses,Yours Nadezhda

How’s it going? xxx,!!!

Dear xxx,i do not know,how long it takes the paperwork necessary to travel to you.
I think that for the registration my documents,I will go to a travel agency.
Ok  dear to do this step  we need to discuss important issues for me:
1. How many days,you can and willing to take accept me as a guest?
2. Where  I'm will to live in your house or a hotel?
3. What are the things I take with me?What is the weather you have at this time of year?
xxx i heard that really difficult to recieve visa for russian single
girls nowadays.Foreign countries more and more strict to Russian maybe
because of politics too.As soon as I receive from you all the answers
to my questions,I can go to the travel agency to obtain detailed
information about the trip for you,my love.Wishing you very good day and hope to hear from you soon.Best wishes,Nadezhda

Darling  xxx,

I have good news, very good for me and for you dear! I wanted to call
to you and to explain all by phone.But I'm afraid,that you become
angry on me and will refuse to help me,therefore I have decided to
write to you.Today in the morning I have come to travel agency,to me
informed good news.I have got the visa.Now it is necessary for me to
buy the ticket to you and to go in Moscow for my visa and wait day of
my flight.I'm immensely happy.
  I will be able to see you in person!!!Dear I it is very good to speak
in English you to not worry for us.I addressed the air-ticket office
which sells tickets.I asked how,as to me have explained to me it is
necessary to have the ticket to you I would be able to go to
Vienna  Intl  16 March, and
how much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost
896 Euro. I asked them to find a
cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for me. But as it turned
out I would not be able to have a cheaper ticket so quicly, the date
is too early. Tickets must be reserved long beforehand. I asked them
to offer me other variants of the flight. We found the most suitable
one.The flight,is on the 23 March
The ticket costs 448 Euro. I
asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But they refused to do it
having said that they had a lot of clients. They cannot reserve my
ticket without advanced money. I was imploring them. But it did not
work. They said that they would help me with great pleasure but they
couldn't.The rules are so. I was in a panic,I was so disappointed.Then
I asked them is I could give just a part of the money. But they did
not agree again. I asked them for a long time saying that my dearest
xxx is waiting for me.If I asked them a little bit longer I would
burst out of crying.Maybe God heard my prayers,and the service worked
agreed to reserve the ticket on my conditions.But I have too little
time to pay, for the ticket. They said if I did not day the rest of
the ticket price,I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I
was angry, but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell
the ticket for the plane which is flying.They would have to lower the
price.I agreed.
  They told me to pay 448 Euro. But it was
too much for me, because I had only 110 Euro.
I asked to wait for me during 11 hours. I went out of the
room. Marina met me at the door. I told her everything. She understood
everything and advised me to pawn our treasures to a pawnshop. xxx,
it was very difficult for me to agree to do it. I did not want to
burden Marina. But at the same time I want to meet you, xxx very
much. We pawned the treasures, I got 80 Euro
and I paid the part of the ticket price 190 Euro.
It was my last money, it was for the plane by which I'm
going to come to you. It was very difficult for me to tell you this
story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for the visa. I have
paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not enough. The money
was not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to come to you
with nobody's help. I thought my money would be enough. But I failed.
Now I feel guilty muself. I did not manage to do all my selffor our
meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from meeting you. But I
must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's just 327
Euro.I must pay it till the 23 March  . Otherwise I will loose
the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you. And our
treasures will be soldby the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that I could
not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I always do
what I promise. I feel at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking you to help
me. Unfortunately the clinic did not pay me the money I'd earned. I
really hoped to get this money. It would solve all the pdavidlems. But
I'll get the money from the clinic in a month or two. Because it's
very typical for Russia to hold up the payments of salary. I asked the
clinic to give me my money earlier, but they refused to do it. Now the
clinic does not have the money necessary for me. Our clinic depends on
the budget, it did not get money for a long time. I think it's because
of the financial crisis and terrorist acts in in Northern Ossetia.
Pdavidably I must say to you that I will not be able to meet you
becouse I will not be able to pay the whole sum of money myself. Of
course I realize that I should not ask you to give me the money. But
at the time I cannot just that I will not come to you. I have done too
much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean
that everything was in voun. It's horrible for me to refuse to come to
you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I
think there is nothing horable if I ask you to help me. Of course I
realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you're not
interested in our meeting. I understend that the sum of money is too
big. I know it and that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it
from you.But at the same time any person can find himself in my
conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just
must say that I will never come to you. But I do not want to say so,
because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your
help. Of course I understend that I must not do it. But I'm an honest
person. I'm ashaned of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult
thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if
you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my
money. It's bad but not mortal either.310 Euro
which I have paid for the visa and 190 Euro which
I have paid for the ticket are too much for me. But
I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In fact money is
just paper, our treasures are just metal details.That's why I was the
first who decided to meet each other. But I do not want all my efforts
to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if you can help me
to organize our meeting please send me the money till the morning of
the 23 March  . Please forgive me my words. I say so because
I'm in despair.Now when just one step can connect us, I'm afraid.I
need you,I want to be with you,I need you help, believe me,I'm honest
with you.I did not manage to estimate my forces.And all my efforts
spent in vain.I understand that the sum of money is too big for you. I
did not want to ask you.I can do everything myself. My loneliness made
me strong.I had always been living with my own efforts I always relied
on myself.I asked somebody to help me very selcom, but now I ask you
to help me.I will give you all the money back as soon as I'm able.
Maybe I made you offended. But I need you. I do not know if my letter
satisfacted you or disappointed. But I have written you an honest
letter. I'm looking forwarol to you answer. I hope for you .I ask you
to not worry.I send data of my flight.

Moscow (Sheremetyevo) Riga (Riga) 16:25 - 17:10
Flight: BT429 Boeing 737-300 1 hour 45 minutes on the way

Transfer: 14 hours 20 minutes

Riga (Riga) Vienna (Vienna Intl) 07:30 - 08:35
Flight: BT431 Boeing 737-300 2 hours 5 minutes on the way

Your,Nadezhda