Hello, xxx. How passed your day? I decided to prepare today nothing, because mood at me today not so cheerful. I was tired on work and consequently I ran in shop to buy ready food to myself for a dinner. Bought salad and a little sweet for a dessert... I have quickly supper and sat down to write you the letter.
xxx, I again thought today of us and about our correspondence much. I asked myself a question: "What it between us occurs?" I thought of you and that would be if we are near you.
I dreamed on this subject. In my thoughts both of us were near. It is possible to present it real in dreams, but in the real reality we are far from each other... and this distance injures me. xxx, sometimes I feel very alone, as though I one in this world!
Even now I represent that you sit near me and we talk. So it becomes more cheerful and more pleasant to me.
You understand, to me 33 years, and very soon will be 34. It is that age when the woman would like to create a family cosiness. It would be desirable to come back home from work and know that I am waited there by darling with whom I can openly cry and laugh, share the emotions, thoughts!... now I do not hurry home because there nobody waits for me... I cannot contain the house a cat at all because I take all day on work.
I am a woman and I would like to receive courting and care from you, but in letters there is no all this... there is no that, romanticism and emotions, as on romantic appointment or at supper. To me all this is necessary for receiving from my man.
I come to receive only home a healthy sleep and rest, no more than that... and in the morning again I come back to work. Each my day reminds previous and following. Yes, I have many good friends and meetings with them deliver me pleasure, but then I again come back home... and again I one.
The last days we corresponded much, but sitting in front of the computer monitor we with you we will achieve nothing, these letters becomes a little... It is possible to write each other one thousand letters, but I understand that I never can recognize you completely in letters or by phone... To write letters it is possible for years, but one meeting solves everything!!!
You say that it's time for us to go to the cinema and sit in the evenings and gossip ... I'd really like that, but you're far away. How can we get closer? I have a vacation in September, maybe you could come for me to Novosibirsk and we would go to stay with you? What do you think about it? Yes, I also think that it's time for us to communicate more.
By the way, I would like to ask your phone number, whether I do not know I can to call you with my communications service provider, but I will try to send you SMS at least. I could not lose your number or forget it, because you did not give it to me .... maybe you gave it to another girl? Do you communicate with someone else ????
Meeting... I understand that we cannot make it tomorrow, after all on it time is necessary, but it needs to be made... It is possible to play love for years, but so to anything and not to come... It is not serious, it we simply spend invaluable time which we could see off together. This meeting is necessary to both of us, whether to understand approach we each other, whether we can create the relations! What do you think of it and whether you think of it in general?
Communication on an e-mail, we passed long ago it, but to us not for 15 years that something to hesitate... We are adult people and, I consider that it is necessary to settle our relations somehow! That moment when we should be defined came, we will build our relations or not...
Since we communicate, in me something changed... I understood that I take a liking to you.
I for its part understand that when I do not read your letter or I do not manage to answer it at once, I feel not comfortably... this condition is similar to as though I forget about the important person for me and even it becomes a shame to me, but I not always can answer at once your letter, unfortunately, after all my day regimen very intense now!
But I never forget about you, I always remember that I have a person whom for me it becomes close is you, xxx!
Two days ago, when I thought of you, I wrote down short video for you, but I hesitated and thought to send you it or not... I think that today I will send you this video and it will be pleasant to you. I wrote it in Russian because my pronunciation of English is now absolutely bad and difficult to pick up a rhyme, using English speech... I will write its transfer:
I stand, wrapped up in a scarf,
I am ill you and in a throat a big lump.
But I happy, smile in letters... between lines,
I speak with you about happiness,
You tease and laugh, as well as I,
And our happiness flows through edges...
I know, you nearby... nearby and I.
In this letter I want to be open for you and it is written in all sincerity... It of what I think now. Read it attentively, please. I am afraid to present that you will answer me this letter! But I should write it to you because now I feel something to you... and what you feel to me? What do you want from me? Whether I am pleasant to you actually? I want to receive answers to these questions... same honest and frank, as this letter. Understand, I need to know the truth... Think and write to me the answer. I will wait from you the letter, as always.
You know, I would like to kiss you now, but I understand that it is not possible.
It is possible I will kiss you "on-line" in the letters?
Larissa