Hello,how is your health?How is your mood?I’m happy that my letters
give so much pleasure and tenderness to you.It’s honor for me.I always
think of you no matter where and no matter what I do.I'm very happy, I
feel that our letters are very important for us both.I've already got
attached so much to you that I miss when I can't read your regular
letter or can't answer to you.Your letter make my day and raise my
mood from the idea that there is such a nice noble man.I hope that you
write to me very soon because without your letters my life seems
boring.I shall look forward to hearing from you.Have a nice
mood,Tatiana

Hi my dear xxx,

Dear, I was very glad to receive your letter. My visa is available,
but I can take away her only after I shall redeem the ticket in your
country. Tomorrow or after tomorrow, I shall buy the ticket in your
country but only after to me inform from travel agency, and will tell,
that my documents are completely ready. For arrival to you.

I every day think of our meeting with you. I know how it is to be
thinking about someone all the time, I have felt that as well. So then
I try to keep myself busy doing other things and it helps. I guess
that's how I've been able to get along all this time without somebody
special in my life. I keep myself busy with study, with friends. I
have become used to it now, but not entirely. Some times I get along
doing chores around the house, listening to music, or helping other
people with their problems. It has been so many times that I wanted to
be with someone. So as time went on, little by little I had to learn
how to not feel lonely. But I have also learned that it's not all that
possible. And in the same way I try to avoid getting hurt, as it has
happened to me before. And that too is not all that possible. On the
other side I have seen other peoples mistakes and I like to think that
I wont make the same ones. I try to think of many possible results, I
like to be cautious and to think ahead, but I have learned that as
careful that I may be, there is always something that can go wrong. So
why should I continue to hold back and not live my life like others,
by going ahead with what my heart says and being as cautious as
possible, right? We are only human and imperfect, all I can try is to
do the best I can, with the person that best fits my way of thinking.
And it would seem so strange that I could find such a person on the
other side of the planet. Imagine if the Internet didn't exist, I
would have never known about you and I would probably continue to live
the same way forever. There is only so much happiness that one can
achieve alone, but I would like to think that I could achieve so much
more with you. It would be wonderful to stop dreaming about it and
make it come true. So at the same time, I also think about what would
be needed to make a relationship work and how to provide for as much
as possible. It's not easy when other pressures are felt in a
relationship. So if at first we should decide to take this beyond what
it has become so far, I think it will be like awaking from a dream and
trying our best to make the dream come true. Like I said before, there
is a lot to talk about, a lot to learn and understand. The feeling of
love is great, but it takes little bit more to have a place to live,
to be healthy and have a family. I know that these are subjects that
can't be decided or solved in a week, but the most important thing
will be addressed, how well we get along.

There is one thing that I know for sure, I like you very much and we
will have a wonderful time together. Your words in every letter have
shown me that we think the same way, so I truly believe that something
great and long lasting will come out of this. I think about you every
day and wish you were near me already. I will just have to be patient
and wait for that moment to come true.

With hugs and tender kisses, Yours

Tatyana ...

Hello my dearest xxx,

I have good news, very well for me and for you! I wanted to call to
you and to explain all by phone. But I am afraid, that you become
angry on me and will refuse to help me, therefore I have decided to
write to you.

Today in the morning I have come to travel agency where to me informed
good news. I have got the visa. Now it is necessary for me to buy the
ticket to you and to go in Moscow behind the visa and to wait day of
my start. I'm immensely happy. I will be able to see you in person!!!
Dear I it is very good to speak in English you to not worry for us. I
addressed the company which sells tickets for plans. I asked them how,
as to me have explained to me it is necessary to have the ticket to
you I would be able to go to Berlin Airport on the 17 October, and how
much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost 933 euros. I
asked them to find a cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for
me. But as it turned out I would not be able to have a cheaper ticket
so quickly, the date is too early. Tickets must be reserved long
beforehand. I asked them to offer me other variants of the flight. We
found the most suitable one. The flight is on 17 October. The ticket
costs 285 euros I asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But they
refused to do it having said that they had a lot of clients. They
cannot reserve my ticket without advance money. I was imploring them.
But it did not work. They said that they would help me with great
pleasure but they couldn't. The rules are so. I was in a panic, I was
so disappointed. Then I asked them if I could give just a part of the
money. But they did not agree again.

I asked them for a long time saying that my fiance xxx is waiting
for me. If I asked them a little bit longer I would burst out of
crying. Maybe God heard my prayers, and the service worked agreed to
reserve the ticket on my conditions. But I have too little time to
pay, for the ticket. They said if I did not day the rest of the ticket
price, I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I was angry,
but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell the ticket
for the plane which is flying. They would have to lower the price. I
agreed. They told me to pay 723 euros. But it was too much for me,
because I had only 225 euros. I asked to wait for me during 12 hours.
I went out of the room. Marina met me at the door. I told her
everything. She understood everything and advised me to pawn our
treasures to a pawnshop. It was very difficult for me to agree to do
it. I did not want to burden Marina. But at the same time I want to
meet you. We pawned the treasures, I got 90 euros and I paid the part
of the ticket price 315 euros. It was my last money, it was for the
plane by which I'm going to come to you. It was very difficult for me
to tell you this story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for
the visa. I have paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not
enough. The money was not enough. I did not want to burden you. I
wanted to come to you with nobody's help. I thought my money would be
enough. But I failed. Now I feel guilty myself. I did not manage to do
all myself for our meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from
meeting you. But I must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's
just 408 euros. I must pay it till the 16 October. Otherwise I will
loose the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you.
And our treasures will be sold by the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that
I could not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I
always do what I promise. I feel at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking
you to help me. Unfortunately the clinic did not pay me the money I'd
earned. I really hoped to get this money. But I'll get the money from
the clinic in a month or two. Because it's very typical for Russia to
hold up the payments of salary. I asked the clinic to give me my money
earlier, but they refused to do it. Now the clinic does not have the
money necessary for me. Our clinic depends on the budget, it did not
get money for a longtime. I think it's because of the financial crisis
and terrorist acts. I must say to you that I will not be able to meet
you because I will not be able to pay the whole sum of money myself.

Of course I realize that I should not ask you to give me the money.
But at the time I cannot just that I will not come to you. I have done
too much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean
that everything was in vain. It's terrible for me to refuse to come to
you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I
think there is nothing horrible if I ask you to help me. Of course I
realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you're not
interested in our meeting. I understand that the sum of money is too
big. I know it and that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it
from you. But at the same time any person can find himself in my
conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just
must say that I will never come to you. But I do not want to say so,
because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your
help. Of course I understand that I must not do it. But I'm an honest
person. I'm ashamed of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult
thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if
you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my
money. It's bad but not mortal either. 390 euros which I have paid
for the visa and 315 euros which I have paid for the ticket are too
much for me. But I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting.
In fact money is just paper, our treasures are just metal details.
That's why I was the first who decided to meet each other. But I do
not want all my efforts to be spent in vain. If you really want to
meet me, if you can help me to organize our meeting please send me the
money till the morning of the 16 October. Please forgive me my words. I
say so because I'm in despair. Now when just one step can connect us,
I'm afraid. I need you, I want to be with you, I need you help,
believe me, I'm honest with you. I did not manage to estimate my
forces. And all my efforts spent in vain. I understand that the sum of
money is too big for you. I did not want to ask you. I can do
everything myself. My loneliness made me strong. I had always been
living with my own efforts I always relied on myself. I asked somebody
to help me very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I will give you
all the money back as soon as I'm able. Maybe I made you offended. But
I need you. I do not know if my letter you disappointed. But I have
written you an honest letter. I'm looking forward to you answer. I
hope for you. I ask you to not worry. I send you flight details:

Moscow (Vnukovo-In...) 10:55
Berlin (Berlin Tegel) 12:45

2h 50m to dest

nonstop: UT705
Boeing 737-500

Tatyana. 

I want to tell, that I do not think badly of you. I want to tell, that
to me It was hurt to read your last letter. I when did not think, that
The life is so severe. I very fair person and when whom Did not
deceive. I am offended with words of mistrust. Certainly I that I
shall not prove. I shall not send what copies. I want To tell, that
money are necessary for our meeting. You understand me???? I have much
made that we were together. But I have not consulted By own strength.
I do not need in your money. You understand me? Money are necessary
not for my own needs, they are necessary for a meeting!!! How your
friend can make of the decision??? Unless I prepared for Meetings with
him??? No!!! I wanted to develop relations with you! I Wanted to meet
you! I wanted to visit you! You understand me???? What decisions
extraneous people can accept??? When the beginnings To plan our
meeting to me also spoke that you can To appear the bad person we live
in days of dangers. I now I understand, that if I shall arrive to you
I can appear in a trap. I I understand, that you in your country can
make with me, that want . At arrival to your country, you will take
away my passport, to beat Me to force, sell me in slavery, or to sell
me To other men. I have drawn correct conclusions????? I think, what
yes !!!!!!! I at once have understood, that you can appear the maniac,
the murderer, Mafia or any other criminal. About it speak many People
which got acquainted on the Internet so speak on the TV and So write
in newspapers. You understand me? That I could To visit you, it is
necessary for me, that you have taken the characteristic in yours
Police department that you have sent video where your sheriff writes
this The characteristic, also it is necessary for me, that you have
sent the characteristic with Your work and that this characteristic
accompanied with video. To me It is necessary, that your boss spoke on
video that you the good person , That you not the criminal or the
maniac, also it is necessary for me, that the pastor or Any other
sacred attendant has told on video that You will not force and kill
me, and that sent to me The written characteristic mail.... You can
make it???? Or You were offended with my words???? Now you understand
about what to me To listen to messages on your mistrust? It offends
me. I know, That if to leave on street it is possible to catch fatally
any Illness, but I leave on street. You make it? I know, that if in
The Internet to visit any sites it is possible to kill a computer, but
I I make it. And you make it??? I know, that if in I peep to use Meat,
milk, eggs, sandwiches in an organism will collect Negative elements
also it is possible to be ill a cancer. But I use in I peep These
products. It is impossible to trust shops, it is impossible to trust
the Internet, It is impossible to leave on street... If to argue your
language it is impossible To risk. It is necessary to check all, it is
not necessary to trust to whom... But as To make it???? The normal
person will be offended with words of mistrust. You Understand me???
If I began to show mistrust to you, I When would not be solved on
trip. I understand, that our meeting It is based on trust. For me it
was humiliating to show mistrust to To you. I trusted you and when did
not try to offend you. What for you Make it? I hope, that all of you
understand. I hope, that we Have understood each other... This trip is
a lot of on for me, but at me is Feeling of pride, advantage. I the
fair person and when I shall not be To use another's money for own
needs. I shall wait Your answer. Yours Tatyana.

Darling xxx, on my eyes of tear I do not know that to me to do. I do
not know as to find other part of money. I do not wish to live. I have
spent so many effort to arrive to you. My friend Marina has put in
pawn treasures and has given me a part of money, also I have spent all
savings. I have spent many effort that my the visa has been approved.
The agency travel will not return all money because they have
performed the work, all documents are ready to arrive to you. I have
paid more half. I in one step to our meeting. All my efforts will be
vain if we do not find other part of money. I read your letter and my
tears flew on my palms. I do not wish to live. I cannot sleep and eat.
I really want to develop our relations, our love. You mean for me
much. Please, think that for you is important - money, or our
relations, our love. I wish to know, that my future husband never will
throw me in a trouble. I wish to be assured, that my husband will
choose not money, and me! I have overcome many barriers. I have
achieved visa approval. Now there was one step. I spoke to friends
about our acquaintance, about our love, about our relations. They wish
our of good luck... I was delighted with our correspondence, from our
plans. If you help, our meeting will be real. Money is not necessary
to me. Money is necessary for our meeting, and pure relations, pure
love are necessary to me. My tears flow the river, I have lost meaning
of the life. I trust in a miracle, I prayed all night long that for
our meeting there were no barriers.

How are you?How is your health?How is your mood?I want to embrace you
and to kiss your gentle lips,I want to concern your body,I want to see
your eyes.I wait that moment when we can meet with you,embrace each
other strong strong,to glance each other in eyes and to tell:"Hi
beloved, you are that I searched for all life, you are that I waited
for all life."I miss without you, without your love.Expectation of
love is pleasant and difficult for my heart.Very difficult to wait for
our meeting,torment itself various ideas,trying to present,that you
are doing,that you now feel.Dearest in your letters so there is a lot
of high temperature and care,that it compels my heart to beat faster
and on it,my feelings to you,grows many times and if further so will
proceed,my feelings will leave from under the control, and I can not
live without you.When I read your letter,in me even the tears of
pleasure have appeared.Your beloved woman,Tatyana

Good afternoon my hoeny, How your affairs and your mood now? I very
much hope, that at you everything is all right and that have
remarkable mood today. Hoeny, recently I start to think, that you
start not to trust me and that you are afraid to help me. You
understand to what can result your mistrust? Your mistrust you start
to destroy ours with you desires and ours with you the general dream.
In the beginning of ours with you of acquaintance, we with you both
wished to find the present love further to create with each other a
family, to have children, in general to have the happy joint future
with each other. And we with you already were defined in each other
and have decided, that we with you approach for each other. We already
have representations about ours with you the future. We with you
already are in dream each other. And we have already defined a place
for each other in our future. I see in you the good husband. I very
much wish to be your wife. I think, that you thought of it as when you
have decided to meet me. I will arrive to you and I will prove to you,
that your mistrust was really vain. I will prove to you, that I
present and that I really have serious intentions for creation of the
joint future with you my love. Also it is completely assured that when
I will arrive to you, you will regret about it. When I will arrive to
you, I will prove to you, that you really that man of my dream. I
hope, that you will well think over my words and you will make the
correct decision. I very much hope, that you can soon read my letter
and that you very soon can write me your message. I wish you good day
and remarkable mood. I send you my most gentle kisses for you my love.
And I with the big impatience will wait from you your message. Your
favourite forever Tatyana