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Forgive, that so long did not answer you, your letter. At me was a lot of work. And I could not answer to answer you earlier. But I hope, what you have not forgotten about me?! (Smile).
I write today very shortly, I will answer your letter only on Monday. I hope, that you still wish to continue to communicate with me. I hope, that you are good to spend days off! 

I love letters. In them you can enclose so much, thoughts, feelings, the whole life. Shakespeare spoke about letters as about what that valuable and important, great. Letters is a book for one person!
You agree with me?
I hope, that you waited for my letter xxx. Also had patience! As I already said, that I not always have time to write to you. But I hope, that you understand me!
In the letter you can consider each offer, each word. And to open itself. In letters we are not afraid to open, we are not afraid to say that we can not tell at a meeting in a reality. And to not important friend this letter, or to whom that close. We when are not afraid to write the message, but we are afraid to tell in eyes.
And letters open to us now "doors" during our life, the past and the present. And even in the future. I try to enclose a part of the life, a part of in these letters, that I write to you. Everyone words. I want that you understood me. Also I try to understand you, reading your letters.
I have begun the letter with these words and my thoughts! That you understood for what I have decided to choose letters for our dialogue. I do not wish to say lies and say to you, that at me phone has casually broken, or say lies and think out that I cannot to call you because I do not have phone. It would look very strange, especially at this time. When gadget is almost at each person. And on it I only try to give you answers, to questions which could raise at your the doubts in me, and my words.

I understand, that for you I am secret. You have many questions, simple and difficult. Also believe I will answer all your questions and as I will tell about the life in more details that you understood me better. That it was easier to us to communicate. And to continue our friendship.
I something can probably miss and pass your question. But I ask you do not take offence at it! Tell to me about it, and I will answer you.

Likely I need to tell in more details about that time, that when that I was for the husband.
Yes, it was for a long time, and to speak here especially not that. It were false feelings. We have understood, that became simply friends, and feelings which were between us, have disappeared. I worked much, my former husband the same. And once we have decided to divorce. It is difficult to live with to whom there are no feelings. We did not swear, did not change each other (I can is exact tell only for myself), simply we have understood, that we cannot be together. Since then I one. And as I know at it already there is a family, and it has children. And I am glad to it. It is glad that we have made in time this decision. Also did not torture each other.
And I worked much, and that moment has come when once I have woken up and have understood, that I one... And me it became terrible. Terribly that I will one till the end of my days.
I tried to start relations over again. Tried to find the man, in Abkhazia, in Russia when went on target and spent there my holidays. And even through the Internet (I think, that you have already understood it). But often those would come across to me not with whom I wished to begin relations. Or even to start to communicate. Anxious, false. And rough men.

Someone tried to buy me, thinking, that behind my appearance the silly girl disappears. And very strongly were mistaken when understood, that I not so am silly! And someone has been adjusted on serious relations. And me this scarecrow.
Certainly I wish to have a family, I will probably have children one or two, it is not important boys or girls. But not now! Now I still wish to live much for myself. I think that you understand me! And this normal desire.

And even now, I still have not found with whom it would be interesting to me. But I do not lose courage (smile). I believe, that once I will meet that only thing. I hope, that by then I will not be 90 years old (smile).

And now I live in small apartment which the firm where I work has given to me. I cannot tell, that it big, but for 1-2 people it would be sufficient. Kitchen, a rest room, a bedroom, a bathroom and a toilet. Unless it is necessary more?
City silent, and here very few local people. The most part of visitors on rest, but I happen in a city a little. All who here lives and long time works, prefers to spend time in the country. Here there is a small village not far from a city. There there is a market, shops. Here it is silent, very few tourists, and the main thing, here it is possible to spend time well.
I usually go here by a bicycle. Yes, I like to go for a drive on mountains, and woods. It gives the chance to have a rest to my thoughts.
I do not love the car, as once I have had an accident, and have strongly damaged a foot and a hand. At the wheel there was my acquaintance, and the drunk driver ran into us. Mine the hand and a foot have begun to live, and are not ill, but the fear of the car remained. And I when will not sit down for a wheel! I am afraid of cars.
I travel on the countries a little. Holidays I spend houses to Russia, with parents. Also I travel across Russia.

I think this part of my life will be enough for today. Especially I have got tired. And I hope, as you will tell about yourself. And the reason why you search for whom that on the Internet?
I will write again to you as soon as I will have a possibility. I hope, that you will wait for my letter.
While
Viki

As I am glad, that today not so it is a lot of work, and I have time and forces to write you this letter.

Once again forgive me, that I not so often write to you. But nevertheless, I do it as soon as I can. And each time I hope, that when I will answer your letter, again I will see your letter. I understand, that probably to you write many other things who is ready to write to you every day. Forgive, I cannot so. Letters is I work. It is a part of my life. And I try to give to it the free time. And not always at me it will turn out.

I know, that you would like to learn even more... That, I think to a smog to tell to you one more part me, my life. But we will make it together. I will ask a question which I will answer at once and as I will wait for your answer. It is simple!

What your favourite colour (the most banal question during acquaintance (a smile)). My favourite colours - red, purple, and lilac.

And I hope, that you as to answer me... It easily (smile). Also I wish to tell at once, that it not the test (the big smile). No, we only learn answers to questions which all the same we will set each other when be. And I consider it is necessary to make it now, we learn more about each other and as I will see what interest at you to me, that you want from our dialogue.
If you do not answer my questions (certainly if you are not occupied, and you will warn me, that you will make it much later)... I mean I will draw conclusions, that I am not interesting to you. And then..... Then all will be over. I think it fairly. Also that your ignoring my simple (in my opinion) questions only will give me understanding of yours indifference to ours of dialogue. And it means, that we to waste time in the empty.

I try to let know to you again, that I do not wish to waste time in the empty! We and so to waste this time because of my work. And as, I do not wish to deceive you. And to spend your time. And on it, we now learn each other that after to solve.... Whether we can continue our dialogue, and go to one purpose... To forget for ever about loneliness. After all both of us want it? You agree with me? I will hope, that you agree with it. And as I have already told, I will answer my questions fairly, is opened, and not to hide that from you.

I think (Smile) is necessary to begin with more simple questions. And gradually I will set "deeper". We will begin!

1) to like you our dialogue? Yes, to me to like. For me it something new as if I read the book about which knows who.
2) whether With many you communicated under letters? I communicated 2-3 people, and I already said to you, that this dialogue was no more than 1-2 letters. The reason on which I have ceased with them I will not communicate to repeat, but I will tell, that in my opinion these people should address to the doctor! At them a problem in a head and in trousers!
3) Why you communicate with me? At the given stage to me to like with you to communicate, you.... Another. Certainly to me still much is to be learnt about you, but now that I know all, I have enough to continue our dialogue. And not to stop.
4) To what you aspire, your purpose of acquaintance to me? I wish to get rid of loneliness. One to be difficult. And even relatives, friends they... It is difficult to them to give what I want. I hope, that you will understand me.
5) How many at you was women (only I ask not to exaggerate, you men like it to do)? I had 2 partners. 17 years first in age. It was the first love. A kiss, and so on. I think, that you will understand me. It were a youth years then the life to me seemed another. And I did not understand much. It lasted not long.... And the second relations were longer, and because of these relations, I began to be afraid of men. And even long time did not communicate with men, was careful of them. And all because of treachery. Yes, it to me has changed, yes I about it have learnt, and yes, I will not forgive when change! It is more than close relation with men at me was not.
And I will answer at once questions which has arisen at you in a head (smile). Yes, first time was very difficult without sex, but then I began to work, go in for sports, distract more than from these thoughts. And it rescues.
6) You loved? On the present! I loved, I have described to you that my feelings have been broken and crushed"by treachery. And during any moment, I was ready to recognise, that love, the present love is not present on this planet more. But I am infinitely romantic, and till now in the heart of myself I believe, that to a smog to find that love which is worthy, and that love for the sake of which I will be ready to live! It is very difficult for describing in words. But it is confident, that you will understand me.
7) What qualities the girl that you have understood should possess, what it could be with you nearby? (I ask do not think, that I try to learn it to tell, that I such (smile)), am really interesting to me. Especially, I have already told to you, that I am not ideal!) but personally for me the man should be clever, kind, understanding. And the main thing the true! The man should make the decision itself, and only listen to another.
8) Why you do not search (probably you search I cannot check up (smile)) the girl near to you, in your country? Personally I tried, some times. There were appointments, there were flowers, but to do a step further I did not want. I understood, that it not those with whom I wished to be. Someone was silly, someone is young, and did not pass possibility to look at back of the passing girl, and I understood, that again I can feel that pain which I try to forget many years. Even there was very good man, is more senior me, clever and understanding. But even then, I have learnt, that it is married. And I did not wish to destroy a family, I have simply told, that I will not do a pain to his wife. Also has asked to think it of, whether correctly it does. It is not assured, that he has heard my words.

Likely it is time to finish questions. And as I wish to add, that if you have the on which you would like to receive the answer, you can write them to me in the same order, and I with pleasure will answer them. Not hiding that.
I think, it is time to me to finish this letter, in it you have learnt much more than I thought to tell to you. Some secrets of my last life, some dreams. And it is final, you have learnt again me. I hope, that you understand, that I simple, live, and real (smile).
I will wait for your letter again.
Viki

To admit fairly, I thought that I can not write to you. At me not so it is a lot of time today. And likely I could pass the letter to you. Also I think you has not taken offence at me xxx, for it. Truly? But nevertheless, I again write you the letter. Also it will not be possible big. But I will try to transfer the most important thing in this letter. The main thing, that I remember and I do not forget about you. Also that I to see glad again your letter. And to answer it, I tell more about very "fascinating" bottom (the big smile).
I very much hope that with you all well xxx. And if you have got tired I (wink) much my letter should lift your mood. Believe, my overall objective that you took pleasure in ours dialogue, from my words. That it was pleasant to you. And that you understood, that it is very pleasant to me to communicate, write with you to you and to receive your letters. The purpose that you did not feel lonely. As well as I (smile). And I very much hope, that at me it already turns out. It so? Tell to me the truth, I, my words though give you pleasure much? Also do not take in head to deceive me (smile). I only wish to share with you the world, together not so is lonely isn't that so? To put in each word which I to you I write a part of the pleasure, a part of. That you completely could feel my thoughts, my world. As if I am near to you. And we sit where be in cafe, we drink coffee, and we eat ice-cream. (Smile). The warm wind blows in my hair, and I notice a smile on your person. You need to smile is more often. "Not important difficult there was a day or not. Smile also all it will be good." It is my motto. With this phrase it is easier to consult with all difficulties. And if I thought differently, and you completely plunged into all last problems, when did not see my smiles (laughter). And it is possible when we have not learnt each other.
xxx likely I need to tell something new! But I to upset you. In my life that has not changed. I all as have a lot of work now a lot of check, and to us the main things the director of firm come to be convinced that we well we cope with our work. All as I listen to music and I continue to read books. Now I read Fifty Shades of Grey. Also do not take in head to laugh (smile). To me already many spoke as I can read this bosh (in their opinion), but to me to like. And proceeding from this everything, at me all on former, the same life, as was.... To a meeting with you.
Considering that fact that in mine "a life vicious circle" there was you, it is already big pleasure for me. You remember a film with Bill Murray, "day of a marmot"? I as if the protagonist of this film, And my "film" lasted last 6 years. In my life neither that was not new nor that.... Also there was a moment when I was already ready to accept this fact, that I will live so till the end of my days. But one decision, the casual letter, has changed all. And now I understand, that sometimes it is necessary to make even mad decisions because they can change your life of times and on always.
xxx you agree with me? You do not regret that have learnt me, what have got acquainted with me? Now all suits me, all to like me. And I only "float" on this current, and I look that will be further. I wish to learn, than to end history of our acquaintance. (Smile). Can we as we will be friends many years, and probably you that with whom I would wish to spend the life up to the end. You wish to know the answer? I the same want! But now I do not have right answer. I know only that you pleasant, clever, and understanding. And you like me. To hear such words from me, it is VERY BIG compliment (smile). And you have received it. Because it is the truth.

On it xxx now I consider that my life became another. And very strongly I want that your life became better. You have affected my life, on my world. And I am glad to it. And I hope, that I can (and already could) much to change your life, and to make you slightly more happily. And I understand, that now I can give you only pleasant words, but know xxx in each word there is a part me, my pleasure, my life. And I hope, that you will understand, and the main thing will feel my care of you.
Now I finish my letter, and I wish you all the most good. Smile more, and know xxx, that you have made the world slightly better, for me it is exact.
While, while.
Viki

Time is running. With each letter we get to know each other more. And every letter tells us about us. More details of our life, past and present. Moments that allow us to understand how much we have gone through in this life. How much we understood, learned, and experienced. How many have missed and made mistakes. And to tell you the truth, I made mistakes a lot (smile). How much people would like to change something in the past (smile), but we understand that it is impossible. You can not change the past. And so we need to change the present, the future. Make him happy.
Do you agree with me xxx?

I did not tell you much about the people who became close to me. Or rather, I can only talk about one, my friend, who became my sister about which I dreamed. We spend time together if we succeed. And we help each other. She has a child, and sometimes I help her in raising her daughter. I can sit with her while her mother was urgently called to work. We are colleagues, but she works as a surgeon. And for this reason it is often called even at night in emergency situations. And she was lucky that I live not so far away from her. I always tell her about this when she again asks me to sit with her daughter. And if someone knocks at night, I know that this is not a thief (a smile), but that my friend was urgently called to work.

I can not refuse her. She often helped me, and for this reason, I consider it necessary to help her. And as I said, we do not often spend time together. But still it happened yesterday. We were lucky. Her parents came to her, and while they spend time with her daughter, their granddaughter, we left the city as soon as possible. (smile).

When we were at the cafe, she began to ask about you. About our communication. And it was very important for her to know this. To mean that I will not make a mistake. She knows that I am writing you letters, and that I am communicating with you.
She has her own reason to worry about me. And I know this reason. Maybe I should have told you about this earlier, because that's why I'm not afraid of you. (smile). Maybe you're not like your letters? (smile)
I beg you xxx understand me correctly. There is a lot of deception in this world. I know that girls ask for money and break hearts, but I also know that men are breaking lives.
I have no right to tell someone else's life, especially my friend. But you must know the reason for my fear, and the feelings. And she said that I can do this, tell you about how men destroy life ....

She was one of the first who started using the Internet cafe, It was about 2 years ago, she also found herself a man from another country. And they ... they fell in love with each other. At first she wanted to go to his country, but because of the large amount of deception on the Internet, he insisted that he would come himself! And she did not see anything wrong in it.
Moreover, she loved .. You know what xxx does love with people?

She was happy, and she told me a lot about him. That he was from England, that he sent her flowers. I sent small gifts. And probably it's easier for me to write that it was all like in beautiful love stories.
He flew to her, and lived with her for 2 weeks. She took a vacation, and I thought she was happy. But then he packed up things and flew away, changed his place of residence, changed his phone number. And left her a note, with the words that he had a good time. And thank her for this!
I will not be able to convey in the letter the feelings that my friend felt, she was frustrated, humiliated, and the most terrible feeling for a decent girl, is the feeling that you were taken advantage of ... it hurts.

I saw her pain, I saw her tears. And in 9 months her daughter appeared. She did not begin to have an abortion, the more she is forbidden to do this for medical reasons. Her parents were against this child first, but then they accepted him.
Now she does not believe any man! And he considers everyone to be weak and vile. I will not agree with her, since I still have hopes that there are still good men.
You like xxx, are you good? (Smile).

Now you understand that I want to be a little cautious with you (smile). But still I made one mistake. And I needed to say this in a previous letter.
Sometimes I fall in love with books, I read them, and I can not stop. But for the first time I have a warm feeling for the author of this book. And I want to believe that this author will not be different, but will be exactly the one who opened this book for me.
This author is you xxx (smile).
Kiss.