Hello xxx .
Today I have a lot to say to you in my letter .
I thought about you all yesterday evening and all night.
For me, it was so anxious to define their feelings and decide .
But all I firmly decided for myself and I could no longer hold it all inside .
xxx I want to skat thee how I love you so much .
All of this is a strong shake, and all those feelings that are stored in my heart I can
call love.
Last night, I realized that our communication with you is to me a novel.
It draws me again and again immersing me in dreams.
xxx strong sense of love for you is in my heart palpitations which is haunted .
I understand that it will not stop.
Now I understand that you're just the man I've always been looking for.
I understand that we're not just together.
xxx for the first time today, I told you about my grandmother .
I had to tell her it's because I could not hide these feelings in my heart.
Grandma cried a lot from what I understand that I communicate with a foreign man.
xxx sorry but she has a good reason to cry for the occasion.
One day I swore to my grandmother about that any more in my life when I will not talk to
inostratsem .
Honey I'm not telling you this because it is very much afraid.
I find it hard to remember my past communication with a foreign man and I always tried to
hide it.
xxx I'm trying to get to know you as much as possible in order to understand what
you're a man .
I tried as much as possible to get to know you to understand your life and your character.
After all, my life once already had to deal with a foreign man.
All this has left a very sad mark on my life.
xxx I just want to tell you about their future alien.
I understand that you are a very different type of man , and so you can not throw a Woman
dropping below the nobility.
xxx I know that you are a very noble man and you can be trusted .
My first encounter with a foreign man was about three years ago.
At that time I was living in a dream and tried to build its own independent privacy
beautiful .
I dreamed of a beautiful life and a passionate love like the many women .
In the entourage of men who were with me in my country, I did not see it .
In many ways, I find it hard to be with Russian men and I can not understand the reasons.
Sometimes I think about the fact that this affected my upbringing grandmother who from an
early age taught me etiquette.
I wanted to find an elegance and passionate man .
And I found it on the Internet .
His name was Ali , he was a passionate and by Egyptians living in Cairo.
xxx he was very mean-spirited man , and I remember it so bad that I experienced being
with him.
In his letters he always seemed to me that it is the man of my dreams.
Careless noble Egyptian with his own yacht and luxurious villa .
He wrote so much to me and I called to my country.
At the time I first started working in the school and work with children .
For me, then communication with the Arabs was above all my life and I tried so hard for
it.
At that time I had not much money to be able to pay for a trip to Egypt .
I had to leave school and take private services logapeda .
So I could have more money and hoarding them for a meeting with the Arab.
Our interaction lasted for about two months because I had been saving hard -needed money
for the trip.
The Egyptians told me that it is necessary to give all the money I spend on the trip .
He said he could help me with the necessary money but will not do it prentsipialno .
In many ways he venil Russian women and talked about how he once cheated on the Internet.
I was so naive to believe him and gathered all their forces largely denying themselves had
been saving money.
I had to live every day with a dream and a passion.
My grandmother was the same way with great trepidation belonged to the vile Ali and
admired his Arab tempirametrom .
He even promised to introduce her to one of his parents.
He promised me so much ..
Our meeting took place in Cairo luxury.
Arab Ali from the first day hit me with his manners and care.
He met me at a luxurious car and gomfortabelnom expensive guesthouses room.
My first month of life with this vile man seemed to me just gorgeous .
But after the first month of this luxury at it and I began to run out of money to pay for
it all .
Along with him, I spent all my money he gave me for my stay .
He told me about temporary problems with his bank accounts and the work in which he held
an influential position .
He always told me not to worried about our costs and the fact that it can be many times to
reimburse me for all the costs .
But the time of our life together all protikalo quickly.
His temporary problems have become a very protracted and did not dare .
At the time I believed him so much that they spend all their money.
The Egyptians had promised me a future good life captivating my naive love.
I sought help from my grandmother and she handed me the necessary money for this beautiful
life through the Western Union system .
Grandma did not regret the money after all we were confident that all this will come back
after our passionate Ali solve their problems .
But over time, that does not happen , and Ali became very aggressive and violent .
He has ceased to be in my eyes, so the hero 's lover as I wrote so beautifully in his
letters .
He lied all the time and gives me the naive hope that soon all will be well and only need
to wait.
I repeatedly had to ask for money from Grandma .
Granny even had to ask for money from my parents and deceive them by telling them that she
needed the money for drugs.
All this could go on for so long and the time was coming to the end of our romance.
The Egyptians told me that he needed the money to fly to London to resolve their important
issues .
My grandmother telegraphed us the necessary amount of money in the hope that it will be
able to return all required .
xxx it was the saddest point in my life.
Leaving Ali told me that I was waiting for him at the hotel and after three days he will
be back with me.
I was waiting for him and was in poslnom alone.
I naively believed in the fact that very soon all will be well and we will live happily
ever after.
But Egyptian mercilessly threw me one .
I waited for him for two days and kept the hope.
My condition then it was hopeless and sad .
I was left alone in a foreign country with no money and a big hotel bill .
xxx that happened broke my life and I first asked for help from their parents.
My parents are very influential people and were able to find their komponenov business
in Egypt who could pick me up from the hotel and return home to Russia .
All of this could have ended much sadder to me .
Since then, I have become very much appreciate their parents and more respectful to them
is .
xxx I hope that you can understand me correctly .
I once had a life very much mistaken in love and my heart was hopelessly broken.
But time is a great healer , and eventually I was able to forget everything and live a new
life .
My parents were able to give me back my work at school and an incentive to life.
They were trying to find the right man to me but it was not for me and my heart.
Parents tried to drag me into your life and make it the same monotonous .
I have changed in many ways during this time but did not become that which I want to see
my parents .
During a craving for foreign men are not lost in my head.
Once again, I set out on the Internet looking for love because without love, life is not
happy .
My search was stiff and in many men, I do not see that that found in you.
Honey I understand now that revealed you all my soul and I want you to be able to
understand me.
xxx I love you and it's not just my dream .
I understand that you're just the man who will not leave me and will love me giving me all
your care .
xxx now after what has been said I was like a free and sad.
I do not know how you will include to my letter and can I hope for your love and your
trust .
Write me please what I'm begging you .
I want that nightmare , remains in a past life.
I want to start life anew .
I WANT TO MUTUAL OF NORMAL HUMAN RELATIONS .
I 'm afraid to repeat the mistake of his life a second time.
xxx I will wait for your letter.
your Yulia