You are a heartless smoker and have no true feelings within your heart. All you said to me where all lies and i am glad that it all came out now. what i ask of you was not a must, you should have quietly told me you don't have money i will understand because i will in no situation want to stress you over money because you have kiddies to care for. I am not stupid or a joker when i try to ask you for a help that is not necessarily a must to do. I am really disappointed and i couldn't believe this has happened. I try to wake up several times to find that i am not dreaming that it real you are not faithful. i am a man who wants to be free in all things and not to have any problem with no humans,, i tried as much as i can to apologize even if i am not guilty to my fellows. That does not mean i am a fool but i am a man of peace and i will love to keep it that way. All i am trying to say is, it is not necessarily we become couples but can still be friends in-spite all. I still will love to meet with you to prove you wrong of your thought about me. I have loved you like no other and that feelings still remain for you but i will not have any serious relationship with you no more,, I believe with time this crazy emotion will fade away. We could be friends if you don't mind because that is the only reason i will come to you just to prove myself to you. I loved you and your kids.. most of all xxxxxx. I will love to meet her. 

I have paid for the replacement of the two faulty cars and will be place among the rest. I am done here in the state and will have to wait until Friday to see the ship depart before i leave for England. I would spent two weeks here but i have to leave because i am not in a good mood to stay here all alone it better i go home and spend quality time with my son.I Still have allot at hand but by the end of the month i will come and see you if you so wish. It is not a compulsory thing you accept my visit, you can say no or yes whatever i will be fine. I am use to asking how you and the kids? I hope all is well with you all and Christina how is she? Be good, take care, smoke less and have a good afternoon.

best regards

Mike.

On Mon, Oct 6, 2014 at 8:44 PM, mike hackman <mikehackman54@gmail.com> wrote:

No matter what you think of me,, I will always love you, you can hate me if you want but the fact still remain I love you and want the best for you,, byee

Darling we have to be in a good mood. This is killing and i cant help it no more. The more i tried to forget the more i think of you and it hurting me. I can feel your sadness and it not making me feel better too. I always want you happy not sad. What you are going through right now same i am going through. Cant you see that we love each other and we are meant to be together. I see nothing wrong in what i ask you. and shouldn't break us down like this. I haven't rested well since this whole thing started and i don't want to continue. I am not use to drinking but i have to when all i can think of is your strange attitude and knowing you are woman who can not support me when i need her help makes me think and i don't know what to think of you. Knowing i cannot ask my wife for something when i need it makes me think otherwise of you because a Man and a Woman in love have to be there for each other"s success to make their relationship fruitful and rich in wealth living happily with good things to lean on now and for the future. But in your case right know i don't know what i should think of you xxx. You are not supportive when your Man needs your help. sorry but that is how i feel.  Deep down in me i know i loved you truly from my heart and have always wish to be with you and be happy. You seems to have time for your friends. I will like to ask if they are not Married or dating rather.. are you all single ladies? I ask because if your friends are dating, you will love to have your man close to you as they are to their man. You seems to rely on your friends for love and happiness and that seems very good for you.You regard your friends more to your lover, what they tell you that is what you will do where to choose to go that's where you go just because you love your friends. . I really don't know what to think of you right now my dear but the fact still remain i love you and wish to be with you. I meet ladies everyday lots of them who admires me but i choose you. why then do you take me for granted and have to make me think so much that i have to get my self drunk just because of you? I still cant imagine myself drunk. I felt bad within me to have done this. I have dispose the rest of the Hennessy when i woke up because i don't that to repeat itself again. I meet a lady at the beach, she approached me where i was sitting alone and requested she join me which i accepted her to sit, and i spent time with her talking because i needed to talk to someone. I ask her few questions as a woman and her responds makes me really mad at you without her knowing what i was feeling inside. All that happened to us i explained to her. and when i ask her if she was to be in a relationship with a man online and both of them seems serious about each other and the man is on a business trip and has to call on her for assistance to handle some issues of funding in his business what will she do? then she told me as ;long as they are in love she see no reason to resist helping the man she love and want to be with. She will do what it takes to make the man come to her quickly because she loves the man. Then i further ask her. why cant she get angry because the man ask for her help. then she said why would she if she loves the man she will help and she sees nothing wrong with that. she just want the man to finish his work quickly and come to her. That was when i told her i am leaving. she tried to hold me back but i told her i really have to go then she ask my hotel number but i refused... but we exchanged email contact and has promised to keep in touch as friends. to me it OK because i feel nothing for her. We took a foto and i left her back to my hotel where i slept drunk and woke up this money very tired and sick. I want to know what your intentions are for me, Do you really love me ? where is this taking us? I cant leave with the thought of not knowing if i should confine in you or not. I want to be straight with you and to know fully that you are mine. I don't want heartbreak in my life. I need to know my stand with you.

On Wed, Oct 8, 2014 at 10:12 AM, xxxx<xxxxxx@gmx.de> wrote:

Bad, tired and not home
-- 
mike hackman <mikehackman54@gmail.com>schrieb:

How are you? 

On Wed, Oct 8, 2014 at 8:58 AM, mike hackman <mikehackman54@gmail.com> wrote:

I am sorry,, I had some Hennessy at the beach and when i got to my Hotel i took some more,and before i realise i was drunk and asleep. I needed to and that's the only way i could achieve it, I woke right now very hungry and tasty, there is nothing i could do now so i decided to check on you to see you have sent mail i couldn't respond to. I am sorry. 

On Wed, Oct 8, 2014 at 6:18 AM, xxxx<xxxxxx@gmx.de> wrote:

i had right, right? 

you are pitiful 

bye



Änderung:

I love ducks, They are calm and innocent, peaceful with a heart of Gold. They are fragile and love is their passion.. I love doves too. I feel great peace watching them feed, their beauty is marvelous.  I love where you went today..it is a god place to spend quality time. I took my son to the movies. I decided to take him to the movies. We had good time anyway but he loves it more when we go fishing... We jot home few hours ago and had to fix my son a meal, make Make sure he is OK... you must have really enjoyed yourself today.. smile,,,, 

On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 7:17 PM, xxx<xxxxxx@gmx.de> wrote:

Hi

we went to the Rursee, this is a place that i love .

in summer there a too much peaple but now in autuumn when the tourists are home it is wonderful.

we feed fishes ( big fishes ), the ducks and wonderful white swans, i like places witch are silent and peaceful, when you can suspire and all minds can go.

and how was yours day? what are you doing?

what are the things you do that makes you not decent?

On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 11:18 PM, mike hackman <mikehackman54@gmail.com> wrote:

Then you must have lots of friends there on facebook

On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 11:18 PM, xxx <xxx> wrote:
 
hmmmm... i am not allways decent ..on facebook, i think 3 years 

Gesendet: Montag, 29. September 2014 um 00:15 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

how long you been on Facebook>?
 
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 11:15 PM, mike hackman <mikehackman54@gmail.com> wrote: 

You have allot to do. You go to work, get back , cook, you are a very responsible and decent woman
  
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 11:11 PM, xxx <xxx> wrote: 
 
tomorrow i go to work until 16 Uhr and than cooking, household every day the same....  

Gesendet: Montag, 29. September 2014 um 00:04 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

What will you be doing tomorrow?
 
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 11:02 PM, mike hackman <mikehackman54@gmail.com> wrote: 

Ok I will try to create an account on facebook tomorrow.. Are you in your Bedroom?
 
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 10:57 PM, xxx <xxx> wrote: 

xxx only

Gesendet: Sonntag, 28. September 2014 um 23:52 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

Hmm,,smile.. whats your facebook id i will try to get an account so i can join you.
 
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 10:48 PM, xxx<xxx> wrote: 
  
you know i am nosy, and i thougt i could a little bit snooping  

Gesendet: Sonntag, 28. September 2014 um 23:46 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

you want i create an account? 
  
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 10:45 PM, xxx <xxx> wrote: 
  
yes, i am . i like it 

Gesendet: Sonntag, 28. September 2014 um 23:44 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

No i am not, are you on facebook? 
  
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 10:36 PM, xxx <xxx> wrote: 
 
are you on facebook?  

are you still married to him?

On Mon, Sep 29, 2014 at 12:05 AM, xxx<xxxxx@gmx.de> wrote:
 
yes, that´s right and now i am happy again. i learn many about the human and i am on the way to find my inner peace. i believe to the good and i know sometimes all is good 

Gesendet: Montag, 29. September 2014 um 00:57 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

So sad this is happening to you while am here suffering with the thought of you. Life is so funny how things happen. Sometimes you dont appreciate what you but there is someone is out the dieing to have that thing the other despises. You must have been through alot.
  
On Sun, Sep 28, 2014 at 11:51 PM, xxxx<xxxxx@gmx.de> wrote: 

oh jee, this is a so long story, i left my husband 8 years ago, than..after a while he was so nice and lovely and all you can think and the kiddies want´s him back and he cames to us for 1 year, than he gone , he comes...he gone and than i had my nose full and than we divorced..than my best girlfriend died 2010. 3.2011 my sister, 7. 2011 my mother,  6. 2012 my father. i love her all so and i was

desolated and my exman was there and comes to us. i dont want this but i have´t have any power.

he was 2 years at us and i allways said he must gone but he didn´t. now, august the girl and i distant and i hope now is peace, but he phoned me sometimes but i want it. i have good friend who help me and give me mental power

Gesendet: Montag, 29. September 2014 um 00:40 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

that good, how long have you been single with your daughters? i hope you dont mind sharing with me?

No i don't smoke my darling., and i hope you give it up..it not really good for you my darling..my night was good i did had a goodnight rest . just woke up and sat to write to you because the first thing that came to my mind was you. while i sent you the first message same time i saw you message coming in,,smile,, this feeling we have for each other is real and it is destiny and i believe we are meant to be,,smile,,, kissss ,, You will always be on my mind. I wish i am by you this morning to kiss and make sweet morning love to you before you depart for work this morning. You need a shower now, you need to start preparation for Office now,, kissss

On Mon, Sep 29, 2014 at 5:31 AM, mike hackman <mikehackman54@gmail.com> wrote:

Goodmorning xxx, kss kkiss,,,smile....Time to wake up. how was your night?

Sorry I have to get the foto from my phone,,,,,

Sweetheart, you know what your family wants and how to make them happy,, these are some of the things you do that makes me very crazy about you, You have time for your family..your job don't stop you from being there for your family when they need you.. I am loving you and this is now getting serious because each day you do things that pleases my heart,, kisss

On Mon, Sep 29, 2014 at 8:42 PM, xxx<xxxxx@gmx.de> wrote:

yes, and i play with everyone "saw 1-6" who bruised them 

and where is your foto??

Gesendet: Montag, 29. September 2014 um 21:27 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

She is a very pretty Girl.. kiss wasn't that painful?.. I can feel the pain..wow.. it nice but much of it is bad it gives a different perception on someone you know
 
2014-09-29 20:23 GMT+01:00 xxx<xxxxx@gmx.de>: 
  
that´s my xxxxx... 

Gesendet: Montag, 29. September 2014 um 21:19 Uhr
Von: "mike hackman" <mikehackman54@gmail.com>

I will love you send yours too ..kisss