I feel guilty but I love you baby!   

Hello my lovely Xxxxxxx.
From your letter I see that today you are not ready to have a chat with me so I only accepted
the decision to write to you this message.
Within all day I cried and did not find to myself a place and just now I have found forces to write
this letter.
I want to be with you extremely fair in this letter.
My gentle kitten I understand what awful feelings you tested yesterday when you received mine news.
You cannot present as me it was hurt to write yesterday to you this message and to speak you that 
I again not could enter into the plane which will to fly to your country.
Now I even regret that I accepted a gift of the daddy and if I knew that it can carry behind itself
additional difficulties that I would not take this ring.
But I have taken it only because I knew as for the daddy important that you had it.
He gave you this ring as a token of his infinite respect, it is a symbol that you are accepted in
our family and he counts you his son.
This ring has for our family not only financial value but it we have big family
tradition and this ring are transferred in our family from generation to generation.
Mine the daddy has not son and consequently he gives this ring to you because we have serious
intentions to create family and I will be sure that time when you will give this ring to our son or
ours to the grandson.
I did not speak you before about this costly present because I only wanted to make to you a surprise
and I hoped that it will be a pleasant surprise
My husband I know that now time to make your decision concerning our meeting is necessary for you
and you inform me your decision in the following letter.
And I will have excitement in expectation of your answer because I really do not know that you to me
will tell.
Xxxxxxx I sincerely understand that now you have desire to surrender, overlook about mine
existence and to continue your life in loneliness.
I too thought of it but I assure you that if you will make this that we will suffer up to the end
of yours days because we could not receive happiness which was so close.
If you stop now that you will always feel dissatisfaction because we have enclosed
it is a lot of means in success of our meeting and we wait for our dividends.
My kitten I understand that it is your money and you have the right to dispose of it as you want and
if you want not to help me that I cannot force to do you it.
But I only want to give you advice.
If you stop now and if you will delete me from your life that you will sure that you be are happy?
I think that NO.
If you stop now that in our world will appear two new broken hearts which up to the end of days
we will suffer in loneliness.
But if you make the decision to make this step and to help me that all of us still we have the big
chance that to build our happiness.
You only should listen to your heart before you make your decision and after that you should not
to regret for your choice.
And I will respect any your decision because I always appreciated your opinion.
I understand my sun that now you have very difficult financial situation but I am sure that if you
will have desire to solve this problem that you can make it.
Probably you will need some weeks to solve this problem but at least I shall know
that you aspire to this.
I promise that I will make it but before I ask that you have given to me last chance.
And if you will help me that I will not inform you new awful news because I think that
in my life all bad news have ended for last 3 months.
My honey I with impatience will look forward to hearing from you also I hope that you will have for
me good news. 
I only ask you to make the correct decision and you should remember that I LOVE YOU!!!!!
Still your girl Naty



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I love only you my baby    

Hi lovely Xxxxxxx.
How are pass your days?
What now at you weather?
At us in Russia the sun in the afternoon shines and becomes so hot that it would be desirable
to undress and be expiated in the river and in the morning and in the evening again becomes
coldly also it is necessary to put on warmly.
I have come in Skype and waited for you there within 20 minutes but you on former remained in
Off-line so I has made the decision to write to you this message.
Today in the afternoon in the house which is near to my house has taken place
fire and I from a window saw it.
Fire burned in an apartment on 8 floor.
I saw as in a window the little boy he has appeared shouted and called on the help.
In the street has gathered a lot of people but nobody could help him.
In some minutes fire has escaped through a window on street the boy not
has sustained a heat from fire and has jumped out of a window.
I have closed eyes and when I have opened it has seen as this boy lays
on asphalt, he was dead.
There have then arrived fire machines and first aid but nobody has had time
to help this child.
To me have said that mum of this child left to shop behind purchases and
has closed his houses and at this time there was a fire.
The boy could not leave an apartment and he had to jump in a window.
I never saw earlier that the person died on my eyes.
I badly myself felt all stayed day, it was a pity to me of it the child.
I am suppressed now and on my soul melancholy.
Even now I see as this child falls from a window and dies.
My love I know what is it the letter very melancholy but to me is valid
now hardly.
You have any news to me after your yesterday's meeting concerning your trip?
Xxxxxxx write to me when you will have time.
I will always love you.
Naty.



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Xxxxxxx that I should think now? 

Hi my honey Xxxxxxx.
My working day is finished also I has come back home and included my computer to receive yours
news but you have not written to me the new message...
My love that means it?
I also am in Skype this minute and you again are not present there!
When we had our last chat on Sunday that you spoke that on Monday in the evening you can
to have On-line conversation with me and yesterday I within 1,5 hours waited for you in On-line
until then when mine the Internet has ended.
And I only thought that probably you had not opportunity to speak with me and you write to me new
the letter where explain to me the reason of your silence but I have not received it today in
the morning.
And I also did not receive your message now (
My love to what is connected your silence?
What does it mean?
For the first time for all months of our dialogue I feel lonely because before you so suddenly not
disappeared from my life.
And I do not know that to me to think because to me in a head various awful ideas climb.
I do not find to myself a place and I am afraid that with you that happened.
My angel I am really very much frightened also I ask you to write to me the new letter as soon as
you will have an opportunity.
I shall wait for it and I hope that you will not keep me waiting during long time.
My prince I love you and I hope that even if this minute we cannot speak that nevertheless you 
can feel my love which already long time lives in my heart.
Always only your gentle Naty.



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I shall hope only that you will find forces to break this barrier!

Hello my loved and precious husband Xxxxxxx.
My dear you cannot present as far as it was important for me to receive today your message when
I have come back home after the ending of the working day.
The last days were awful for me because since Sunday I did not receive from you any news.
You have missed our chat on Monday and after that I did not receive from you letters about
one today.
But now when I read your letter that I feel that from my soul the stone which has fallen rendered
pressure all last days.
Now at least I can know that you are alive and healthy also this most important for me now.
For the last days my head was visited with set of awful ideas because I did not know where you could
so suddenly to disappear.
Before I had not similar fear but now I feel better and I know that you could not enter
in contact to me because now you have no electric power in your house.
And I only shall hope that within the next few days you can to solve this problem and you again can
to contact to me before you will go in your working trip.
If you will live in the house of your mum or your friend that you can probably use sometimes them
computer for a spelling to me of letters?
Really it is very difficult for me to carry out day and to not have a chat with you and to not read
at all from you some fresh lines but if you require time to solve this problem that I promise to
find the patience to wait. 
Yesterday I long time waited for you in Skype to hope to find you there and I also asked my
colleague to give to me his mobile phone that I could write the Sms-message to your mobile phone.
And I have made it only I is not sure that it reached you.
My love you have received my Sms-message yesterday?
On Monday I have come back to my work and there all is good.
I shall work until then while we shall prepare for our meeting in Berlin.
My angel now we have not opportunity for daily dialogue but I want that you knew that in
current of my day I have not even 1 minute that I did not think of you.
Ideas about you always live in my head and the love to you always lives in my heart.
During our acquaintance my love has filled me and when I meet you in the person that you will be
to sink in my love and care!
I promise you this my sun.
With the beginning autumn weather became colder and crude and I very much do not have your heat when
at night I am compelled to lie down in a cold bed...
My prince you have written to me from unknown person E-mail address and I assume that it E-mail your
friend so I write this message for yours E-mail address and I hope that you will receive it soon.
I do not know when you have an opportunity to write to me again but I shall check my e-mail
every day.
I love you my flower!
Your beloved Naty.



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Your letters allow me to live! 

Good afternoon only my Xxxxxxx.
Now I have time for a dinner so I have arrived home and before to eat I included my computer
in hope to receive your message and I am happy to see and read it
I very much hoped that before your trip you will find a time to write to me even some lines and you
have justified my hopes so I am grateful to you for it.
After 4 days time silences I have received from you the new big message and it similarly to the sun
in cloudy the sky.
Your letters also force me to smile and heat my soul!
I know that this minute you already are in yours travel and I do not know when you will read it
the message but I shall pray only that you had safe trip and that tomorrow you it is safe
have come back home.
And also my prince I promise you that I shall try to write to you every day if I shall have opportunity.
Even if you will not answer me at once I shall continue to write to you that when you have again got
access to your e-mail you could see that I constantly think of you and it is difficult for me to
live far from you. 
My husband I sincerely regret that because of me you appeared in this difficult situation
I should arrive to your country several weeks ago and allow to you money resources that you
could pay yours bills but because of a new unforeseen problem our meeting again was
it is removed...
I really very much regret about it my angel and me be hurt from idea that I cannot help you in
this minute and I feel helpless.
In your letter you asked me and amount of money which I now have.
And I want to tell that now I have practically full amount of monetary resources to buy
tickets aboard the plane and also I have 250 Euro so I need in additional 450 € that completely
to have 700 € which I should show at the airport that without problems to fly to your airport.
Xxxxxxx I every minute remember that I cannot admit occurrence of new problems on our way and
I work above it.
I hold a situation under the control and if in the beginning of October you can render me final
the financial help that I promise to you that I can fly to you because now the prices for tickets on
the plane have not changed also I still I have valid my documents.
I also daily enter in Skype in hope to meet you there.
I understand that it is improbable but nevertheless I hope for it
My dear prince I madly love you and I want to speak you it again and again.
But I want that you heard it without the help of the Internet.
I want that you heard it from me when we shall be together.
I am visited frequently with sexual ideas and I do not know as to struggle with it.
Sometimes I only am compelled to take cold a shower to calm down because my body starts
to burn and I feel excitation in my body.
I think that you also have similar problems and if you have found a way how to struggle with it that
I wanted to know it
My kitten now I should finish my message because soon I should come back in
university and I still did not eat.
I love you my future wonderful husband!
Naty.



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I love you baby! 

Why I love you Xxxxxxx:

I love you because you are intelligent.
I love you because you seemed cultured.
I love you because you are wise.
I love you because you are beautiful.
I love you because you seemed disciplined.
I love you because you are everything I want in a men.
I love you because you are graceful.
I love you because you seem honest.
I love you because you keep me wanting more.
I love you because you live me.

Sincerely yours girl Naty.



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hello sweatheart. 

Hi my Lovely Xxxxxxx.
I have again come in Skype in hope to meet you there and I see that you again are in off-line so
that I only want to write to you now this short message and I hope that you will receive it
before you will go again in your working trip.
My angel I only ask that you were cautious in yours travel and I shall wait for yours
returnings with impatience.
I hope that next week you will have an electricity in your house and we again can
to have our daily dialogue and we shall make last step to our long-awaited meeting
The last 2 weeks were awful because I very much do not have dialogue with you and your attention.
Before I had it every day but now I am compelled to wait within several days of the answer
to mine message.
But I am patient also I with understanding I concern to your problem.
My husband I only want that we met and were together and then all our problems will stay behind.
I love you my gentle kitten.
Only your beloved wife Natalya.



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I am happy to hear these news ) 

Good morning my dearest Xxxxxxx.
It is very lovely of you to ask to write your friend to me the message when you came back
home and you driving.
But I hope that he will not write to me again without your request
I think that this minute you already are at home and you have rest because Chris has written that
you are very much tired.
And I shall soon hope that you get access to the Internet so you can write to me.
I very much wish that within the next few days we could come back to our former daily to dialogue
and I would like to enjoy conversations with you!
And I very much wait from you for good news concerning our meeting and I think that I only continue 
to live due to this.
Now I should go in university but I shall write to you again when I shall receive your answer.
I hope that you will enough have time to have a rest after long and tiresome trips.
I love you my gentle kitten and I want to have romantic evening with you.
Naty.



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