Jetzt versucht sie/er nachdenklich zu wirken. Hello my dear xxxxxx.
Thank you for your email...as always you made me feel very comfortable reading it...
I don't know what to do...
I was sitting all evening yesterday and today and I was thinking about everything which happened and everything which can be in future and I made a conclusion that I don't know anything...
Let me explain...
What is happiness for you? For all people this is so different. People have different dreams, goals and as a result they become happy...or not....but the result is different for every person....
The question which was in my mind all day long yesterday and today: Where will we go from here, Werner? Yes, I read your email, your wishes, yes, happiness for us is something whcih we BOTH want, happiness for you and for me 2 same meanings. We could be happy...but....how?
I look at myself, look at where I put myself. I'm very responsible person and I believe that this is only my fault that I'm here now. I don't blame anyone and as I wrote to you, when I told you my story, that I'm not looking for self-pity, all I want is to have a person who will understand me, who will have the same dreams, the same goal, who I will go though all my life, together, hand in hand, we will support each other in all endeavors. You could be this man, but you are so far...
I think all I want from this email, Werner is to ask you, how do you think we can make this true? Do you believe in us and what will be tomorrow? As for me, my dad always teached me that the only question which I have to ask myself is HOW!!! He said that everything is possible and he never allowed me to tell that I can't do anything, he always said that i can do everything and everything is possible, the only question is HOW! And when you find the answer you will acheive anything you want....
I want to thank you, xxxxxx, that you gave me that hope. I really have it now. I was a bit sad yestrday and today is wasn't very easy for me, but all I need is to open my inbox, read your email and I have always smile on my face.
Think about this, xxxxxx, where will we really go from here? I think our future depends only on us, no one will help us to happy, only we can create our own reality, me and you.
Take care!
Nastya