Behind a window night.... In heart warmly you.... Before eyes your smile.... And I do not sleep, all feelings I pour in in lines on a white sheet of paper. Both day and night I think of you....
Memory-sand... I deduce your name on sand, and waves there and then erase it. But I persistently kneel also to a conclusion hands of the letter of your name. And I fade, I try to understand.... The dark wave will not gush Yet and will not carry away your name in the Installed ocean, giving light of your name to stars. Can therefore they such bright and mysterious...
Will rush back..... And I write again... How to transfer words all that tenderness warmly, that shivers in my palms. How to find that Universe where there is a happiness to love the one whom you love.....
And how to find you in my fragile world for my world and is you...
I live only when I see you, I receive from you letters.... I Live and do not require in air, you for me both the sun and air.... The Love is a self-oblivion, the Love is a pain... I know, that I will sustain any pain, after all an instant to live without you is a strange torture. I never could tell to you about it earlier. I could not say words....
The Love is a silence, words are not necessary to it... The Love is reflected in eyes....
Morning, I open eyes, in a head the dream starts to be scrolled. It was the next dream about you. Recently all my dreams are connected with you. In the dreams I see us together. Each time conditions and people round us vary..... Invariable there is only that we together...... Already together.
In a real life all absolutely in another way. I as well as in dreams wish to be with you, I love you and you are ready on all for the sake of you, and.... And you probably do not guess at all that occurs to me.
To me it is sick.... To me it is very sick, but for the sake of chance to be with you, I am ready to suffer this pain... And so day by day.... In the afternoon I shudder from a pain, and I fall to the magic world of dreams at night..... Where I am am waited always by you... I close eyes and it appear in the world... We stand in a grove of huge cypresses leaving in the sky, and we look against each other in the face. I take you for a hand, and we leave on a meeting to the rising sun.... And around the nature blossoms, and there is nobody....
Only I, you and the sun...
And then the alarm clock rings, and you somewhere disappear. And the sun already does not shine any more, and high cypresses along which we met half-way a dawn vanish. All world somewhere disappears.
Morning begins. I open eyes... And again I one...
Yours and only yours Elena