Date: Mon, 16 Feb 2009 14:12:53 +0200
From: lizonkaa@gmail.com
Hello my dear xxx,
thank you for the reply. I am so happy to be with you. Thank you very
much for your picture. Why did you send it to me?
I am dreaming about being loved, understood. I am strong person, I can
overcome any problems I have, I try to find the solution in the
difficult period of life. I believe that there is the solution for
sure for any problems we just must look at this problem from another
side. But I am the woman and I am weak in a certain way. Even the
strongest person need to have the partner in her life. I also need. I
know that it is very important to know that you will come home and you
will make the dinner and you will make for Your man at home. I want to
do this all for him because then it is easier, then the life gains in
importance. I was married two years,I thought that I met the love of
my whole life. I was blind with my love and I didn't want to notice
the evident sings and things. I was open, honest, I gave my heart and
I thought that I would receive the same from his side.
We lived happily one year. He was the sportsman. He was the boxer. He
was very good in that. He made success in his box and I tried to
support him as much as I could. We dated for four years, then we
decided to get married. We lived happily one year then next year was
the hell for me. I was living in the real hell. There were the
competition and he dreamt to win it. He made everything for that.
Everything was ok but he lost. I still don't know why. He didn't say
me anything. But it was not the end of the world. He could train and
he could try one again. But he was ruined by that result. He was
angry and he didn't want to listen to anyone, I couldn't do anything
to make him believe. He started to drink. I tried to understand that,
I tried to make him stop that. But he became unbearable he changed
very quickly, he became rude, closed and drunk. He stopped his
training, he stopped working. He stopped doing anything around the
house. I came home after work and he was lying drunk ion the sofa. He
didn't have money, I stopped giving him the money, because I knew he
would go and buy vodka. He started to sell the things from the flat.
One day I came home and there was not even the TV! All my saving, my
precious adornment was selling. Only the things which I was wearing
are left. I couldn't do anything, the doctors can't help me. One year
I was struggling with that, but one day when I came home and he didn't
have anything to sell he started to shout at me he demanded money. I
didn't have any money, he started to hit me, shout at me, I have never
heard such words!!!! I was so afraid, I was ready to give everything
but to make him leave me. Then he saw the ring, that ring he bought
me, he took it and left. I didn't see him for two days. I was happy as
I was so afraid, I was horrified, I didn't wait that from him.
Then I decided to get the divorce. It was the difficult and horrible
process. We sold the flat we have and all those money I paid for the
debt he made. He left this town and I was happy. I won't be able to
see him again.
Yes, my story is very long. Sorry, that I took so much time. I hope
that I didn't bore you with this. I know that everything is in my
hands now.
I stop here. I will wait for your reply impatiently.
Kisses, Liza.